4.23.01

ok, i've been changing the site again. in fact, if you're epileptic and not careful, you could go into a seizure i've been changing stuff on here so fast. i think i finally found a design i like..but dammit. i wanted to share it with someone i knew...well, i damn sure couldn't share it with J. i'm almost positive he wouldn't be to thrilled by the idea of his life being published to thousands of people. so, ::drum roll please:: i choose my mommy! (hi mom!) i share almost everything with her anyway, and since i was laid-off my trips to the springs have become more and more infrequent. at least this way, she knows i'm alive and well (maybe sometimes too well) so mom, here are some tips ::don't think about me having sex, or doing bad things. pretend i'm someone else's daughter while your reading bad things about me. when you see the good stuff..remember i'm your daughter. and no matter what...don't tell dad:: ok, now that we have that out of the way i can get on with my entry. well, for starters i haven't slept yet. i've been up all night trying to make your internet experience a better one (please direct all thank you cards to ::[email protected]::) at one point in the night i took a sip of Coca-Cola that had a cigarette butt i had thrown into it earlier. (and you thought sperm was bad?) i don't know why i'm obsessed with this website all of the sudden...maybe it's because i have no where to focus my energy now except on this. i suppose i could be looking for a job...(::whining:: but mommy, this is more fun) oh geez, i think i'm getting delusional. i'm thinking that's what no sleep and almost a pack and a half of cigarettes will do to ya. unfortunately, i think if i tried going to sleep right now, i'd have little success. my body likes to torture me when i'm mean to it. i think it secretly hates me for all the bad things i do to it (ex. smoking, drinking, lots of sex, little sleep). by the time i'm 30 it's probably gonna turn on me and i'll turn out looking like joan rivers should if she didn't have all those face lifts. (uh-oh did i spill her little secret?) screw it i'm feeling bitchy (in a good way..if there is such a thing) more to come later...if i don't fall into a coma for 3 days ::julie::