4.21.01

As i'm sure you noticed, i redesigned the place, i hope you enjoy it, but to be perfectly honest, i don't think it matters much because it took to damn much work for me to change it back to what it used to be. with all my work i've been doing on the site, it seems i've forgotten to update you. my apologies. well, on friday morning i broke down and called J. it turns out i was worried about nothing, as i suspected. It seems as if he's been fighting an addiction that i've started him on...vicodin. yes, i'm admitting it. i love vicodin....(or any pain killers actually) and without a second thought, i let J take them. i've never had a problem with withdrawals when i run out..(which is quite often considering i don't have a prescription, i only get the lovely little bastards when i can find an innocent bystander willing to sell me some. i used to get them from one of my co-workers @ the track, but as you know...that's gone) anyway, J seems to have major withdrawal symptoms (ex. bitchiness, anger, tired yet restless) which i knew a long time ago. So, he's been putting off calling me until he feels "back to normal". i guess that seems like a logical reason. and i could tell in his voice he wasn't lying. all the worries, all the headaches...for nothing. i swear, sometimes i don't need pain pills, i need anxiety medication. anyway to make it up to me he decided to take the day off of work and spend it with me..(all together now.."aawww") however, i had errands i had to run, and he didn't end up coming over till around five..but i was still happy. we talked for a good 3 hours before deciding what we were gonna do. we had to catch up on the whole week (not that i had a lot to contribute to that conversation.."uhh...i cleaned, and i slept...and..oh, yeah..i went to the grocery store"..i mean come on, being unemployed and almost broke doesn't really leave you with a long list of conversation starters) well, he told me all about his week...which was almost as boring as mine (thank god) and then we decided to stay home and not drink ( i know..what the hell is that?) it didn't last long though. we went to pueblo reservior and sat around the lake until the sun went down..but we both brokedown and had to go to the liquor store..i mean..it is friday night people! the rest of the night was great, we played strip poker (no, not poke her..at least not yet) and even though i was the losing party, i did enjoy myself. we upped the stakes after we lost all of our clothes and decided to wager on Polaroids of each other. once again....i lost. most of the Polaroids of me were along the lines of this... ( * )( * ) thank god J has a thing for boobs and not other not-so-pretty places. they don't call it bumpin' uglies for nothing....but, amazingly i did get a few of him for my wallet! of course all of this nudity had us a little *worked up* so we had some damn good sex. ya know...sometimes long silk scarves come in handy. anyway, i've rambled on enough for now. julie