Life has been great, my girlfriend is the best woman in the world and I really am ready to marry her.... Wait, I already did! haha, God I love her!
But Aurora, THE BIGGEST BITCH IN THE WORLD! I've tryed, I really did! I've tryed to even to just cut her out, BUT NOOOOO what does she do, goes and start's calling me names? AURORA!! WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?!!!!! HOLY SHIT IM TIRED OF THIS SHIT!
ahh... ::light sigh:: ok ok, thats out of my systems, FUCK!!!!!!!
ok ok ok, Im done. ahh... but sweetie I LOVE YOU!
Its 4:22pm 12/25/03
Marry Christmas, and I hope everyone (that includes you Aurora) is having a great time today. With the rain and the snow and everything!
I went over to my girlfriends house yesterday, scary thing is its just down the street from Auroras house. The house was even built the same as hers.... I shuttered at the memeorys that ran in my head, cant run from the past forever. Another weird thing happened, this was earlyer in the week, (I dont know her nick name so here it goes) DQ, Dragon Queen, IMed me. Now I didnt know about it till it was too late, like 2 days late. And the REALLY weird part was she called me William. And she said that what we had was nothing to me because I couldnt remember her SN, now she doesnt talk to me for 4 months, and then tryes talking to me trying to make it better?! Im sorry, but we both promised to never talk about what happened that day you told Aurora all the bad stuff. And she doesnt have half the mind to find out what we did the rest of the day, so no, Im not going to allow that type of shit to happen I will not allow you to just walk back into my life trying to make things better all because of one day that you cant get out of your head! I know it sounds mean but I just cant let that happen DQ, I cant.
Its 10:52pm 1/02/04
My brother is yelling at mom for things that he doesnt have to do (he does nothing... never... ever...) and yet he still lives... But I had a really bad feeling tonight was going to be a weird one... Aurora just IM me... telling me that her grandma died, my heart goes out to her family... still hates me... she sayed that she might forgive me, in a million years... but its there... ::just wishing to punch my brother in the face:: he has no vocabulary.... his extent of his is fuck... thats it..."You know how many cops who stop me ask me how your mom is doing?" Im leaving the f-words out... ok Im going to get off that subject... this sucks... just get it off your god damn chest Aurora! FUCKING YELL AT ME, Im waiting...
It's 3:42pm right now 1/6/04
Well... Im moving... in a month, I think the first... my parents are keeping me in the dark because they dont want me to tell my mom anything that she could use against them in a court or something.... its funny.... I know Im going to miss everyone, but I really dont have any feeling for this. I think its because Ive moved so many times that I really dont care anymore. Im still going to come down here every other weekend, they have been asking me for what I feel about moving and everything, and I dont say anything. I just say that there is nothing I could say to change any of your minds, I think they are noticing that I dont talk much anymore, they should. I gave Aurora something today, late christmas gift... I was told to not get close to where they hang out because she had asked me to, and I respect that but its really hard to do that when they are hanging out infront of my class room. But she was smiling and having fun with the others( witch is good because she had lost someone very close to her) so kept from looking at her as best as possible. That failed when one of her friends wanted to wear my coat, witch I had allowed but she was telling her to steal the coat so... ya... She told me that she named the unicorn that I gave her Bob, witch I was not expecting her to even talk to me, but it was cool I guess. (Mind you, Im making this as long as possible because Im not going to be posting for a while because no one reads these anyways!)
But for all that know me, have a great life... and never let anything stop you from making your dreams come true.
Its 4:08pm 1/7/04 (AKA: D-Day)
I know I said that I wasn't going to post for a while... but this is info that has to be atleast placed somewhere. My gf had broken up with me during second per ( Ironic, thats when we first met..). I asked her why and she wes listing them off, but also started to cry, I had to stop her so she wont cry anymore, I dont like it when people cry because or over me... funny.... I dont like people crying over me but yet I make so many people cry... I was acting stupid today too, she knew it... so did everyone else... well, just another reason why its good that Im moving, at least for other people...
Its 9:49pm 1/30/04 (AKA: Moving Day)
Well, the day had finally come, Ive moved from my boring condo to a new and exciting home! I live the closet that my parents didn't want. But hey, a whole month wirth of boxing up items and I still get yelled at for my room not being packed up all the way. I am really going to tie my stepmother to the back of a jeep and drag her across a Rino infested forest.
Its 8:05pm right now 2/10/04
Well, its been a while since Ive been here, I really really really dont think that anyone is reading this anymore, but its for my own good to writing this all down, so when I die, everyone can see what pain a person can cause on themselfs. The new school is being kind to me, and there is this girl who I strongly belive likes me. And I of course like her back, Im sorry to thoughs that I didnt not say good bye to, I love you all and will always miss you. God Bless all of you for loving me, because it must of been hell to.
Its 2:33pm right now 2/18/04
Life blows, self realization should of never been invented, and love can just take a finger up the ass because this is going to be a very purtty little post. That girl that I was planning to ask out was being, "Overly nice because you where new at this school..." Ya, I needed that to be said. And also, I was looking at my life and realized, Ive done fuck for anyone... nothing good ever came out of what I have done in the past, but you know, Ill just keep going because thats all I know. So smile, because your life is NO WHERE near as fucked as mine is... and a little note for all thoughs who wish to make fun of my site on my guest sign in sheet, Fuck off.