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I haven't been on latly due to having my computer taken from me for having bad grades. Im so worn out that I can hardly even type anymore, my day consits of me going to school, not talking to anyone, eat, head home, do my work, and stare at the wall. Its funny, itsnt it? Im getting what I want and Im not happy still. Ive still havent found a reason for me to be in the God forsaken world. I also found out that my old group just kind of fell apart after I left ((Why is it after I leave?)) My old friends are slowly becoming faint memorys that Im trying to hold on to. ((Thats the reason I took pictures the last days that I was over there)) Im suppose to be heading to lunch with an old friend, but I know shes going to see the change in me. ::Points at his mouth:: I havent spoken in a while, so this is going to be a LONG day. Also, my dad has gone nuts, every time I "try" to make a comment he sees it as an attack and sends me to my room to "think about how my life is fucked up." Great....
Its 2:12pm 4/10/04
Well, just over the past few days Ive gotten sucked into the dumbest fight that I have ever heard of in my life! Two of my friends where butting heads over a guy, no no no, its not what you think! One is 'in love' with a guy, the other is tell her that she has the IQ of a speed bump. And I get sucked into this because I opened my mouth! Oh, and I have a couple songs for you to understand what Ive been going though.
Sanitartium-Metalica, my home life
Leaving The Song Pt.2- AFI, I guess my love life ((whats left of it))
Orian-Metalica, my life!
Unforgiven-Metalica, my freshmen year
Unforgiven II-Metalica, Whats been going on between me and Ashely
Now these songs require you to be able to conpare and anal-ize, if you cannot, then just turn around and go hang yourself in your closet with shoes strings left by a durty bum.
Its 8:53pm right now 4/15/04
Went to Disney land yesterday, that was fun. Many people got in trouble, it was funny... kind of. The whole day everyone was tired and couldn't walk much because the lack of sleep that we got ((Aka: none)). I also spent the night at my friend Ashleys house. MOVIE TIME! thats what it was. And sorry for the fact that my post for today is really random, no sleep would do this to a person after about.... 4 days of no sleep. Ive been paying alot of attention to the radio. Aurora, Ive got a song for you ((That is if you still read this.)) Hoobastank : Reason
Get it, and think of me singing it to you. Oh and also, Shannon! Ive got one for you too! Blink 182: Down
Thats all I have for today, Ashley, I really hope you liked The Hounted Mansion.
Its 5:03pm right now 5/11/04
Holy cow its been a long time since I last updated. Alot of shit has been hitting the fan, Ashley and I where going out but not really... and now thats over... it was really my fault.. I told her that MAYBE it wasnt are time.... and I said that a while ago... but the past week she really took that to heart... then I get an e-mail from her saying that she wants to break it off.... and I read this in class... so I was already having a really fucked up day... and today... she kept telling me that she's sorry and wants to be with me again... but I have to be the bad guy this time... I said it once and Ill say it again, what we have for each other is not meant to be expressed during this time.... its for later in life... I will never stop caring about you.
Jessie called me after me telling her to listen to that song... I was expecting her to yell at me... but I was suprised at the fact that she didnt... in fact.. Im still waiting to get yelled at.. I hit a pressure point with that song.. and I meant it to be the last time I ever mention her... but sure enough it brought us a little closer to friends...
The weirdest thing has been happening to me at school. Theres a Freshmen in my first period class and she likes me... alot... now this is going by the facts that I have gathered over the past couple days... she wants to give me alot of hugs... and always looks right into my eyes when she does give me a hug.... she fallows me... witch is kind of scary...and for a second it almost seemed like she wanted to hold my hand. Now this just might be me bing a guy... but it seems to be VERY clear to my other friends... and another scary thing is.. in my first period class, theres a girl that sits right next to her, her name is Jennifer, and she looks EXACTLY like you Jessie... so I get to have an hour and a half of torture knowing what I did to you almost every day.... well, I think Im done for today, see you all next month!
Its 4:57pm right now 5/18/04
Well, I went through alot of shit the last couple of days, but thats all cleared up. And it was wirth it too, I ((Finally)) asked that girl, that was not really stocking me, out to a play called the Showcase. I asked her there because her best friends going to be in it.. so ya... Im happy! Shes very nice, and shorter then me.. so thats all a great plus! ((Not the way you other people are thinking about... you sick people!)) Ok, Im done... oh wait.. Im thinking about starting a REAL live journal... not sure though...