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| Unwritten letter I still remember the day that I met you. We've come a long way since then. I recall the weeks when you were down because you thought that I was untouchable for you, that you wouldn't stand a chance. Those times were very hard on you, physically as well as mentally. You suffered as hard as someone of your age barely can stand. You came to me, my suspicions were all right. When I asked you if there was someone that you loved, you confirmed but when I wanted to know who it was you closed your shell and didn't come out. I knew that someone was me but I wanted to be sure. You were afraid that I wouldn't care for you because you are so young. When I sent you that mail in which I asked if that someone was me you were all confused. You didn't know exactly what to say or if you were going to say it. Finally you confirmed that it was me and you were sure that I was going to tell you that I didn't love you. How wrong you were... The next day you were planning to take your own life because you still thought that I didn't love you. Luckely I came to see you at 10. And i asked you again if you loved me. You said you did and that you would understand if I didn't love you. Then came the surprise... I asked you: "what if I love you as much as you love me?". You stood there baffled, only for a moment then I heard that you were angry with me for that. That you couldn't even look into my face anymore. Then I asked why you were angry, if you were angry with me because I loved you. Still confused you didn't know what to say,but then came the 3 words that i love coming out of your mouth: "I love you". The next days of our lifes couldn't be better because we had eachother. Every moment that I could be with you have I been there. None of those moments were to be thrown away, because I loved you. Still you were afraid that you would say or do something that I would dissapprove and that I would leave you for that. But that was never the case because I loved you. One day I gave you my dogtag as a token of my love, representing that whereever you were my heart would be with you. I still kiss it every day, making sure that I'll never forget you. Then we started to make promises. You promised that you would love me for the rest of my life. I did the same and it came from deep inside me with an honesty that I never felt before. You still had doubts, you thought that I would forget about youand that so my love would disappear. I assured you that it would never be the case and even now I know that it will never happen. I remember the afternoon when we went to that happening with the entire school. How I trespassed the fences to be with you for the whole afternoon. As we sat there in the burning sun together holding eachother even though we weren't allowed to. As tge happening ended we walked back holding hands. We had to go get our stuff so we were torn apart. When I waited for you and while I was searching I felt as lonely as I could be, not knowing where you were. As I found you I was kinda mad and happy at the same time. Then we went to the park. While there I remembered how I tried to express how I felt when I didn't found you. But that didn't really matter, as I was sitting there, close to you, I couldn't stop it. I started crying. You thought that there was something wrong and you got scared. When you asked what was wrong I hesitated, I said I cried because I couldn't believe that I was loved by you. I said that I didn't disserve it. You sat there and told me that noone had ever cried for you, that I was the first to do that. You also told me that if I wouldn't stop crying that you would probably start crying. As you whiped away my tears with your fingers I felt save and I was gratefull to have you. The time to say goodbye taht day was very hard for me but I couldn't do anything to make you stay. But I know that when I sat there crying was the most beautifull moment of my life. Part 2 |
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