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DOWN

I'd like to be in company
But I just feel so alone
I'd like to hide away in bed
Bit I can't sleep when I'm down

I'd try to watch some TV
but the noise just fills my head
It makes me feel like screaming
Loud enough to wake the dead

I try to force a smile
But I cry inside my head
I wish that I could go to bed
And hope that I'm found dead

Everything seems tainted
And there's nothing that feels good
I try to see the bright side
But on the telly gore and blood

I try to live another day
And hope that things will change
"Boy murdered" says the radio
The whole world seems deranged

This shade of black grows duller
Every time I look
People try to reach me
But I'm lost in this black mood

This darkened tunnel seems endless
There's just no light ahead
I feel there's only one way out
And that is when I'm dead
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SERIAL KILLER

When I was just a little boy
My sister chocked my hamster
Just because it ate her blouse
And a half a dozen Fivers

She tried to make him cough them up
and called him wee bastard
But all she got was sunflower seeds
And half a yard of tartan

I had just about got over that
And then it was my birthday
And tradgedy it struck once more
My Sis sat on my budgie

It took me years to handle that
It really, really hurt me
Then my sister hoovered up my mouse
He went by the name of Henry

After years and years of counseling
I understand that these things happen
So I know my Sis will understand
I shot her cat while it was crapping
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NOTHINGNESS

In this land of dark depression
Pain and fear are always close
Loneliness of night is coming
Make the day come soon oh lord

In the night the silent whispers
Terrify my fragile mind
Oh dear God I can't survive this
Dear God let the blackness end

When the light comes with the morning
And the darkness flees once more
I greet the day with apprehension
And struggle through my daily chores

I know I must defeat this void
This emptyness that I've become
I watch the world as through a window
It seems I'm not invited in

In among ten million people
I walk alone as days before
The endless streets the endless walking
My mind is tired my body sore

I see the folk in bars and cafes
I watch them through the open door
It makes me feel so far so distant
As if I'm on another shore

I wish that I could be just like them
Even for an hour or so
But in this land of endless darkness
I walk away and walk some more

They give me pills they give me potions
To lift this viel needs more than that
They have to help me lift my spirit
I feel so empty I feel so flat

For many months I've lived depression
For many months I've struggled hard
So now I stand here at this window
There's nothing more so I won't look back
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