| Jessica's Journal |
| Wenesday October 3, 2002 I finally did go to a transsexual specialist, I feel very happy about that right now my life is not going well. I have been only able to think of being a transseuxual and thinking that I want to imediately start to transition. It is getting in the way of everthing that I will screw up everything that I do. I do not enjoy my life and I am thinking that I will either that complete the transstion complete with surgery or die somewhere in the process. I really need to have some help because I am hurting people. Monday, October 14, 2002 Hi, I am happy thinking of the wonderful experiences that will take place soon. I do not like thinking of my life now, but I do look foward my life as a woman. I feel very blessed that I am a transsexual. Friday, October 18,2002 Hi I am happy now. My mom is finnaly to know that I am a transsexual. I hope that it works well Friday, October 25, 2002 Well, both my parents knw that I am a transsexual, now I have to set a time to talk about that. I feel very happy now, that I am able to be myself. Now I need time to digest Saturday, October 26, 2002 Hi, it's me Jessica. I did have a talk with my mom and it went beautifully. She is the greatest person in the world. It was great to have a honest talk. I which I had the talk earlier. We did not talk long, but it was great. Febrauary 8, 2003 Hi it's me . I know I have not updating recently but I am here. I have had some some great times. I have gone shopping and was very exciting. I have a lot more to write and I will. March 16, 2003 Hi, I am having a hard time in buying women's clothes. I will be doing all of the shopping on the internet from now on. I do not find this a problem exept that I will not be able to see the clothes in person. My parents have been very good. My parents have seen me dressed as a girl, I still like the word 'girl' because I am was never was a real girl and that it is cool being a girl. I want to see myself as a woman, but it has the word 'man' in it and I do not like that word. I am a girl and I love being a girl. A woman is beutiful and becoming a woman is great. So be a woman, even with the word 'man' in it is great. My favorite is lady. Me being a young lady. I am a young lady. May 11, 2003 WOW! It seems I have not written in a while and it is. I am becoming more comfortable about my trangenderism. I have second thoughts about the transsexual to discribe me. I very much perfer to use the word transgender. I am transgendered, but I am not a transsexual. I feel this way. When I say that I am a woman, I am saying that I feel like a woman. I know that I do not to have surgery done, but I comend all the women who have had the surgery and are living their days as everyday women. I do not plan on being a woman in the I will have a vagina way but I still can be a woman . I have been doing some shopping though eBay, to my mother I have been doing too much shopping. My mom wants to be sure that I am wearing the clothes and I am. About mothers, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. I am going to a place where I can have a makeover, makeup leasons and photos taken dressed as a woman. I plan to put some photos of me on the website. They will be all PG, tasteful, and very beautiful. So come back soon and see them.. June 2, 2003 Monday Hi, I went to have pictures taken of me and I feel great about them. I may put pics on this site, if I am every about to understand how to download the pictures anfd how to resize the photos. Wednesday, June 18,2003 Hi, I am still here. Reworking my website. Still do not know how to add pictures. |
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