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| Hi, I am Jessica and I am a transgendered, transsexual, or someone with a gender indentity disorder.. I call this a journey because this is a search with myself to find who I am. I have not told anyone family member in my life about Jessica and I am quite scarted of what they say or how they would react. I have said that I have am transgendered but, they don't know I want to be called Jessica. I have been questioning if I am gay or what. I feel that I need to live as a woman. I have strong feeling of wearing a wedding dress and walking down the isle to marry. I believe I will marry a man. I do not know if I get a 'sex change' but I do not want to be boy.I know I want to wear a wedding gown if I do marry. I love the look of bridal gowns and all kinks of fancy formal dresses. I am atracted to men, but I am a man now but, I don't feel gay. I think that if I would have a 'sex change' I would be a hetrosexual woman married to a great guy. I have been online at wedding sites and they are all beautiful and I need to get a bridal gown real soon and wear one in a make belive wedding, dreaming that I will wear it one day in a real wedding, my very own. I am a Christian. I also love cheerleading (it is a sport). I also would love to own a real girl's cheerleading uniform. |
| Name: Jessica Favorite Color: Pink and purple and all shades in between Favorite femme wear: formal dresses, bridal gowns, cheerleading uniforms |
| Jessica's Joyous Journey |
| I can not feel sad or happy that I am transgendered, that is part of me and I will have to live that way. I can not change the way I feel. Sometimes I think that I should have born female.I know I was born a male, but I still have those feelings. Sometimes I think that I need to be a girl. I feel that I am atracted to males, men so I think that I am a transsexual.I have feeling s like many young ladies have. I feel in parts like a teenage girl.when I think about cheerleading. and wanting to wear a wedding gown. There is a difference between being a woman and becoming a woman and now I am thinking of becoming a woman. I realy hate being a guy and dream that I am a woman. So it seems that more and more likely that become female. |
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| I like to think of myself as "the girl next door and as an "All American girl" |
| I just thought about this, I am not gay, but if I identify as woman, which I do, and that I am attracted to guys, that does not make me a homosexual. I am a woman, I just need some help for that to become a reality. And yes, I would love find find a gentleman and be married in legal ceremony as husband and wife. |