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monday, december 17, 2001
well, it is past 3am, but i finished it: the very last paper i had due this semester. it's actually a pile of crap, and normally i wouldn't hand it in, but you know what? sometimes 5 pages of double-spaced crap handed in on the day your professor was gracious enough to extend his good will to is a lot better than zero pages of brilliant and original thinking. i'd rather get a crappy grade than no grade at all. and all that.
dudes, i just got an e-mail from my friend ninnie. i'm so happy i could fly. ninnie is the longest still somewhat active friendship i have with anybody from my hometown in sweden. we just bonded, out of the blue, our first day in high school and that bond has had to bend and stretch a lot as we both jump around the world.
it amuses me to think that we both consider ourselves huge failures academically and professionally, yet just plain ignore it and do whatever we feel like. in the midst of high school, ninnie went to america for a year and went to a high school in iowa. then, while i've been in america on and off for the past 4 years, ninnie has managed to travel all around thailand for months, worked in norway for yet more months, and is currently down under in australia for month three of her second travel around south-asia.
we get to meet or talk less than a handful of times a year, yet that doesn't seem to matter. in fact, all my friends are like this--i think it is because my friendships, however few, happened because we all genuinly like each other's company as opposed to just because they happened to be convenient. gee, how original (eyeroll) it's almost 4 am, i can't be deep! what do you expect?
anyway. so ninnie is in australia, and i'm here in america, and our families are back in sweden, and it's christmas. if you had told us 8 years ago (it's been 8 years?? whoa.) that this is how we'd end up, there would have been much laughter and "yeah, right!" errupting. hee. but it's the way it is.
man. i just want to say a big thank you to all the people who made this electronic internet thing work, because i can't describe how huge it feels to sit here in american and suddenly have a real time out of the blue e-mail conversation with a dear friend i haven't seen since the summer.
suddenly i don't feel so far away and isolated from my people. hah. my people. but it's true. no matter how much fun i end up having here in america (this will be my third christmas experience), there's always that predictable empty spot where the familiar faces and voices and cats and snow and food and petty arguments should be.
and if i hadn't stayed this late to finish my crappy paper, i wouldn't have gotten to "speak" to ninnie. as if i needed more thoughts on how strange life is. heh. it's just so funny to actually know that right this minute, she is off to a gas station to buy food for her and her friends 12 hour drive down to sydney. i've gotten this sudden flash, better than any postcard.
man. if i keep this shit up, i'll get weepy. hee. oh well. it seems i finished this semester just in time to catch a massive sentimental twang, aye? heh. figures. whatever. i heard from ninnie, i heard from niiinnie! cin cin. �� 3:23 a.m.
