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| 35 Weeks |
| December 3, 2001 It's so hard to believe that this pregnancy will be over soon. It seems like I just started this journal, and soon it will be completed. There's really a whole range of emotions that I'm feeling right now. Sadness because my time with the twins is quickly coming to an end (well, not an end as I will still be able to see them, but an end to my being with them everyday), and of course happiness in knowing my IPs will soon be the parents of 2 beautiful children. Then panic sets in as I think of going through labor and delivery again. And then there are also feelings of being completely unprepared as my bag is still not packed, even though it should have been last week, and pretty much nothing I wanted to have done for these babies is done yet!! So as you can probably imagine, I've been one giant mood swing in the past few days, and I'm sure Jason would love to vouch for that! haha I don't have a doctor's appt this week which is really a welcome change. My next one is on the 11th, but hopefully I won't make it that far before going into labor!! At first my guess was December 4th for having the twins, but now that it is the 3rd that scares me so I'll push my predicted date of delivery to December 12th. My mother-in-law is convinced I will have them next week sometime. I'm feeling pretty good now. I still have the aches and pains, but nothing I can't handle. I actually am a lot more comfortable now than I was a couple of months ago which is pretty surprising. I don't need my maternity belt at all anymore, whereas I couldn't go anywhere without it in the middle of the pregnancy. I'm 35 weeks 3 days pregnant December 5, 2001 Well, it's a good thing I decided to change my guess from the 4th to the 12th because it's the 5th and I'm still pregnant. Kay (IM) has put her guess in for the 15th and Jason has picked the 22nd. We'll see who comes closest. Yesterday my son, Tayler, caught me off guard with something he said. He's only 3 so I didn't think he understood much of what was going on with this being a surrogacy. I planned on telling him later that Kay's tummy was broken so I carried 2 babies for them so they could have a family, but I didn't think he would get it yet. I've been watching so many baby shows on TV (Maternity Ward, A Baby Story, Life's Birth Stories, etc) and Tayler has been watching with me. He likes to yell "Baby!!" when the baby is born and he rubs my tummy (he's so sweet). So on one of these shows yesterday a woman had a home birth. Tayler said "they had a baby at their house!" and I said "yes" and then he said "you have your babies at my house?" And it just caught me off guard. He knows there are babies in there, but I just never realized he would expect us to bring them home. So I didn't have any idea how to explain it except to use the example of when we had to find a new home for our family dog (bad example I know, but I didn't know what to say). So I said "Remember when we had to find Shaylee a new home? When the babies come out of mommy's tummy, they will go to a new home too" And he seemed quite content with that answer. Of course I'll tell him more details as he gets older, but for now he understands there will be no new babies in our house. Kids are soooooo much smarter than we give them credit for!! I am 35 weeks 5 days pregnant December 7, 2001 Well, I'm now swelling up like a balloon! I started getting some swelling in early November, mostly in my feet. My running shoes no longer fit---I'm not really sure what to do about that because as I don't want to buy a new pair of shoes considering I may deliver any day now, but I can't really do anything outside of the house with no shoes on!! But beside the fact that my feet look like balloons with little toes sticking out of them (picture a rubber glove blown up!), and my ankles are now the size of the tops of my calves, my fingers and my face have joined in on the action. It's lovely. I also got a huge surprise when I got on the scale the other day. Here I have been bragging about gaining 30lbs total with twins and now that's all just a nice memory. I can't believe it, but since my last Dr appt (1.5 weeks ago) I have gained 16 pounds!!!!! I'm assuming it's from the swelling as I can't eat much anymore; there just isn't room in my tummy for food, the babies are taking up all the space. Anyway, hopefully the swelling is now as bad as it will get, as it's pretty uncomfortable and I'd really rather not gain another 16lbs in the next little while. I'm 36 weeks pregnant December 10, 2001 I'm still swelling more and more. I have a Dr appt tomorrow so we'll see what he says about it then. My blood pressure was a little higher than normal today (150/80). I just finished watching a movie tonight about surrogacy. It was the story of Deidre Hall's infertility and how she had children via surrogacy. Of course I cried through the whole thing! I had seen the movie before, and I think it's what actually planted the idea of being a surrogate mom in my head (I mentioned this at the beginning of my journal). It just seemed so perfect to me that I saw it many years ago and got me thinking about this, and now here I am about to deliver my surrogate twins and it was played again. I'm 36 weeks 3 days pregnant December 11, 2001 I just got back from seeing Dr A. I am quite disappointed with my body. By this time with both my previous pregnancies I was dilated to 3cm, so I expected to be the same, if not more with these guys. The doc took my blood pressure, which was high again today, and then with all of my other symptoms he decided if my cervix looked ready, he would induce me right away. Well, I'm only dilated 2cm and Michael's head is quite high up still so we are waiting another week to see what happens :-( Of course the good news is I don't have to wait until my due date, but my next appt is on the 18th, and then they usually schedule inductions a few days after that, and then inductions don't always mean a baby comes that same day (it was 2 days after I was admitted to the hospital that Tayler was born), so I could very well spend Christmas in the hospital. :-( Hopefully they decide to come out before my next appt. I guess my scale is wrong too, because I've gained 7lbs in the last 2 weeks instead of 16 like my scale says. So my total weight gain is 37 pounds, still not too bad. I'm measuring 44cm now and I didn't ask what the heartrates were because they sounded nice and strong. I'm 36 weeks 4 days pregnant |
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