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| Monday September 15, 2003: Well ladies and gentlemen we are on to our next phase. I recieved my denial in the mail today. Nothing I did not expect, it sucks big time yes, but we all knew it was coming. So tomorrow I go to my lawyers office and sign my papers for the external appeal with New York State. I tell you it is ludicris for them to deny me. Everything that was stated in the denial letter was incorrect. It was as if they never read the letter my doctor signed. It's sickening how they get away with this. Well after tomorrow, it will be another two to three weeks for an answer from the state. If I get denied again I'm going on welfare and getting medicaid. Then I know I will have the surgery for sure. It's amazing what you have to go through to be healthy. Oh and another kicker, my original surgeon is now doing the procedure I really wanted, the duedenol switch. I could kick myself in the ass big time. Well if it comes down to me going on welfare and medicaid I will go back to Gadeleta to have the surgery I really wanted. If I had already had the surgery in June it wouldn't bother me. But since I am going through these delays it's like I should have stayed and gotten what I wanted even though I was treated like crap at his office. I really like my surgeon, Dr Vohra, and his staff is wonderful, which means a world of difference. But it makes me wonder if I had stuck it out with Gadeleta's office and dealt with their rudeness and neglect, that I would be fighting for what I wanted. Don't get me wrong no matter waht I am having surgery. I am determined to be happy and healthy no matter what it takes to fight my way there. It is just that the irony in it all s that I went to see a doctor who was recommended and praised to be treated better and hopefully have surgery sooner so I could be healthier sooner. Nothing I can do now, But fight the good fight. Keep your fingers crossed that I have a decision by the state soon. And in my favor. I still have to be put back on a waiting list and worry about my financial situation. Well if things work out, I will be going back to school in January and on my way to a better life. Wish me luck. |
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| Tuesday September 16, 2003: Okay now onto phase two.....went to the lawyer today, Gary is great!!!! It really helps to talk with someone who understands where you are coming from. Being that he had the surgery in July, he really knows what I'm going through inside and he doesn't treat me like a leper. We had a nice talk about what was happening and talked about what he is going through. He hasn't had it too easy after surgery. He had to have three dilations. I feel for him, and I hope that I have an easier time with it. Gary said I should hear from the state in a week or two. They will either call me or I will recieve a fedex telling me their decision, which I pray will be yes. We also spoke about the possibility of needing plastic surgery. He told me to start complaining to my physician now, so we can document everything. So whatever I need they will be forced to cover it, because a doctor deems it necessary. And frankly I know I will need a breast lift. My boobs are huge....40 DD. I wont lose them all, I was big to begin with, I developed very early and never had to wear a training bra, I went right to a size B overnight. So I know I will need that eventually as well, which is to be expected. I hope I wont need anything else. I've seen a lot of websites with others who have lost the weight and tightened their skin up by being deligent with exercising. I pray that will work for me too. But my boobs...hahaha...~~( o )Y( o )~~....will look like granny's hanging to her hips. Hell I'm 31 and deserve to have them lifted. And on another good note, looks like my relationship has taken a turn for the better. We have rekindled what we have lost, and I finally have hope again. Maybe my dreams of seeing clear water are true....things will start clearing up for me in a good way. Maybe there is an end in sight. Well I will keep you aprised of how it is going. Hopefully I will be calling my surgeon next week to reschedule. And hopefully that date will come sooner than later. I need to get back to work and I need to get back to school!!!!! Ciao for now. |