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| October 2004 |
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| Friday October 8, 2004: Hi everyone, sorry it's been so long since I have updated. I really haven't been feeling well. Not that I have been sick, I've just been so exhausted that I can barely make it an hour past dinner to watch any of my favorite shows. I'm going to make an appointment to see my regualr doctor for a check up. I know I'm not catching the flu or anything like that, and I take my vitamins every day. And it's been getting worse. I thought my period was making me feel run down, but that ended on Wednsday and I still haven't recouped. I doesn't help that I haven't been sleeping well, been then again I never sleep well. Maybe the stress is finally getting to me. It doesn't help either that I have been snacking like a bear getting ready for hibernation. I really have to get a grip on this. I was talking to this guy at work who is having the same problem except that he is drinking beer when he gets home. The thing is that I'm doing most of my munching at work. And it doesn't help that I'm not making the best food choices. I really have to get my ass in gear and straighten out my act. I still have 60 lbs left to lose. And my goal of losing another 12 lbs before the end of October is never going to be met. I am so pissed at myself, because I worked so hard to have this surgery and I'm letting my old habits defeat myself. People this is what I mean by you need to really work on what triggers your bad eating habits. surgery isn't everything, it's only a tool. That's the reason why I haven't lost any weight these past few weeks. I've already made a promise to myself to start walking. Just because I have to wait until we move to join a gym doesn't mean I should be sitting around on my ass doing nothing thinking that I have the miracle cure. I only have until January to lose as much as possible. After that it's going to be really hard to get it off. So it's now or never. Have a great weekend everyone. |
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| Friday October 15, 2004: Hi everybody!!!! Sorry I've been away so long, I've been so sick these past few days, it's been miserable. But not that completely miserable....I'm engaged!!!!!!! This past Saturday I got to pick out my ring, and Sunday we made if offical with a proposal!!!!!!! Can you tell how happy I am....hahahaha!!! I'll be honest I never thought it would happen, but it's real and it's sitting on my finger. I can't tell you how he proposed, it's private (blushing). Okay now on to my weight issue. I'm still holding steady at 200, and I am not happy about this. I'm drinking my water, but I have to be honest I had been cheating up until this past week. So I know my bad habits have a lot to do with the plataeu I am on. I'm hoping to shake the scale next Wednesday and finally be under 200. Things have been nuts around here. There are boxes everywhere in my apartment and we still have sooo much to pack. I'm hoping and praying that we find something real soon, because our Dec. 15th deadline is looming really close. The funny thing about being given that date is that that is the exact day I moved in here 4 years ago. I can't be too angry about this place. i got a great man, and I had the opportunity to get my dog back after 14 months. The only bad thing is going to be the cost of moving and more rent. But what's worse is that unless I find a rare apartment or find a house to buy, I'm going to have to put my dog to sleep. She's almost 16, but she's still pretty healthy. She's doesn't do much but sleep, eat, shit and not always in that order either. I can't see putting her in the shelter, that would be tooo cruel, but no one else would want such an old dog who may not make it to the new year. I'm hoping it doesn't come to that. All I have now is hope. Enjoy the weekend guys, and Go Yankees!!!!!! |
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| Thursday October 21, 2004: Hi guys. I have finally broke the 200's!!!!! Woohoo!!!!! It's only a1 lb loss but I will take it. That was the longest plateau I have been on yet. I know there will be many more to come unless I get my ass into gear. Tomorrow I'm calling to see my regular doc for two things: one my left ear is getting worse (hearing wise ) and I am always exhausted even if I got plenty of sleep.. I'm taking my vitamins like I am supposed to but I still feel weak. I'm already st my 9th month and I am off my goal target of losing 100 lbs. And I still have another 50 - 60 lbs that I want to lose once I hit that mark. It's funny, cause some days I can eat pretty well, maybe too well, then other days I can barely manage a bite. I stil have the major munchies, but it's coming under control. I have even stopped my craving for snowcaps. Thank God!!!! I thought I was going to turn into one by Halloween. Maybe I'm just tired from staying up late watching those damn Yankees...oh well there is always next year. Tomorrow we have an appointment to see another apartment, I'm hoping we can get it and afford it. Have a great weekend, I'll try and get spme new pics up by next week. Ciao!!!! |
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