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NOVEMBER 2003 continued:

Wednesday November 19, 2003:
Still no word on what's happening. I called Cigna in PA to no avail. I spoke with my lawyer and he says to not even bother anymore, since we both know I wont get a call back, but what the hell I don't have anything else going on. Oh wait I do....I busted my knee. When I say painful I mean painful. My PCP thinks I might have torn something....AGAIN...LOL. I know not that funny, but it hurts so much I dont know what else to do.

So I see an orthopedist on Monday, oh joy and get to set up a MRI. Let me just set the record straight, I have sooo many xrays, MRIs, CAT Scans, and Bone Scans I must glow in the dark, or least any future children would. And on that note, something else has happened that I knew was coming, I stopped getting my period. I know I'm not pregnant (POSITIVE!!!!) but it's been almost 2 months now. Not that I miss it, believe me I wouldn't miss it for the world, but it's just the thought if never having my period again might mean never having children. It's hard to think about.

Well I just want to give a shout out to two people who have been inspirational to me at at time like this....Julie (weblink to follow) and Kim. Julie is a woman who had WLS last year, and is doing fantastic, she was even on the Maury Povich show for people who lost over 100lbs. She got a makeover and clothes, and a shopping spree. Julie was great and is a wonderful and funloving person. She is living the life so many of us want. And now there is Kim, she is an assistant to my PCP. Kim just had her surgery 4 weeks ago and lost 37lbs!!!! She is doing great, and is also prepping for her extreme makeover (all on her own), she's straightening out her teeth. Let me tell you guys, Kim is the sweetest thing. She has always been so helpful with me in getting my referrals out on time and just been someone to give me hope. My doctor dragged her in to meet me, so I can keep up the faith this will all pan out for me.

I'm just hoping this all happens before next year. I would love to start the new year celebrating a year of journaling with two new entries...my surgery day and the postop journals, Phew....I thought I didn't have much to say tonight....lol. Well I need to sack out, my pain killers are kicking in and I need the sleep. Ciao for now.

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Thursday November 20,2003:
Okay I am offically sick of my sisters......now I have my youngest sister telling me not to count on the surgery, maybe try the lap band, and watch what I eat. You know nobody understands what it is like to be me. I wish I could diet, I know she just means well, but I'm tired of hearing, well maybe if you didn't eat this or if you did this....hello people I have been doing that all my life!!!!!! When is someone going to listen to me!!!!

Anyway as promised here is a link to some of my favorite WLS sites. I hope they help as much as they've helped me.

Sunday November 23, 2003:
Hey guys, hope everyone had a great weekend. I can't complain it was pretty uneventful, which is always good. Spent some good quality time with my hunny, which I really needed.

Seems like another problem has medically come upon me, I'm not getting my period. I knew it was going to happen but I didn't realize how disturbing it was going to be. To think that the one thing I dreaded every month is now gone is really perplexing. In one way, yeah no more messy pads, no worries about leaking and staining. In another, the thought that if I don't have surgery, I will not be able to have children. And that is upsetting.

Well tomorrow I go see the orthopedist and see what exactly is torn, hopefully nothing, but knowing ME (BIG CHEESY SMILE) I did something terrible. It's been 9 days now and my knee is still extremely painful and swollen on the side. And the biggest sign of a probable tear, feeling like my leg will buckle as I walk and that I can't bend it past 90 degrees. Well wish me luck, lord knows I don't need any more major concerns.

Thursday November 27, 2003:

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!!

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