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| Wednesday May 14, 2003 Okay guys, see that cow tipped over, well that might as well be me. I called Amy this morning, and funny thing is she was about to call me. Well it's not so funny. She told me that she had spoken with Vivian and she started the precertification but there was a problem. They no longer accept Cigna, my insurance. Apparently their contract with them had lapsed and nobody noticed. I felt like I was sucker punched. Talk about wanting to cry and fall apart. She said she was waiting for the doctor to come in so they can work on re-enlisting. So tomorrow I will call and find out if everything was Fedex'd. I mean I'm only 3 weeks away!!!! And now this. Amy begged me not cry, yeah right. She promised I would have my surgery. Possibly a few days delayed. I don't think I can handle this if I get told, sorry get new insurance or go see another doctor. I have been through too much these past few weeks, emotionally and mentally. I just want one thing to work, and I need this to be it. I have worked too hard and too long to get here. It's not fair, nothing ever works out easy, it's always a struggle. I know nothing in life is fair or easy, but why can't I get a break? So I will call tomorrow, and I will let you guys know what's happening. Thanks for being here to listen to me rant. |
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| Friday May 23, 2003 Sorry I haven't been around, been in a real funky mood. I haven't heard anything from the doctor's office regarding my insurance so I guess no news is good news ( I hope). I went in today to get checked, I lost another 2 lbs on my own. So that's all good. They told me due to the fact that I don't have an enlarged liver I don't need to lose the whole 10%, just 10 - 15lbs, so I'm halfway there. I started at 263 now I'm 259, it's no small feat for me to lose 5lbs, it's extremely hard for me, so I am happy about that. I will be keeping this short, unfortunately I have my second sleep study tonight. I begged and pleaded but no avail I have to do it. I didn't sleep the last time, you think I wil this time around...NOT!!!! Oh and a shout out to my best girl in Georgia, you know who you are KAKA!!!! She had surgery on Tuesday and should be coming home today, as of yesterday she was feeling a lot better, so keep good thoughts for her in her recovery. You go girl!!!!! |
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| Friday May 30, 2003 Okay now it's freaking out time. I went to see the surgeon for my presurgical visit yesterday. Now remember I called Amy and left her a message asking how things were going and if I could help? Well I get told yesterday that I had approval than went back to pending. I am a woman on the edge. I called the insurance company, and get this, although I am paying for the insurance 100% out of my pocket, I cannot talk to the staff that has put me back to pending. I am fighting for everything and they refuse to speak to anyone else but the doctors office. The office is not going to plead my case, they have hundreds of patients to get approvals for. Only I have the voice to fight for me, no one else is going to do it. I cannot believe my life hangs in the balance of not a doctor, or even myself but a company that is only in it for the money. They don't know me, they don't know my life. Who am I to them? Nobody!!! I'm just another check in the mail. My God, I just can't understand this. I have done everything they asked, I have been through the mill and back again. I am unemployed still because of this. I can't lose this. This is my one and only opportunity to get my life back. I cannot lose this. I just can't. I don't know how I am going to take rejection. I know I shouldn't think like that, but I can't help it. I am a week away from changing my life's path, and some money making firm is looking at the almighty $$$$ than at me, a human being, a woman a patient. How can this be happening. Why? I have struggled so hard for so long. I have lost at everything, and this was the one thing I had left to make it mine. To make it happen. ME!!!! And I am failing. I don't understand. Haven't I been through enough?! I've had to overcome so many obstacles in my life. From always being the last person to be considered, to being the black sheep in the family. NEXT PAGE |