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| Thursday May 8, 2003 Okay this Optifast sucks!!!! The big one. I don't feel so well, I'm eating like nothing at all. I'm drinking 3/4 of a cup of this chocolate shake which is absolutely atrocious. And the snack bars are a little better, but they don't taste good either. I'm at a point I'm skipping breakfast altogether and having a shake for lunch and eating a small dinner. Soon I will have to give up dinner, but right now I'm not ready to give up all three meals. Even my boyfriend has noticed how sluggish I have been, and has commented how pale I have become. I think I am doing more harm to myself than good. My doctor (or one of them) feels that taking the Optifast is going to slow down my metabolism even more. Not a good thing since I need to lose this weight before surgery. So I should be exercising right? Wrong. I have absolutely no energy. I am lucky if I can clean one room completely. I have no get up and go, not like I had much, but at least I had enough to muster up to do it. Now all I want to do is lay down and sleep. Which is no way good for me. I am going to continue on the optifast and hope it helps. If it does, I will have to deal with what I am feeling and fight through this with whatever I have. |
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| Later this day: Okay I know I never post twice but I am freaking out. I got a call from the surgeon's office. Apparently they were calling my insurance company to get final authorization for surgery and they said I have been terminated since April 30th!!!!! I am freaking out. I sent the check, yes on the 30th, but that was only because I recieved the documents on the 30th (even though I had been continually calling headquarters for my papers). So now I have to make sure my insurance payment goes through, otherwise I will lose my spot. They are already booking for July, I can't wait another month. This is crazy. I bet you anything my check is sitting at the insurance office with all my paperwork waiting to be filed. I swear if I have to drive to the Cobra administrative office I will kill someone. There is no way I am losing my spot. I can't, enough crap has happened to set me back, I can't lose this too. Just pray I don't lose my spot, that everything is just a big oversight. I'll let you know what happens after I call tomorrow. |
| Tuesday May 13, 2003: Talk about never ending. I got a call from Cobra on Friday morning, telling me that everything was there since the 5th and they would enter my information today. So I call my doctor's office tell them we are good to go. Great right, NOT!!! So here's the short story.... So yesterday I get another call telling me that I still have no insurance and they are going to cancel me. I freaked. I called the insurance company and spoke to the most wonderful person, Vivian. Well I get to the surgeon's office to see the dietician and I am in tears. I get pulled aside, and Peggy, (God bless this girl) is trying everthing she can to help. Well gratefully I had until today to get myself enrolled. So I speak to Vivian and after some back and forth finally I'm in and they can call. So I call the office and then get a call back telling me that Amy (major bitch) is refusing to call again. So I call Vivian and ask her to call, she does, calls me back and says she spoke with Amy and gave her confirmation I am enrolled. Even she said Amy was nasty, and that someone like her should not be dealing with people. Well I wait all day and by 4 PM I leave a message for Amy asking if everything went okay. I also go on to say how much I appreciate her helping, and what she is doing, knowing that working on my headache is the last thing she needs. Yeah I know I'm kissing ass, but if it was you and your surgery was scheduled three weeks away you would too. So tomorrow I will call and see if she has had any luck starting precertification. Okay I know maybe something should be said to the office about her conduct, but maybe I will do so after surgery. So keep praying for me, I am and hard. They are now booking for August, and I can't imagine having to wait till then. I don't think I can physically make it through the summer and I know I can't afford to wait. I will keep you posted. Hopefully with good news, by the grace of God himself, my guardian angels and for St Jude who is the answer to all that is impossible. Nite everyone |
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