| May 2003 |
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| Monday May 5th: Happy cinco de mayo!!!!! Well I have only 30 more days to go until surgery. I've been trying hard to lose weight. According to my aunt's scale I've lost 5 lbs. That will be great news if it matches the dr's scale. I go today to pick up my Optifast and get started on that. My cardiologist is not happy with that. He feels that taking it will slow my metabolism even more, but he is hopeful and has had a change of heart from last year and is encouraging the surgery, which makes me feel good. I've een just bumming around, planning housewife. We took advantage of my time off to enjoy the weather by going to the NY aquarium. It was a really nice day. It wasn't crowded and we really enjoyed everything. It's no Sea World, but it was relaxing. We're planning on going to the Bronx Zoo in the next week and having a picnic in the park. I want to enjoy the weather and my time off as much as possible. I know I will have some time after surgery, but I will have to concentrate on after care more than going out and exploring. On an even more positive not my boyfriend and I had a good heart to heart talk the other night. I have to say although a part of me is afraid, I can't think of anyone else I would want to spend my life with. okay enough mushy talk. I'm off to the doctor's. I'll let you know what they say and if I really did lose something, keep your fingers crossed. |
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| Tuesday May 6, 2003 Okay so I didn't lose 5lbs as my aunt's scale said, but 3. Hell I'll take anything at this point. It's a start and a very difficult one for me, and I just have to keep going. I got the optifast, they are crazy in thinking this is good for you. I have three meals a day with one snack bar for $67.00 a week. And the drink is only 3/4 of a cup, 6 oz. That's it. I'm supposed to wean myself off food before starting. so I only had breakfast and dinner. Tomorrow I will replace one meal (lunch) with the shake and the next two. Hopefully I can pull this off. I got real sick doing slim fast for all three meals and nutri system. I'm glucose intolerant, borderline diabetic. So I go down real fast wen I don't have anything. I know you're like well, you're gonna eat nothing with surgery. I know, but I wont have that empty hungry feeling that eats away making my naustious, triggering my sugar drop. and with the surgery in losing the weight it corrects the problem. So my boyfriend isnt looking forward to this. He was worried today watching me. I haven't been feeling well at all. Really tired and weak these past couple of days. This is what I mean by I can't wait to get my life back. I get so frustrated by my lack of energy. And it has a lot to do with my potassium level. I've stocked up on some bananas to have a natural way of getting it. I'm hoping to bypass pills. Lack of money is making me look for alternatives. So I am hoping this optifast works, because I can't bear to lose $67.00 for nothing. It's just for the next 4 weeks, not long but it will feel like forever. Well I'll keep you updated on my trials and tribulations of Optifast. Nite everyone. |