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| Tuesday March 9, 2004: Sorry about the last entry, I just needed to vent. The whole situation is like a bad penny that keeps turning up. Hopefully this will get settled and we will all go on living separate lives. And then it will be the last anyone ever hears me bitch about this again. Well I have been trying to eat better. Last Thursday I made fresh fillet of sole and broccoli, I managed to eat my entire little fillet (about 3oz and three heads of broccoli). I was ellated. Unfortunately I couldn't hold down the chicken I made Friday. Saturday I had a chicken wing and two to three small bites of potatoe salad at the party. So I got bold and tried a small piece of meatloaf. I managed all of two bites within 30 minutes. I couldn't hold onto that either. I got sick all over again. I am not surprised that I still can't handle beef but I was really upset about the chicken. Last night we made our own chicken wings (baked of course) and it took me 3 1/2 hrs to eat three small wings (no drumsticks either). I probably could have stopped at the one, but I don't have any protein intake at all, so I thought it would be important to get what I could in. Today should be fun as I am tentatively set to have lunch with a friend. We are going to the mall to eat, so hopefully I can find something really soft to eat. She doesn't know what kind of surgery, just that I have had surgery back in January. I still find it hard to get in all my water. Somtimes I feel like I am forcing the water in adn I feel like I am going to bust. Last night I stayed up till 1am to get in at least 40 oz. If it hadn't taken so long to eat I might have gotten in 50 oz. So today I will start all over again and do my best to get in 60 oz. Tomorrow is weigh in day for me and I am nervous that I will not have lost any weight again. i hope I'm not still stuck on a plateau, it's too soon. I guess we'll see tomorrow. UPDATE: I got a job!!!! Can you believe it!!!! Oh my God. That job interview I went on last week, called me and they want me....woohhoo!!!! I start Thursday....Okay now I'm nervous....lol |
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| Wednesday March 10, 2004: Okay so today is my last day of freedom as a unemployed bum....hahaha!!!! Tomorrow I enter back into the working world and become a slave again. Ohh but the money will feel so good. I am nervous a bit, it will be a whole new place and new things to learn, I just hope that I live up to my recomendations. I was shocked to see how much praise I recieved from my old job, but then again I told them to ask for Maryann, I knew she wouldn't do me wrong, I worked hard and did my job. And Lynn at the animal hospital I knew would give great references, I have to call and thank her, The guy didn't even wait till the end of the week to call like he said he would, he called just two hours after telling me he would check my references. I hope I live up to the expectations.... On another good note, actually two more. I lost 6 pounds today Yeah!!!!!! No more plateau. So now I'm officially down 38 lbs since surgery and 44lbs in total. I am so psyched. I think it had to do with the coming of my monthly friend, which I got last night for the first time since October. It was really nice having a break from it, but it is comforting to know that my cycle is starting to become normal. I was really worried that I would never get it again and lose any chance of being able to have children. I guess breaking that 250lb barrier brought it back. So as of today I am officially 244lbs. I haven't been in the 240's in at least 2-3 years. I still don't see much of a difference, just a little in my face, but I am starting to tell in my boobs. Which is a good thing and a bit of a bad thing. I'd hate to see them become so droopy before I am ready. I guess its a good thing I start this new job so I can start saving for my booby lift....hahaha!!!!! It'll be a first since my early teens that I'll have perky ones again. Okay enough of the graphics, I need to make something to eat and I think I will play it safe and have a fried egg.....seems to be the only way I can stomach an egg anymore. I can't wait until I can eat more stuff, I'm getting sick of the same ole thing. Till tomorrow, wish me luck at my new job and don't forget that "Kingdom Hospital " is on tonight!!!! |
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| Sunday March 14, 2004: Sorry I haven't updated in a couple of days, I have been exhausted. The job is good, its just a really long day 9hrs with a 1/2 lunch break. I'm not working hard, not yet as I am still learning the ropes, it's just that I get bored easily so it drags the day out. Not only that but I was getting up at 6:30 AM and leaving at 7:30 to get to work. I haven't gotten up that early in years. Gratefully all of my jobs have been close to home so I would have gotten up 45 minutes before I had to be there. My job is only a 1/2 hr ride, but I've been leaving early so I wont have a problem if I hit traffic. Here in LI there is always traffic somewhere. The one thing that is good is that being up that early I actually finish my first bottle of water (20 oz) before my lunch then finish the second before I leave so all I have left is the one I drink at home to meet my 60 oz for the day. Eating can still be rough. I have tried eating a chicken cutlet and I manage to get down 4 to 5 bites which is good. But still nothing else. I know I have to eat, but like yesterday I end up with three wheat thin crackers and two spoonfuls of soup. Its not much at all I tell ya. I'm not hunger either, but I think that has a lot to do with the fact that there is not many choices for me, at least not yet. I am looking forward to checking in on the scale on Wednesday. I haven't been walking much but now with my period over and the little eating I have been doing there should be another loss. Well honestly I'm going back to bed, then I have to get ready to go to the Circus...Ringling Bros is in town and for the first time since I was 9 I'm going...yeah lets all be kids....lol. |
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