Friday January 16, 2003:
okay so we are almost there...can you feel the building anxiety? LOL!!!! Anyway, I went in for a brief physical with Dr Nishimoto, he's an assistant to Dr Vohra, and met with Amy, beautiful Amy. So I have all my paperwork and have to meet the nurse at the hospital on Monday 8:30 am for preop tests. Then on Wednesday I'll see my PCP for the medical clearance. I can't believe it, it's gonna happen. I pray nothing happens to stall it for a day or two. I need to be back on my feet ASAP to start classes, ehich I hope I can still enroll. Amy told me that they would give me a note from the doc stating I had surgery and would need time to recoup. I'm not going to let them know what kind, I don't want it to count against me.
Anyway I have more good news. I told you I was being good and sticking to my own regime, well it worked, I lost 6lbs since Tuesday!!!! Unbelieveable right? I stepped on twice to make sure. It was the same scale as Tuesday, and like Tuesday I didn't eat before weigh in. I know where I lost it from, water weight. But I'll take what I can get. It just shows them how serious I am about this. and yes I will be good, just because I'm scheduled doesn't mean binge r us is open. Why do that to myself. The only thing I am going to get as a last meal is at my favorite mexican restaurant. I deserve it, and considering it will be my last meal, not a bad choice for chicken enchiladas.
On that note, I have taken to mind the seriousness of the fact that I will probably never eat another sweet thing in my life. No more homemade chocolate chip cookies, no cakes, no brownies, no pasta, no more checkers burgers. Its a hard truth to face, especially since food has always been my crutch, my comforting friend. That's why I find it important to start these antidepressants now. I don't want to ruin my chances of making this work, just because I'm emotional over food. I'm really going to have to work on it every day. I'm so glad I'll be in school, it'll keep my mind of it for the most part, I'll be too busy. But I promise to do my best to show that I deserved this chance, a chance to live.
Another good note I spoke with Sandy, she had surgery with my doc 6 months ago. She gave me her number to call after an email I sent her regarding her experience with him and the hospital. She is really cool, and she really put my mind at ease about the hospital and the staff that would be taking care of me. She told me about the stricture problems she had and how attentive the staff was and how well his patients get treated, my doc is a bigwig in the hospital and yet the most compassionate surgeon you'll ever meet. Well Sandy is coming to visit me in the hospital. How cool is that?! My family doesn't live nearby and other than my mom being there on the day of my surgery, I only expect to see my dad maybe once and my BF will be there every day on and off (he's gotta take care of my 4 legged babies). So having Sandy will be a treat, not to mention I also have a walking buddy. I met Lynn today at my surgeon's office, she's going in the day before me. She just got approved right there in front of me. I tell you I have never met so many people who are more supportive than other patients and my surgeon's staff. They really are there for you, and they fight tooth and nail with the insurance for you too. I know I heard Amy today going off on them.
Well I've babbled enough, I need to relax before dinner....a grilled chciken caeser salad with low cal dressing. See I can be good :) Ciao and have a great weekend!!!! |
