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| April 2004 continued.... |
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| Wednesday April 14, 2004: Hello everyone. Man has the weather really sucked out here. It's been raining for days, and I am done with it. I was walking around a car lot tonight in the rain. Still no real luck, but I did see the car I want, just the wrong color. But hey if it comes down to it I will take it. The car is amazing, it's a Hyundai XG350. You want to talk about a luxury sedan without the cost, this is it. I am going to check around a bit more before sinking in $14K on another car. I guess we will just have to wait and see. Went to see my accountant tonight too. :( I owe $242 to the state because of my unemployment. But I'm getter over a grand from the feds. Go figure that...hahaha!!!! I just wish I didn't have to cut a check, I wish they would just deduct it from my federal return, but that would be way too easy. Okay I know I've babbled long enough. Yes I did weigh in today, and yes I was surprised at the results. Being that I have my "friend" and all I was expecting the worst. But I lost another 4lbs!!!!! I am soooo psyched!!!!! This offically makes me 229lbs. I have not been under 230 in over 3 yrs. It's just amazing. Since working I lost 15lbs so I am happy with that. I thought being strappped to a desk again would make the weight loss much slower. But this is great. Oh and on another fabu note, I had my dream meal tonight.....a cheesburger with ketchup and a slice of cucumber. It was amazing. No bread, just the burger. Go me go me...... I have been eating much better. I just recently started with red meat. I had chili the other night, and I made chicken in cream of broccoli sauce last night and for lunch. Sunday for Easter dinner I had a baked turkey and fresh cooked carrots (sliced thin). I pretty much eat twice a day, I have no real desire to eat breakfast and I'm not hungry for it either. I do get bad on occasion. I don't always drink all of my water which is bad, and lately I have found that I have been snacking on potato chips every now and then. that is so bad.....it is so easy to eat the bad stuff than handle eating what you should. But I don't over do it. If I have chips its only once in a blue moon, and only a few of them. That's still no excuse, but hey I'm human and as long as I don't go over board and stay in control that is all that matters. Well it's late and I have an early day tomorrow.....Ciao!!! |
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| Saturday April 17, 2004: Hey everyone. Not much happening. Still on the car hunt, and I am getting more and more discouraged that I will never find something I am really going to be okay with paying $12K for. I've been real emotional all day today. I don't know what's going on with me. I had my "friend" but its over and done with, so I can't imagine that being the cause. I go from happy to sad to depressed in 60 seconds flat. I really don't want to go on meds again. I guess my plate if full and over flowing with emotions. I've also noticed that I have been real tired at work too. I don't know why because I am sleeping at night. I'm beginning to wonder if something is going on with my body that is making me feel all these things. Like how your body goes into this shock from lack of protein so you lose a lot of hair, and I do mean a lot. Maybe my body is reacting emotionally to all the chemicla changes happening to my body. I'm not sure. I do know some people suffer from depression after major surgery, but my surgery was almost 3 months ago. I guess I will get some answers when I go see my doc in a couple of weeks. I have to find out how early I can go for a blood test next week so I don't miss any work. But so far so good. I had some chili for lunch and a little bit of beef stroganoff tonight for dinner. It's cool that I can eat beef again, I'm surprised to say I am getting so tired of chicken. I better watch what I say about chicken, I'm eating it tomorrow night. Hahahaha!!!! I just have to remember it will all take time to sort out and my protein pallet will widen. But I was happy with the fillet of sole I ate last night...it was delicious. To be honest I can't wait to try some shrimp scampi, then a chicken enchilada. I know getting a bit ahead of myself. But i can dream right? Well till next time, enjoy the beautiful weekend, and the next time I get back we'll chat about my not so full sagging boobies. |
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| Wednesday April 21, 2004: Cha cha cha cha cha..tada....I'm watching a rerun of Will & Grace, and their doing the cha cha. I can do that right now too, considering today is weigh in day and I lost another 4lbs...cha cha cha cha. That makes me officially 225lbs!!!!!! Yeah baby. Can you tell that I am happy? I haven't taken my measurements, I will do that later tonight after my shower. I am also going to put up my 3 month pics too. I am going to try and get a pic from my BF's sister-in-law, to show what I looked like in the beginning of January, before my surgery just so you can get an idea of what I really looked like a couple of weeks before surgery. I know I have that pic of me from last year when I was 260, but to really see a difference I need my most current pic of the way I really looked. hey I told myself I needed to be brutally honest here, so hanging my head in shame, I will show the world the horrible truth...eeek!!!!! I'm still eating pretty good, I've tried pork chops, but that did not go well at all. I had all of three bites and those suckers came right up. But I did have 4 shrimps last night...yummy!!!! Those stayed done, and lately I've been eating a small portion of a grilled chicken ceasar salad from quiznos the past two days (I've been splitting it with a girl I work with, she eats 2/3rds and I eat only a third). So that has me really happy. I am still feeling really tired when I am at work. i can't even concentrate half the time, it's like my mind blanks out. I'm wondering if I have an iron deficiency, they say women who have low iron levels suffer not just physically but mentally too, by lack of concentration, memory loss. I go next Friday for my 3 month check up, so I will have to wait and see what my blood work shows. I'll check back later with the inches total, pray for a loss :). |
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