apr04

April 2004

Saturday April 3, 2004:
So far so good, I've been trying to eat more protein each day. yesterday I had McDonald's chicken strip and actually managed to eat 2 1/2 strips. Amazing right? But then I came home and I was bad. My BF made pasta for dinner and I stupidly of course tried a few pieces, no sooner than I did that I got sick. I didn't actually throw up but man was I uncomfortable and had lots of saliva to spit out. So what did I do? Eat popcorn. I didn't eat a lot, I only had a cupfull. It's amazing that I was able to eat it so quickly too with no problems...see what I mean by how easily it is to eat bad carbs. I know I should have went out and bought some chicken to eat, but I was so tired all I could do was fall asleep watching tv in my recliner.

I'm feeling a little better today, especially since the colase I took last night kicked in this morning. Which is cool. It gets rid of all the bloating I had for the past couple of days. And man did I go...oh I know I know....way too much information....hahaha!!!!

Well I intend on behaving for the rest of the weekend. And that shouldn't be too hard, I just have to watch myself when I get hungry. But the funny thing is that I'm craving salty things, like popcorn and especially potato chips, and I never crave potato chips!!!!! Damn things are going to be hard. Wish me luck and have a great weekend.

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Wednsday April 7, 2004:
Hello everyone......today is weigh in day!!!!!! Amazingly enough I lost another 2lbs. I can't believe it, I had been so bad these past few days, I'm amazed that I lost anything at all. ?I know it's not an excuse to be bad, but I lost my car on Saturday. He died on the way to the mechanic, figures right. Gratefully my sister came through and loaned me her spare car, which I am using now. I am hoping against hope that I find something this Saturday....wish me luck cause I don't how long my sister's car will last either.

But I did try to make the best of my weekend. Went to the NYPD vs FDNY hockey game Saturday night and had a ball...even got hit on by 3 guys :))) big cheese smile. I did have 3 beers, well actually 2 1/2 beers. I was surprised that i handled it so well, but then again I wasn't driving either. But I didn't get wasted, maybe a little buzzed for a brief moment. I have started eating red meat!!!!!! Actually ground chuck, I had a little bit of chili and last night I actually ate a meatball. Yummy!!!!! That's probably why I'm not losing as much anymore, I'm starting to eat just a little more food than usual. That's cool, because then I will have the energy to work out.

Oh yeah, I started some arm curls with a small weight I have at home. Figured it's time to intergrate some weight lifting, nothing big, but it's time to start moving again. Well I'm off to eat my chicken dinner. Ciao.

Monday April 12, 2004:
Sorry it's been awhile since I have updated. I have been under a lot of stress, emotionally. My BF and I haven't been doing too well and I needed a much needed break from him. Between work and money and losing my car, too much was going on between us and it just erupted in the worst way possible. So far we are trying our best to repair the damage. I do hope we can work things out, and since yesterday he has been much better to me. I think me disappearing for three days to my sister's house and not speaking to him at all was a real wake up call that I was through with the bullsh*t. Keep your fingers crossed.

Another log onto the fire in our house was my landlady being sent into the psych ward. Her daughter is placing her into an assisted living home. I was freaking out because after losing my car and needing to buy a new one, this was just bad timing. Here in LI, NY, the rents are outragous and not to mention no one allows pets. I am not giving my babies up!!!!! No way. Well gratefully the daughter is not selling the house. She will renovate downstairs and rent out the first floor. We are considering taking downstairs, as it is much more spacious. Two bedrooms, a larger living room with a fireplace, a bigger eat in kitchen, full bathroom, master bedroom, and a full basement with washer and dryer. I'm not sure we can afford it. But my BF has offered his expertise in helping to strip out everything and renovate it, he used to be in construction and carpentry. But if we can work something out it would be fabulous. The second room I would make into a den with the TV and my computer, for lounging. The closet space would be incredible considering we only have one that we share up here!!!! A bigger kitchen would mean a slightly larger table where I can invite family over for dinner, and a formal living room for family and friends to hang out. Not to mention all the storage of a basement, easy access to the backyard by the rear kitchen door. I know, stop fantasizing about something that just might not happen.

Well enough about all that, food is getting better. I actually ate some chili tonight!!!! I'm so excited that I am finally eating red meat!!!! I never thought I would be excited about eating red meat. It's just that I have been so worried about my protein intake. I am 1 1/2 weeks short of 3 months and I am losing soooo much hair!!!! I freaked out in the shower yesterday, I have never lost so much hair before. I mean I am always shedding, especially when I have lots of long hair, I shed like a dog. But now my hair is much shorter and I am shedding even worse than ever. I know it is temporary, but it is still scaring me. I have lots of thick hair so I will probably never tell the difference, but I still have three months of hair loss in front of me (they say you lose hair from your body's shock of the lack of protein from months 3 to 6). If anyone has any advice, I'm listening!!!!! Hope everyone had a Happy Easter!!!!

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