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| October 2005: |
| Monday October 17, 2005: Man I have I been feeling awful. I got bronchitis, lovely right? And what's worse it that it has triggered my asthma so now I'm temporarily back on the pump, sucks big time because I hate the way it makes me react and feel, but hell at least I can breathe. The only thing good about it is that I took off one of the pounds I gained. Hopefully by the time my monthly friend is over maybe I will have lost another one. Oh yeah that was another whopper I get my period on top of being sick, yuck, it just makes it that much more worse. Okay so enough complaining and the real reason I couldn't up date, because my pc has been on a major fritz. I couldn't log on for more than two to three minutes so updating has been a real b*tch. Hopefully I fixed it for now, my dad should be by either this week or next to fix it. Last week we went to lunch with the new reception at my job, and she is a lot nicer than people make her out to be. And guess what.....she is a fellow WLS girl!!!! she lost 120 lbs, and looks great. She had surgery 6 yrs ago...amazing!!!! Granted she didn't have as much to lose as me, but still after 6 yrs she is looking great and holding her own quite well. She told me she even started losing some weight again. It gives me hope. Especially since we are looking to set a date for next year. We even made two appointments to look at a couple of places. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I really want it to be a simple yet beautiful wedding. And most of all, and probably most selfishly....I want to look damn good!!!!! Catch up soon :) |
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| Wednsday October 19, 2005: Today is a good day, for weigh ins that is. I lost that extra pound I gained and I'm back to 191 lbs and a 97 lbs loss. I have to find a way |
| to lose 3 more pounds to make my 100 lb loss. I was talking to the recpetionist yesterday and she also had metabolism problems, and we both agree on one thing, this sure is no easy way to lose weight. Granted I probably would have never come this close to losing this much, but still I have so much more to go and sometimes I feel like I will never get there. I know I need to make time to go to the gym and cook balanced meals or even pack a healthy lunch, but in all honesty I never find time for me. I don't know when the last time I found some time for me that I actually had the energy to work out. I know there is no real excuse, believe me I'm kicking myself enough in the rear for paying for a gym membership I don't use. I really need to call them and put in on hold before I lose anymore time and money. But if I ever intend to be close to looking like a blushing bride instead of bertha the hippo in my pictures I need to get serious and get this weight off. In truth I have been really watching what I eat and I'm hoping that it will make a difference. I'm just really having a problem getting in all my water. It's amazing I haven't dehydrated yet, I really take in a lot of fluids anymore. And I know that is a big issue in my weight loss problem. Okay enough blah blah stuff, Lost is on....love it!!! And I have to figure out what I need to do to afford a wedding. Yeah I think stress will help in the weight loss department. Just kidding :). Nite. |
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| Thursday October 27, 2005: What an unbelievable week this has been. My boss got fired, and now I'm looking to get out ASAP. You can't be an opinionated woman with a brain these days. It really makes me miss working in the animal hospital. No one can really believe they let her go. I knew it was coming when they hired that weasel bastard. And now he thinks he's big man on campus. This sucks. I really did like it there, and I actually made a couple of really good friends. |
| So you can imagine how upset I am. I was supposed to be promoted but now with her gone it wont happen, I'm guilty by association because of my friendship with her. And it's getting harder to hide my disgust. You know I understand that everyone has a paycheck to earn but they way some people have flipped sides is sickening. So now I'm biding my time, keeping my mouth shut until I can make my break. I pray it's soon. and you can tell another reason I'm unhappy, I gained another pound. It may only be one, but I am really trying to hit my 100 lbs lost. It's like being in a tug of war. I know all this not feeling well and being stressed is getting to me, but enough already. I know it's work, but damn. Unfortunately my lively hood must take precedence and I will continue to keep on track. I dropped before I will start losing again, just another plateau to jump from. See ya soon. |
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