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| May 2005 |
| Sunday May 8, 2005: Hi everyone, just a quick note to wish all you moms and moms to be a very happy mother's day. Things have been a bit hectic with the new job but I am loving it. I really feel like I belong. It's not what I want to do for the rest of my life but it's a good foundation. I am getting beyond fustrated with my weight loss situation, because I have curbed my eating and I am drinking all of my water and still nothing. This is some hell of a plataeu, but I have to have faith that I can at least lose another 40 to 50 lbs. I really need to get on point about getting back to the gym, it's been two weeks, and I never meant for it to get so out of hand with not going, I was so good doing 1 1/2 hrs 4x a week. I had planned on going back this week, but I let myself get into a funk, with mother's day coming and all. I started thinking about the baby I lost last year and how I would have been celebrating my first mother's day. I pray I have another chance someday soon at motherhood. It's been getting hard, speaking with a very good friend of mine who is pregnant. I am happy for her, but deep down inside I wish I was in the same position. Well enough of that, it's late and I need to get some sleep. it's actually 12:45 AM and I have to be up and about to clean my house before we take my mom for dinner. See you all next week. |
| Sunday May 22, 2005: I'm sorry I haven't been around, I've been really fustrated and exhausted. I know I have been bad about being in the gym for the past 3 weeks, but I'm still yoyoing on my weight and it feels like I am destined to never break away from the 200's. I know Something is happening because I bought a pair of slacks on the off chance I would eventually fit into them (had to buy them, they were cute and on sale) and guess what? They fit!!! So I went from a size 16 to a 14. But my weight is still not budging. I know I have to give myself back to the gymand rededicate myself. Summer is here and I don't want to hide the whole summer away. I am going to ask if I can take 2 B12's a week, maybe it will help with my tiredness. The new job is great, but it is a lot of work. Hopefully soon things will slow down and I will learn everything that I need to know. It is funny though, because I could have been having an easier time and a little bit more pay, but I am so happy I left the other job. So not the place for me. Anyway, I wil try not to disappear this week. And yes I didn't forget I will upload the pics of the real before and the new after. I promise this week!!!! Nite!!! |
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