Journal

Sunday April 8, 2001 11:37p.m.
Ugh my throat is still bothering me from last night. Today we went to a british colony called Gibralta. there were a coupple of things that I wanted to buy but unfortunately I couldn't because it was palm sunday there so a lot of the stores were closed . We had to walk out of Gabralta to where the bus was and to make matters worse the bus was late showing up so I ahd to be in the sun and heat for maybe 30 mins and I really hate the heat as it is but this situation didn't make it any better and the damn heat have me a headach (damn bus driver). When the buss finally arrived I was able to get a little bit of rest thankfully. When I got back to the hotel I tried going out to buy some CD's but the stores around here were also closed because it was palm sunday. I headed back to the paartment to eat dinner but it was still disgusting so we were taked out to get some pizza which had way too much grease in it that I didn't even want to eat much of it. We went out after that to get some ice crean since it's said that spain has great ice cream and I was supprised to see that it was true, I wouldn't advise the milk shakes though. I went back to the hotel to one of the rooms where a seance was being held. the first time it wasn't that good but the second time it had more of the people there spoked me not being one of them (not ego just different things scare me than that) but that was broken up by one of the teachers so I headed backto my room because the Nyqill was kicking in. P.H.C. for everyone.

Monday April 9, 2001 11:53p.m.
Woke up at noon which I have to say even by my standards was late for a weekday. I got dressed to go swimming but instead everyone else had decided to go shopping so I changed into my regular clothes. We went to El Corte Ingles and I purchaced some speakers and another Nync cd with an extra spanish track and a Greenday CD. After that we went on a horse carrage ride which lasted for about halh and hour to an hour towards a beach and got some icecreab but that was kind of boring so we went back to the hotel and changed into my swimming atiar and headed for the beach by the apartment. We palde some ball game but in the middle of it I wasn't careful and wound up with a bloddy nose, first time in years. Afterward we came abck to the apartment and had dinner which this time was very good I was even temped to go get seocnds. We went out again to get some ice cream and I wound buying 2 different kinds of ice cream, afterwards I wound up going to MeDonnalds and getting some chicken McNuggets.We were trying to decide who would go out to the Kareoke club and who would go back to the apartment, I decided to head back since we would have to leave early the next day, At the hotel we met some spanish guy I don't remember what his name was and we all started talking and overall having a good time. P.H.C. for everyone.

Tuesday April 10, 2001 10:26p.m.
Had to wake up early and had breakfast. The bus ride was suspose to be 3 hours long instead it was 4 hours because the incompetant bus driver got lost. We visited the Alkazar which was an old fortress and then went to the apartments which apparently was a 1 star athTHE very least. I was stuck with 3 other roomates and we all went out to corte ingles andI would up buying 2 new bookbags. Weall went out to dinner and had a soup which was meatless and some sorry ass excuse for meat which I didn't even bother trying to eat after one taste. We went out to a flamingo show which I have to say was simply great eventhough one of the guys dancing had a wedgie and was trying to remove it hoping no one would have noticed but we did. Afterward I bough a total of 5 fans from them and headed abck to the apartment but we stopped at pizza hut along the way. wafte that we walked back to the hotel there we met this ugly as hell dog which we started laughing at. Back at the apartment it was probably 1 in the morning and my roommates decided to pour lotion and some ice tea and money from the windso onto the people below and I don't think that they were room happy about it, sucks for them. P.H.C. for everyone

Wednesday April 11, 2001 10:59
I ahve gought some dolls for ros and shela and a wallet for micheal. I wanted to take some pictures of the inside of the castle but they wouldn't allow flashes in the building *sigh*. Afterward we went to the hardrock caffe without the bus but by subway. after that we were suspose to go to a club so I shaved off my sideburns and put on my tight black pants with the black boots and the wore this sice brown and black shirt with a purple tanktop under it and my wooden beaded cholker. The club had 6 floors each with a different kind of music (techno and the R&B floor I stayed on mostly) and there was a male topless dancer and a female dancer tigh a tight tanktop and mini skirt. the rest werkind of reluctant to dance so I went with some of the girls from upstate NY and started it off I think we left at about 4:30a.m.

Thursday April 12, 2001 11:54p.m.
I woke up late *ugh* and didn't have a chance to put on my shoes ans belt until I got on the bus. We visited another mesuem or we were suspose to but the line was way too long so we did a bit of shopping. I was able to find a snow globe to replace the one that broke in my suitcase, I haven't decided who to give it to yet. Dinner wasn't bad at all, had some rice with some toamto sauce over it, then we had some veal and then some lovely flawn. After that we visited a chocolate shope and a perfume store as we waited for the buss to pick us up headed back to the apartment and did a bit of packing. P.H.C. for everyone

Sunday April 15, 2001 11:55a.m.
The juniors did something behind the teachers back which has them pissed off at them I'm not fully aware of what it is. I'm at the airport at the momentI wasn't able to call my folks to tell them to pick me up I just hope that they remember when my flight comes in. I'm kind of hoping that my sword makes it through customs. The flight back wasn't bad we watched Oh brother where art though and the food wasn't too bad. When we got back I gave my passport and customs paper to the guy who stamped it but I didn't get the customs paper back so I didn't get it back and the the other security guy said I probably lost it but the I know I didn't (stupid people), anyway I'm reached home at 3 something american time and still haven't fully unpacked, I was hoping to watch Queer As Folk but I over slept and missed it so I'm hoping to catch the tuesday one. P.H.C. for everyone

Sunday April 22, 2001 6:35p.m.
As I sit here I can't help but think to myself that I wish that I could break down in tears like other people do. Some would ask why would I want to do something like that but they don't realize how it feels to not know what it feels like to cry out of sadness or whatnaught. It's like feeling incomplete. I see how some of my friends cry because a loved one has hurt them emotionally but at the same time I sit there and wonder how such a feeling is like. I know that some don't understand why someone would want to feel such sadness but those people don't know what the alternative is like, to sit there and feel incomplete is not a good feeling either nor is it something that you can shake off that easily either.But I think that I know the reason that I can't feel the way that I would like and the reason for that is because I'm not totally honest with all of my friends. I'm not like lying to them but I'm not telling them about my self completely, some of my friends know and with them I find it so much easier to be open with but as for those that don't know I don't feel 100% open with them, 95% maybe but never 100% and that 5% difference makes a hell of a difference in how I feel. P.H.C. for everyone.