But this time I was thinking, this just isn't right.
You don't seem to make me smile any more,
And I wonder what I hold on for.
Why do I love you when you make me feel like this?
Why do I care, why is it you I miss?
You're so undecided, you're so unsure,
And I don't have the patience any more.
I don't have the patience to work out your mind,
I don't have the patience to second~guess all the time.
I don't want to hurt, I don't want the pain,
For once I want to feel happy again.
I don't want the tears in the middle of the night,
If I feel like this, it just can't be right.
No more will I wonder, no more will I cry,
It's finally time for that last goodbye.
We'll hug just once before we part,
And I will remove you from my heart.
All the words inside will go unsaid,
But like your face, will stay locked in my head.
I still love you and that will never fade,
But I can't live life feeling this way.
So, say that last goodbye my dear,
And I will cry just one last tear.
Ker.
But I know deep inside, something has changed.
Something is different, somewhere inside you,
You're not the same man I gave my heart to.
You're so unresponsive, you're so cool,
And once again I'm left, feeling the fool.
Foolish because I once again made a mistake,
But how much can you hurt me, how much can I take?
Do you remember what you said, a lifetime ago?
You said you'd always be there, you'd never let go.
You said you'd always love me, that your love would last,
And now look where we are, but little time has passed.
Our love transcended our beginning as friends,
But now look at this, we're strangers again.
We're beyond square one, beyond our start,
Our relationship faltered and you broke my heart.
I stare at your photo...the face is the same,
But will the man I love be back again?
Will I fall in love with you once more?
will the real you be back, the man I adore?
Ker.
That I couldn't possibly feel the same way.
I don't know how to convince you it's true,
That every moment of every day, I crave you.
Every moment, I think of the man I adore,
Every day I want you more and more.
There is such intense hunger inside,
That when we speak I can't hide.
I can't hide the way I feel,
And the way you make my life more real.
If I had but one wish come true,
It would be to spend one day with you.
One day to feel the passion of your touch,
To feel the intensity that would be too much.
One day to feel your lips on mine,
To lose track of all sense of time.
One day to feel your fingers on my skin,
To feel that most exquisite sin.
One wish to spend the night in your arms,
For once in my life, safe from harm.
But I know one day won't be enough,
I know it won't quench this deep love.
So, I guess what it comes down to is this,
You, for eternity, is my one wish.
Ker.
One day when I don't think of you all the time.
One day when the tears finally cease,
One day when my heart feels at peace.
One day when you don't bring me pain,
One day when i don't cry at your name.
One day when I once more wear a smile,
One day when I am carefree for a while.
One day when I don't wonder where you are,
One day when happiness doesn't seem so far.
One day when I forget your choice,
One day when I don't hear your voice.
One day when someone else enters my world,
One day when I forget the name "babygirl".
One day when you don't govern all I do,
One day when I am finally over you.
One day...
Ker.
I truly hate feeling so out of my depth.
The way you make me feel is insane,
Especially when you don't feel the same.
Am I crazy to feel this way about you?
After all the pain you put me through?
Am I crazy to live just to see your smile?
Or just to sit and look at you for awhile?
Am I crazy to be in love with you so?
To put up with the endless highs and lows?
Am I crazy to love someone I've never seen?
Whose touch on my skin has never been?
Am I crazy to cry so many tears over you?
Am I crazy to centre everything around you?
Am I crazy to want you more every day?
Crazy to want to know you in every way?
Maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm insane,
But for my actions, I am not to blame.
You made me love, you made me fall,
You shattered my resistance, broke down my walls.
And now, although you've taken your love away,
In my heart you'll always stay.
Ker.
If dreams came true, I'd dream and dream.
If pain were bricks I could build a wall,
If disillusionment steadied, I'd never fall.
If despondency were an ocean, I would surely drown,
If confusion were a ladder, I could never get down.
If hurt equalled power, I could be the queen,
If courage were abundant, I'd never have to lean.
If I could trust, I'd be happier in life,
If intelligence mattered, I'd never get into strife.
If I could be cynical, I'd never be deceived,
If miracles worked, I could believe.
If strength counted for anything at all,
I could pick myself up whenever I fall.
If love reigned through all, bad and good,
I could keep trying, I really could.
Ker.
"Stay".