Making me smile, time after time.
So many moments to touch my heart,
During all these cold nights we're apart.
So many moments of sharing dreams,
As we sit in front of a computer screen.
So many moments of sharing what we feel,
Untasted love, yet so right and real.
So many moments, chatting on the phone,
The pain of separation cutting to the bone.
So many moments, wishing you were here,
You're so far and yet so near.
So many moments, cursing the miles,
Distance between us making it hard to smile.
So many moments wishing I were with you,
Dreaming of replying "I love you too".
Holding onto moments, night after night,
To taste your love and hold you tight.
Holding on until you're mine,
Until we have our moment in time.
Ker.
Looking for relief from everyday life.
What are the chances of these two souls,
Finding one another?
It happens.
Two totally different people, in separate countries,
But so similar in many ways.
What are the chances of someone,
Finding a kindred spirit?
It happens.
Two people, talking and arguing,
Over something truly trivial.
What are the chances of them,
Getting past that?
It happens.
Of the thousand of nameless faces,
In the vast world of cyberspace,
What are the chances,
Of falling in love?
It happens...
Ker.
How do I know it will be like this?
First night, first touch,
How do I know it will be too much?
So much love, this feeling so strong,
How can I be sure, with you I belong?
Our life together, so right, so sweet,
How can I know, you'll make me complete?
Falling in love with you even more,
How do I know that this is for sure?
What we have us going to last,
How do I know this, it's so damn fast!
Meeting once and never letting go,
How do I know that this will be so?
How do I know all this is true?
I know it in my heart, because I love you.
Ker.
And back to the blade in my hand.
Such a little thing as this,
Can end a life of pain.
A life of pain since I saw him,
With some other girl besides me.
Knowing that even though I'd always love him,
Together we could never be.
Oh, yes, I've tried, over and over again,
But it just doesn't seem to work out.
There's always someone else on his mind,
Much prettier than me with no doubt.
And so it brings me to this razor,
That across my wrist will rip.
To take me on my long, long journey,
That will be a one~way trip.
Ker.
I see now I was mistaken.
Perhaps I built you up too much in my mind,
Perhaps I made you into something you weren't.
Maybe I saw our relationship in a different way,
Maybe I placed more importance on it than you did.
Maybe I saw our relationship as special,
And far more intense than you.
Perhaps I thought you were perfection,
The perfection that I craved without even knowing.
I made you into my ideal, my everything,
In my mind, I made you my world.
And now, I am paying the price,
Paying the price for being blind.
You shattered my illusions with a few casual words,
Casual but cruel, cutting me deep.
You are not perfect and you never were,
Unfortunately, I realised this too late.
And now you expect me to forget what we once had,
Put it behind me and continue life without you.
Perhaps we were destined to fail,
Perhaps it was written in the stars.
Maybe there wasn't enough there to keep the dream alive,
Or maybe..just maybe, you never really knew me at all.
Ker.
You're shutting me out, locking the doors.
You won't tell me what's going on in your mind,
It's "I don't want to talk about it", all of the time.
I'm not psychic, I don't know what's wrong,
But this has been going on for so long.
What happened to the closeness we once shared?
Now you're like your photo, an empty stare.
You know I love you, you know I care,
So why won't you let me just be there?
I want more than love, I want to be your friend,
But you push me out, time and again.
You say you still care for me, that I'm still in your heart,
But cant you see your silence is keeping us apart?
All I want is to have a part in your life,
But you keep me out with all of your might.
Don't shut me out, tell me what's up with you,
Tell me if you're upset, what can I do?
You won't tell me what's wrong, why you're down,
I don't even know if you want me around.
I'm nervous around you and so unsure,
And I know it wasn't like this before.
All I want is for you to be the same man,
You were him once, I know you can be again.
Ker.
"Everything I do".