We mended some bridges, opened some doors.
Have you finally started to heal?
Have you started to once again let yourself feel?
Have you started to recall what we had before?
Started to feel that same love once more?
Can you now remember what you felt for me?
How with me, you let your emotions go free?
Has your mind started to recall my face?
Have you realised your heart has an empty place?
Are you wanting more than friendship again?
Are you finally starting to forget the pain?
I'm not sure what you're saying, I don't know if I heard,
I'm not sure if I made sense of your words.
I'm not sure exactly what you're trying to say,
I'm in confusion and that's where I'll stay.
Unless you explain to me what you mean,
Unless you give me back my dream.
My dream of life with you by my side,
Unless you let go and swallow your pride.
To keep me here, all you have to do,
Is say those three words~I love you.
This time, our relationship could last,
Just remember, I'm the same girl you loved in the past.
Ker.
And for one moment, it eased my pain.
I said "I give up", you said "babygirl",
And once more, my love rapidly unfurled.
I try to be strong, I try to forget you,
I try to get on with life like you wanted me to.
But every time I almost get back on my feet,
You say something nice and sweep me off my seat.
I need to give up, I don't want to fight,
But then I remember when things were all right.
I remember how much you loved me once,
And how my love has lasted for all these months.
I remember when you said "I'm falling in love it seems",
I forget all my nightmares and remember my dreams.
I remember the endless plans that we made,
I remember my smile that would never fade.
I remember how happy and cheerful you made me,
But now, I wonder, can that ever be?
You have to decide what you want and let me know,
Either tell me you love me or just let me go.
Ker.
But you don't really hear.
You're not paying attention to what I say,
Though my meaning is quite clear.
I haven't made a secret of my feelings,
That I love only you.
And to forget you were ever in my life,
Is the only thing that I can't do.
But you seem to be playing games,
Fooling with my heart.
The one thing you promised never to do,
Right from the very start.
You say one thing with your actions,
And another with your words.
One minute I think I understand you,
Then realise I've misheard.
I am so confused by you,
And i don't know what to do.
I need to know what you're saying,
But most of all,I need you.
Please open your ears to me just once,
Don't play deaf this time.
Listen to what I am telling you,
Listen to this heart of mine.
Ker.
My mind turns to you.
Wondering what you're doing,
Are you thinking of me too?
Are you fast asleep and dreaming,
With a smile on your face?
Or are you awake and brooding,
Staring into space?
Do you have that ache in your heart,
That I feel so strongly in mine?
Or are you living your life easily,
Finding ways to pass the time?
Do you look up to the sky at night,
And wish upon a star?
Or have you forgotten all about me,
As I am so far?
You are always in my heart,
As I wish on an evenings star.
I could never forget you for a single moment,
A love high above par.
Ker.
And the road ahead's too long.
Can't seem to get anything right,
Every thing I do is wrong.
Making mistakes time and again,
You'd think I'd learn by now.
But every time things look up,
I hit an all-time low.
I can't find solace in my work,
No solace in my friends.
And so once again, like so often,
On only myself can I depend.
But this time is so different,
I see no way out.
I can't find the strength to help myself,
And I am full of self doubt.
I don't even know what's wrong with me,
But I have lost my will to fight.
My life has not been what I wanted,
Things haven't turned out right.
I need to go down that long road,
Leave my troubles in the past.
I need to find some inner strength,
And I need to find it fast.
Ker.
But I don't like what I see.
My life ahead doesn't hold much appeal,
Can't see through the tears that blind me.
I know I'm still so very young,
But I feel so, so old.
I don't have much to warm my heart,
Always feeling so cold.
One thing I have far too much of,
Are memories and regrets.
Times I'd like to live again,
And times I'd like to forget.
My regrets have taken over good times,
Made them so far and few.
Only if I try with all my strength,
Do I feel pleasure for a moment or two.
I need courage to continue my journey,
Reach the happiness I seek to find.
I need some warmth to face the future,
And leave the past behind.
Ker.
