i'm dancing to the music of the madness in me

I don't really know what to say. I'm not good at talking about myself. I'll try, anyhow.

I'm 17, female, and fat. Okay, I'm not fat, but I may as well be. I'm constantly trying to diet. I always strive for this perfection that people tell me is unattainable. When they say that, it only makes me want it more. I'm about 5'4", 130ish, with approx. 36% body fat. I'm striving for 115ish, with no more than 25%. Why would I want a quarter of my body to be pure fat?

Let's move on to happier things...

As you may have noticed from my love/hate page, I love pretty things/people. Specific people, if they must be so named include:

I'm in Bryan, but as of May 30, I will by living in Carrollton, TX, a loverly suburb of Dallas. I'm a senior this year, and I've been accepted to University of Texas at Dallas. I'm still awaiting New York University and University of North Texas, as I'd rather attend either of those.

I have "husbands". A couplefew. But no, really... I want to get married before I'm 21, but I don't know if that'll happen.

...that's all.

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Want to know who I love?

now � later