So life is a crazy thing, this time yesterday I was depressed as hell about alot of things.. But im making progress.. I dont know what to do about alot of things but progress is happening.. I want a bf, but 98% of men are scum.. Dont understand why most of my friends have decent bf's though.. But I'll survive.. Even though I know im terminally single and will be forever but thats fine.. If someone wants to come into my life and turn my world upside down I would welcome it just nobody seems to want to make an effort when it comes too me.. Which I would think it was my loss.. but if they guys that I meet dont realize that im a catch then its there loss.. Yada Yada Yada.. Ive talked alot about friends and friends gone by.. But now im pretty aware who my friends are and who isnt.. frankly i just wish the ones who arent would stay out of my life, if they dont have anything better to do with there lifes then too get on my case about stuff which happened a month ago and more then it just shows how boring and meaningless there lives actually are. But that happens when your high 24/7 on one drug or another. I know im better then that.. I know I can do more with my life then that. So I told my mom about most of the shit thats happened too me in the past 6 months but I was surprised she took it well but I know she can see that im trying to make a better use of my life. I went to Fly on Saturday nite.. Thats the club that I used to go every Saturday.. But I only stayed for an hour because I was so bored and tired and was looking around and saw alot of people I know, most of which I dont want anything to do with in any way and frankly the club is so drug infested that if you arent high on e, there really is no point in being there from my standpoint.. So life goes on.. Days go by.. Where are we going to be a week, month or year from now? Well I hope I will be moved out from living with mom and in another city somewhere.. Well see.. Only my thoughts and time will tell..
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