Pride week is done.. I had 2 weeks off work to get a grip on my life. Does anyone actually know what they are doing with there life? I know ive been way to emotional lately. Considering I have probably cried almost everyday in the past 2 1/2 weeks.. But alot of my friends seem as lost as I have been lately so i guess thats ok.. Pride weekend was fun. Went to Unity 2000 which had Cyndi Lauper there.. She is a godess and I totally started balling when she started singing true colors.. :) I didnt meet anyone this pride weekend at all, but that was more by choice because I dont know if i want to meet any new people. But I do want to because I really dont want to be single anymore. I spent most the weekends around my friends Heath, Ian and Chris. All of who I love to death.. But I so felt like a 3rd wheel being with them and there boyfriends... But its all good.. Im so happy that all of them have found people who make them happy. :) Cause they are 3 of the nicest/amazing people I have met.. Which could be why they are my friends.. I just dont understand what I do that is wrong that I just seem to find bullshit from people. I know im picky but I dont see myself being that picky that I cant find some really nice guy who would treat me good instead of fuckin with my head and stuff.. But oh well.. I have no idea what going to happen with the rest of my summer. I have no plans.. I feel like im stuck in a major hole and dont know how to climb out without a ladder.. But I know I need to find a job I actually like going too everyday. I want to find a boyfriend. Yeah like that will happen. I want to move out from living with my mom.. Which is strange because I can see myself doing that even before I find a b/f or find a job I like.. Laff.. Oh Well .. Dont really have much else too say.. so i'll stop now..
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