Ok, now im in exactly the right mood to fill out another diary.. I have had two people on gay.com tell me im an asshole tonight... What I find really funny about it is they did it without a picture on there info line or anything about them. I find it funny people who like to make others feel like shit when themselfs hide behind a computer screen. Which is always nice but frankly I dont give a shit about what anyone thinks of me anymore. I have fretted and worried too much in the past 1/2 a year because I worry too much whether someone likes me or not? Am I a bad person? I dont think I am and anyone who truely knows me knows im not a bad person. So why should I give a fuck that people who DON'T EVEN KNOW ME think im an asshole? Because I know im a good person. Sure I have made some mistakes this past 6 months but frankly.. Dont we all and if people are going to call me an asshole without even hearing my side of the story or that wont even bother hearing my side of the story? Well all this people can fuck off and leave me alone because I dont give a fuck anymore. I dont need anymore trash in my life anymore and if they cant handle it.. Yeah you know who you are.. Just get out of my life and leave me alone. Act likeI dont exist because as far as im concered none of you exist. I dont want you in my life now.. or probably ever again.. and if I had one regret is that I wish I hadnt met any one of you fuckers.
Well on to other things.. This city is getting to be too much. I know too many people which is my biggest problem then anything. I just want to get rid of all the baggage people I have in my life.. Who needs someone in my life that you cannot have a decent conversation with because they are high, ALL the time? Who wants people in there life who feel the need to treat others like shit? Ever heard of treating people like they want to be treated? Who wants to deal with constant mind games from people who dont have a self esteem to actually be themself. Who wants people in there life that doesnt have the backbone to stick up for themself and feel the need to get the rest of the world to do there dirty work for them? Who wants people in there life who dont have the guts to stand up for themself when others try to control them? Who wants any of these kind of people in there life? Not me! So now that i have realized that even though im not surrounded by 100 people who dont give a fuck about me.. I have my friends and they are there for me no matter what I do and that sure as hell beats having a bunch of pieces of trash in my life. So if you dont like what you see? If you dont like what you hear? Well I am me and if you dont like what you see or what you get? Then get out of my life because I dont need you or any of your kind.
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