| 6/21/2006 (I am not sure who wrote this, but it is beautiful and much needed today.)
Dear God, Please bring my beautiful baby home to me soon, I need to rock her 'neath the light of the moon, I need to kiss her warm soft, sweet face, I want to teach her of your love and grace. She needs to know I'm her parent for keeps, She needs to know I'll watch while she sleeps. I know you've a plan, you're much wiser than I, But I fear you've forgotten, as time passes by. I'll watch for a sign and I'll know that you're there, I'll pray for some news and remember you care. Love, -A Waiting Parent Dear Waiting Parent, You think that the process moves slowly, not surely, I promise it's both, but change mustn't come early. Your faith must be strong, open and steady, Your baby will be here, but not till I'm ready. I'll never forget you; I do have a plan, Not easily understood by mere man. While you are here waiting for news you can share, A foster family [or Hogar worker] waits for pain they must bear. To your wonderful child, they must say good-bye, You know, to them, time really does fly! Think of them as you wait and prepare, Pray for their strength; be grateful they're there. I'm with them too, just as I am with you. I know how it is to be far from your child, I want to hold YOU and make all your fears mild. Believe, little one, that the sun is my kiss, Believe that you'll share so much more than you'll miss! Your baby is coming home to you soon! Hold her, kiss her, 'neath the light of My moon. Love, -God |
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| 6/20/2006
Well, we survived the "birthday". I cannot say it was easy nor even very happy. Our hearts just ached all day to be with our precious girl on her special day. And we waited all day for the phone to ring (with good news!). It did not happen. I appreciate our adoption agency, particularly one person, who was there to listen (to e-mails) yesterday. I could feel her understanding. (She has been through the adoption process herself.) And I am very grateful to everyone who signed the guestbook. I look forward to showing Maria one day that even while she was miles away, people here were thinking about her on her special day. Finally, thank you for the prayers. Right now, that is how we are getting through the days and this end of the process. Each day is more and more difficult. As I was sitting in VBS this morning surrounded by squirming kindergarten students, I was remined of a verse (in the VBS lesson) that didn't really "sink in" until today. Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." And I thought VBS was supposed to be for kids? What a good verse for today. Be strong. Honestly I am not feeling strong. I am feeling weak and a little rundown, weary from the waiting. Do not be terrified. How can I not be? It is scary. What if our case doesn't ever get signed off on? What if adoptions come to a halt? We are so close, yet so far away. Do not be discouraged. I wish I wouldn't feel any discouragement. And some moments I don't. I feel that peace knowing God is in control. But other times, I do feel discouraged (right now). Each day seems to be passing and she is still not home. My summer is partially over and we haven't even exited PGN (and pickup is usually a month after that). I wish I didn't question God, though my devotion today said, "It is okay to ask "why", though we may never understand the answer." But I will admit I am questioning. "God, do you not want her to be with us? Am I not praying enough? We have so many people praying...what else do we have to do???" Of course, as soon as I think that, God's gentle voice reminds me that it is NOT about what we do...it is about what HE chooses to do. And for whatever reason, He has chosen for this to NOT be the time to bring her home. But I really appreciate that last part. Even in this LONG adoption process, God is with me. And He will be with me no matter how long it takes. I am thankful for that. I am clinging to that. Please, God, sit with me while I wait. |
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