Sickness Sux

I don't know why, but I'm sick.

Some days I can barely get out of bed.
I feel weak, faint, and generally crummy.
I have random aches and pains.
I have terrible joint pains that just come and go.
I always have trouble sleeping.
I can't get to sleep or stay asleep.
Then I wake up feeling sore and tired.

Lately, I'm also have difficulty thinking.
Words and names and numbers escape me.
Since Rob's near death experience,
multiplication and division seem incredibly difficult.
Reactive type things seem fine,
but thinking and remembering are difficult.

I've been dealing with this for a long time now.
I've given up on hiding it.
I think that makes it worse with people,
it's hard enough to hear "you look fine"
or "you just need to exercise more" or other such things.
Believe me, if it were that easy, I'd be healed by now.

I'm trying to work with doctors to get better.
That's no easy task, I've seen some real bastards.
I've also seen some clueless idiots.
Now I have a real doctor, who has referred me to a rheumatologist.

The rheumatologist has given me some medications to try
and some pamphlets outlining some lifestyle changes I should consider.

I'm still working on it, working on a major overhaul of lifestyle that is.
In addition to that, I've gotten 1 of my wrists fixed and injured the other.
So now I'm awaiting another surgery.

I'll probably talk about this a lot at my Open Diary

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