Torn
chapter 2
by Henageshi
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-Chapter Two-
"Shuichi! Dinner!" my Kasaan announced her dinner completion. I didn't feel like eating. Never. "I'm not hungry.." I shouted softly. Then silence hit the house. Pretty soon my mother will be up in my room to ask me a million questions for my answer. That will give me time to think of an excuse. I will maybe just tell her the truth about what happened today. That IS really what I am upset about. No. Not really. I am really upset about the 'real' me. So it IS a lie.
"Shuichi?"
Damn. I ran outta time.
"What's the matter?" she sat on my bed. Tell her the truth, tell her the truth. No! I'll just tell her what I was upset about today.
"You know Shuichi, if something is wrong you can tell me. I would love it if you never kept secrets from me." she gave me her sweet smile.
Man! That SURE made me feel better. The way how I always feel for people is because I put myself in their place. What if my son kept a deep dark secret from me? I would feel....terrible...
"I....broke up w/ Maya-Chan today..." I confessed.
"What? Why?" my Kasaan looked surprised.
"I'm just.......not ready for the relationship yet..."
There it goes. Another lie from my mouth. Well get used to it cause it's for their own good.
"Oh. I see. Well come on down to dinner ,Shuichi. I made your favorite dish."
Chopsui Curry. Mmmm. I could feel the delicious noodles and spicy chicken in my mouth. I jumped off my bed and ran downstairs to my curry.
"Arrigato, Kasaan!!" I shouted to her from downstairs as I scooled out the curry and dropped it on my plate. Ah. This should make me feel better. My mother's delicious famous curry. I stuffed it all if my mouth. Mmm. The tasty spicy chicken melted in my mouth. I dropped my chopsticks. A memory came to my head. Maya and I use to come over to my house to study....and my mother always made us this dish. Suddenly I was feeling hot. I felt my face. It was burning hot. Did I have a fever? But I felt fine. My eyes were getting watery. Oh no. Why did I have to start crying NOW?
"Excuse me...Kasaan..." I headed to the bathroom. I closed the door and locked it. I hid my face in my hands. I could feel the hot tears pour from my eyes. I began to sob very loud. But I tried my best to keep it down. I feel down on the floor as my body was up agianst the door. I still hid my face. I sniffed loudly. I blew my nose from a tissue from the tissue box. I looked at myself in the mirror. I glanced at myself. That long red hair. Those green eyes. That long silky gray silver hair. Those golden eyes. My Yoko form appeared in my reflection. I began to clench my fist.
"NO!!" I punched the mirror and broke it to peices. I dropped to the ground crying agian. Not only my hand was in pain but so was my heart. Blood covered my fist. Will this feeling ever go away?
