Torn
chapter 1
by Henageshi
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Hey peeps! Great to be able to put a fic up online. ^.^ I
must say that I have not proof read this so it might be a little misspelled at
stuff. I was feeling this way one day b/c I was in a VERY BAD MOOD. It drove Yukina2 up the wall! O.O *lol* Enjoy it!
P.S. This is Kurama's point of veiw. ^.^
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-Ch 1-
I laid my body toward a tree on my school campus. I felt all torn up. I just broken up with Maya-Chan, the girl I cared about most in the whole school. All just b/c of my secret past. I gently closed my eyes. My excuse to her was I did not want to except the relationship now. Lies.
All Lies. I lied to my family, my friends, even my girlfriend. I felt the tears burning in my eyes. I closed my eyes tightly so no one could notice them. I would just have to give them another lie. I gently laid my hand over my chest. It felt like someone ripped out my heart and burnt it to ashes. I always have thought in my mind. Why did this have to be me? Why was I the one who had to have that dreadful past that made my human life this way?! Why!? I could not hear my heartbeat. Even my hands were numb after making that horrible scene with Maya-Chan. The look on her face was just....so horrifying. I would of rather told her the truth. And someday, I will. But it would just draw danger closer and closer to her.
Lying. I shivered. That was the thing I hated most about myself.
Lying to everyone around me. What's wrong w/ the world?! Doesn't it care about the people it's hurting!? My Mother? My Maya-chan?....Me? I sniffed hard. I don't know how long I can stand lying to anyone. Maybe I should of told everyone the 'truth' about me. Why did I have to be born a Demon Fox? Why couldn't I be just plain ,ordinary, girl attracting Shuichi Minamino? Which one would be better? Telling Maya the truth about me and having her in danger? Or lying to her and make her squal over me? Silence hit my mind. I didn't know!
"Shuichi-kun?" a soft voice called from behind the tree. I forced my tears to drip back into my eyes as I turned around and say Maya. She had tears going down her eyes. Lots of 'em. Oh gosh. I've hurt her more than words could say.
"Um...I just wanted to say...." she began to sob. I wanted to go over thare and hug her and tell her it was alright, but I was frozen in sorrow.
"E...Even though you don't like me...I will always like you." she forced a smile on her face.
"Maya....." the words I could only say came out.
"It's not that I don't....." I couldn't finish. Maya slowly walked off w/ her hands in her face. I wanted to run after her so badly. I felt like I was super-super glued to my tree.
-Swish!-
Ah. My fire demon friend came to my tree. I looked up and saw him sitting on a branch watching the school. He looked....happy..!? Oh right. He told Yukina that he was his brother yesterday and he seemed as though his life was completed. At least he had everything he wants. All I have left is a broken heart.
"Kurama? What are you doing?" Hiei asked me. I laid my eyes in my hand. My friend sensed that I was upset.
"What's the matter?" he asked agian.
I shook my head. "I just.....have something in my eye.." I gave him a smile. Another lie. But in this situation, Hiei wouldn't understood how I felt anyway. Plus, my lies were all for the saftey of their lives. But it still hurt me inside.
"Well Master Genkai says we should return to Makai to find a deadly weapon for a mission pretty soon.." Hiei explained.
"No!" I exclaimed. Hiei's eyes grew like a hot-air ballon. I didn't want to go to Makai agian. It would cause me to say more lies. I could not take anymore of it.
"What's the matter w/ you?" Hiei snickered.
"I just....don't wanna go....I wanna stay here w/ my family and friends.." I answered. Hiei looked surprised. "Well it's not like you'll never see them agian.." Hiei dissapeared. I knew it. He wouldn't understand. No one would understand. Not one single human or demon. I scrunched up in a ball with my head in my knees. Is there anyone who could understand how I felt about my feelings?! .....No! No one does and no one cares. I can't even have one relationship w/ a girl I care so much about. Tears dropped from my eyes. I am so alone. In my heart. My mind and in my very own world.
