April 10th
6:30 AM: I was sound asleep and my husband wakes me up to tell me that if I will get off my "lazy ass" and keep up with the laundry that he will do the dishes. I was slightly impressed as this is the first time he has ever attempted to compromise with me over anything�but the fact that he called me a name kinda took the thrill away and left me feeling, once again, worthless and not good enough�and also pissed.
Why does he think I'm a lazy ass? I am always cleaning!!! The house never looks clean because my husband nor my son neither one will pick up after themselves, and quit frankly, I'm tired of asking. I get home at 3 PM on Tue and 4 PM the rest of the week. Either my husband & I have karate or my son has tae kwon do.....I never get home before 7 PM except for on Tue (6 PM). I have to throw something together for dinner then I have to help my son with his homework, get him in the tub, put him to bed & read him a story. Sat is MY day, to rest, garden, read, play computer games or whatever I want to do. Sun I pretty much clean ALL DAY LONG. Yet, according to HIM, I don't do anything, I am a "lazy ass"�and when I do clean, I don't do it right. I don't clean properly because I don't do it the "military way"�tell that to my previous clients who paid me $10 a room to clean and organize their home or business.
later in the morning: Dear Husband called to ask me what time I was leaving to go meet with my friends, "About 1:00", then asked what time I was going to be back. I asked him why the sudden interest in my comings and goings and he said he wanted to know what was going on for dinner. No problem there, told him, "About 7:00", he said he'd stop at Subway. I was a little short with him because I was still VERY upset about last nights actions and this mornings name calling. He asked me if I was in a bad mood and I told him "Of course! I'm still upset about last night, and I'm upset about this morning!", he hung up on me.
7:30 PM: Home � hr later than expected. I really didn't want to come home at all because I knew he was going to be grouchy.
I walked in, went into the computer room and sat down at my computer; he left his computer and went to watch TV. About 15 minutes later (after checking my e-mail) I went into the living room to finish putting together a circulating fan I purchased (I knew HE wouldn't put it together-sigh-). I sat down in the floor (in the dark!) and began putting it together; he immediately turned off the TV and went back into the computer room. He stayed there about 10 minutes then got up and went to bed. He wouldn't speak to me at all. I talked to him several times, his only response was, "I'm busy". My reply was, "You're always too busy for me".
Earlier, at my friend Lisas' house, Lisa did a rune reading for me. I asked her if my marriage was going to be "till death do us part" and the results were that there was going to be a significant change in my relationship within the next 28 days (I got the Moon & the Ring next to each other). I don't remember everything she said, but I knew it was positive....yay!
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