An Eternity of Dreamless Sleep

i have used up all my strength. After a week of getting out to keep myself from loosing it, I just cant seem to figure out a point. I thought tonight was going to be a great night. It turns out that I was wrong. From the minute that Greer walked into Neo, I couldn't help but feel alone. I used every ounce of strength to not break down. I failed. Then Lynda walked in. From that point on it didn't get any easier. I all I could think was how badly I've managed to screw things up. I managed to stay a little longer, but I knew that I couldn't stay. The tears just won't stop coming. I haven't felt this sad and alone in a long time. I just want to sleep and never wake again. I want that eternity of dreamless sleep.