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My Story ... My Life... My Diary...

My Life of Love

Today is 8th of Feb, another 6days to Valentine Day...& Firstly, I wish all couples a Blissful Relationship with ur Dear Dear...

Haiz...I think 14th of February would going to be a boring day for me...I have plans of just sleeping through the day. IF my ex have not breakup with me, I think I would be with her celebrating our 2nd Valentine. Till today I believed, she nvr knew the reasons y I became a NPCC CI or how I feel up right till now. I could say she have already forget abt me totally. Not even as friends?

The song by Van Yi Chen - Wang Le Ai sings abt the situation just like mine.... Everytime I heard this song I felt so sad n deeply hurt by her...Friends of mine say, Y not u just forget abt her....n my reply to them was always, " there is no way I could forget this ger, this ger who sped almost 2yrs of her life with me". How am I supposed to just forget her like this? Although, the pain in my heart is fading away after I get to know this ger frm another sch also in NPCC, another DISASTROUS OUTCOME BREAKOUT between her & I.. Another slash from a knife in my heart... I was speechless....(lets name this new ger 'J')

I got to know J through a npcc area camp in Pulau Ubin, it was her smile n watery eyes that capture my mind & soul. On that very spot, I was hoping she was just mine so that I can spend my little world with her. So I hurried, to get a intro for her & finally manage to get her contact for msn through the campfire on the last nite of our camp. I was so happy! So when we get back to mainland, I quickly add her to my contact list. We chat through the nite for the 1st time. I could feel that attraction between us. Days & months passed...almost everyday contacting each other....So I have plans to asking her to be my gf.....

Knowing her for abt 6mths liaoz....I finally decided to ask that particular qns but she wasnt in Singapore....She went to Shanghai for 3weeks to visit her working father over there. I was so sad the day she left...but it doesnt matter cos she send me one of her pic....n was so crazy over her that I set my laptop wallpaper into her pic....so I could see her whenever I switch on my laptop....Her bday happen to be on her visiting holiday to shanghai. I know she like dolphine so I went to buy a jigsaw puzzle that pictured 2 dolphines together. One dolphine would be me & the other she....I spent sleepless nites to fix it up & finally it was done.....

I was happy upon finishing the puzzle & oso becos accompianed in this puzzle frame would be a letter frm me to ask her to be my gf. I ask her friend to pass this present to her when she returned home becos when she come back from China, it is my turn to leave for my holiday....I was so sad becos I couldnt chat with her after such a long time.... But it doesnt matter cos my heart has her picture..... When I came back I was hoping she would give me a reply on 1st Jan at 0000hrs but it didnt came...I was sad....but doesnt matter cos mayb I should give her more time....but on the 3rd Jan 2004...this is the day that she gave me a stab in my heart.....I found she have a BOYFRIEND..... n all the while she didnt tell me abt it.....I was so sad...heart-broken....I was breathless when I saw her sms telling me...."Sorry I didnt tell u abt that"....

I was crying for days...I was in a sober state....I didnt know wad to do...till now I still like 'J' .....I wonder if GODs above the skies...were playing a little joke with me....must all this happen to me? Till now I still ponder ......'J' I really like u n willing to wait for u~!~!~!.

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