SEPTEMBER 12TH, 2003: MY FAIRYTALE LAND
It'sa that time of the month and my gum aches like crazy. I am having a relativly terrible morning. Except I am dealing with it. Admittedly I if I didn't pay the gas and water bills, and we weren't in a drought (despite that it rained on my clothes last night) I would be spending the entire day in the shower. All I have wanted to do for the last few days is shower, so I have had a couple a day. I just feel dirty and want to be clean. Clean. Clean.

LMFAO! Someone came to my journal looking for "midget cross dressers". Weird. Mostly I get anorexic wannabes looking at this page.

I realized that I am still a child at heart, and always will be. I live in a fantasy land where magic still happens and darkened woods and snowy weather are mystrerious. I would love to go through Hohenschwangau, the Bavarian castle revamped by Prince Maximilian in 1832, made into a fairy land. It was the childhood residence of King Ludwig II, not far from his later residence, Neuschwanstein. Yes, the castle that Disneyland is based on. (My gum is aching like a bastard).

It is over decorated, and beautiful. Set in a wooded area on top of a hill, I could just imagine the fun that I would have had there as a child, and the sense of fun that I would have as an adult. True, I wouldn't play make believe because that would make me NUTS, but I could still make up stories in my head and enjoy the fantasy.
Sometimes I wish that innocence hadn't been lost and as we grew older we could still believe in witches and spells and what-not. I am not dissing Wiccans, I do believe that that sort of thing work, but I am thinking back hundreds of years ago when everything was possible and magic was everywhere.
Now as we get older we are forced to believe that none of it is real, that it was all fantasy.
I guess I can just go on dreaming becasue we can't have it all and this day and age is ust so damned convieniant. Would I swap the internet for a big dark forest full of nymphs? Yes. Would I swap modern medical technology for secret passages? No. And I think that is the only thing that I wouldn't want to change because now my daughter isn't going to get the black plague, or some of the other horrible things that they had back then.
I still have a brain, and an imagination.
Cheers and merry be.

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