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Age: 23
Height: 169cm (5"6')
Start: 120kg (264.5lb)
Current: 85kg (187lb)
Goal: 60kg (132lb)

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60kg (132lb)
55kg (121lb)
50kg (110lb)
45kg (99lb)
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Some people like pain and thrive in mayhem and melodrama. Some relish conflict and living dangerously. The nearer they are to the edge of disaster, the happier they seem to be. We maynot all go to such extremes, but a lot of us enjoy rollercoaster rides. It has something to do with the sensation of "being alive". Sometimes, when life is too quiet, easy, safe or cosy we take too much for granted. We lose the magic. Everything becomes flat or dull. Now, about the source of excitement in your life. If you feel it is doing you some goos, roll with it, but remember it is optional. (Jonathan Cainer)

19TH JUNE 2003: RAMBLING BULLSHIT

I don’t sleep well. I don’t think of it as a curse. There is only one problem that arses in relation to waking in the middle of the night and being unable to return to the dreams I was torn from. What it is? What is this curse? I don’t utilise the time. I guess if I am awake at 3am and my body thinks that it has had enough sleep, then I should get up and do something useful, like clean. That is something I ought to do.
Or study. However I do not use my daytime well either. I am sitting here, staring at the computer screen pretending that at least sitting here is contributing to my finishing an essay that is due tomorrow. If only I had used my time properly then it would have been completed by now. However I am completely an unwilling participant in this class. Sociology of Health and Illness. Geez, what is sociology? It is a whole pile of general observations of society and their attempt to say that they are trying to change the world. What, by writing about what people do?
That didn’t come out quite how I wanted. My teeth are hurting. I should go to the dentist, and will in fact make an appointment, preferable for next Tuesday. However I hate dentists. I should say that I know the procedure will not hurt, but that is a BIG FUCKING LIE. Okay, so the injections are the worst part of the procedure itself. I have tattoos. I should be able to cope right. Right? Well, not when the last time that you had a tooth pulled you spent the next several days in extreme pain because when you sneezed the clot dislodged and you were left with a dry socket- that is my jaw bone and millions upon millions of nerves were exposed to everything that entered my mouth. I think it is also deemed an infection. And it hurt like hell.
However, I do know that the pain was remedied by some antibiotics -which my doctor said should be given each time a wisdom tooth is pulled- and that the pain associated with a broken and exposed wisdom tooth is much worse. So there, I have convinced myself.
My teeth just seem to be getting worse and worse. The more I brush them the worse they feel. Whitening toothpaste is the worst culprit as it makes me feel as if my already cavity filled teeth are crumbling. They seem a little better when I use children’s’ toothpaste, yet that does not stop my teeth from turning yellow. I think that I shall call the dentist now before I lose the nerve.

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