28TH JULY, 2003: STUPID IS MY MIDDLE NAME
I sat up to watch Girl, Interrupted last night followed by Malicious. I figured if I went to bed later then I wouldn�t wake so many times through the night. It worked as I only woke twice. However the point is that I am excessively depressed at the moment. I really have no intention of making friends, but I really wanted some last night. I just felt so lonely and I started to wonder again why people do not like me. I thought about reading what Annabelle wrote, but I really didn�t care.
Usually it wears off by morning, but not so today. I am feeling completely blue and would take up smoking again if I had the money (hence the reason I chose that pic of Benicio Del Toro. And my intuition stepped in this morning and was unfortunately correct. I had a foreboding feeling all morning then the phone rang. The bastards from AAPT. So, okay, I owe them the money, but I don�t have the money. I also believe that half of what I owe them is in fact debt that I do not owe. Why is that? Well, because months after I had changed services the bill kept going up, and no one could provide me with a detailed list, only a general bill saying how much I owed. Unfortunately I have no proof so I�ll have to cough up the money. I know they do this sort of thing because I knew someone that worked with them, and the stories they told! The fun part was that if you asked for a supervisor you got passed onto one of the other desk jockeys and they would tell you the exact same thing. Hence because you thought that you talked to a higher up, then you thought that there was nothing that you could do. Oh well.
The reason that I am so stupid is this. I was so depressed that I decided to cut a huge chunk of hair off this morning, a whopping 6 inches. My hair is still long, and I cannot see it properly, but it appears that there is a definite section in the middle that is shorter than the rest. I have no friends to fix it, no money to go to a hair dresser, and I won�t be at my parents for another 2 weeks. Therefore, the next two weeks I will have to be content in tying my hair up- it is still long.
I didn't buy the paper yesterday because I was trying not to spend money, so I'll rely on the daily horoscope from Astro.com, especially because the other ones were pretty stupid anyway.
I'll write an entry on the best star signs ever in a minute. Really, they were so acurate it was frightening!
This is such a rambling bullshit entry because I am so sad. Cheers.

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