Gloom and Doom
Chapters
- God gives us strength
- Love
- Identity
Letter
People whom I am giving these poems to:
Hi, I am sorry if I have
caused you any pain in the past. I didn't mean to do so. In fact one of you
showed me how much I needed help and in a sense showed me the way. I was
thinking of suicide and he told me his own ordeal with the subject. He told
me what he was doing right before that occurance, and then I realized how much
trouble I was in. SO if I tend to act a little weird from before don't worry it
just means I am happy and found life serving the Lord and saw the light that he shines. This friend that helped me, opened the door to the light for me so now I know to read the bible when Gloom and Doom come into my mind.
This is to show you how I was and now no more negative thoughts plague my mind. This is what I felt even though I was following God's teachings. I at that time was not listening to those messages.
I hope you like these pieces.
Love,
Athena Marie Myring
Copyright (C) 1996 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Tiger Ghost
By: Athena Marie Myring
There once was
a tiger ghost
That roamed the only Indian Coast
The Maharitchi of
Rewa ordered it to be caught
And with ten-thousand dollars it could be
bought
An albino it is not
A genetic oddity is what we've got
White and White can produce Yellow
But only the Lord can give us the little
white fellow
With only one-hundred fifty to their name
This world
will never be the same
Will we always have this treasure
For our
children's and our grandchildren's pleasure?
Copyright � 1985 Athena
Myring. All rights reserved.
Time
By:Athena Marie Myring
As I wake up from my
dreams
I wake up to reality
Reality in a way are dreams
Instead of
peaceful dreams
They are violent nightmares
Every seven seconds
Someone dies
It doesn't matter
If it's natural or semi-murder
As I
listen to the news
A child cries
For clothes or food
The children are
the future of the world
They are the leaders of tomorrow
I just hope
tomorrow we will have a world
The world is my home
The world is your
home
Pollution in destroying the environment
Nature once was our
environment
But now we have machines
Instead of animals
And you
And
me
Copyright � 1992 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Abuse
By: Athena Marie Myring
A child cries in the
night
Once again the mother pleas
The father has the smell of liquor
Slam -- Bash -- Bang -- Silence
Except crying in the darkness
The child
bloody with fear and terror
Lies asleep in dreamless nightmares
Hovering
over the child
Mother protects thy innocence
Father sees fire and beats
Hits mother severely glass bottle shattered
Mother's dead.
Where is
the child?
Father ran off with the child
He continues his pain
For hate
and revenge are the meaning of his life.
Copyright � 1993 Athena
Myring. All rights reserved.
Innocence
By: Athena Myring
Innocence
Na�ve
Nice
Opposties Attract
Conning and Cunning
Exceptional
Necking
Cornering Cats
Exorcist
Copyright � 1993 Athena Myring. All rights
reserved.
Pain
By: Athena Marie Myring
I know my pain.
Abuse - mental and physical
You know your own.
I used to cry because of
my pain.
Now I use my pain as my will to live.
I don't strive for revenge.<
BR>I don't fight.
I am strong.
Pain is a feeling and a state of mind.
Rape - Murder - Beating - Put Down
All cause pain
Everyone has had pain
in their life.
I have had my pain.
Everyone causes pain in my book.
I
have had pain.
I have pain.
I will have pain for forever and eternity.
Copyright � 1993 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Tears
By: Athena Marie Myring
Salty wet with Sadness and Fear
Sweet and tingly with Happiness and Joy
Salt and sweet are our feelings
Salt is sour
Sweet is bitter
I used to cry tears of pain
I never have
cried tears of joy
I control my pain
I keep it bundled up warm inside the
walls of life
I have tears inside
When you look at me
You see the
tears inside my eyes
They are tears of pain, hurt, love, and sorrow
I cry
tears
You cry tears
I even think God cries tears
For I think tears
are a sign of pain
Copyright � 1993 Athena Myring. All rights
reserved.
I am finished with life
By: Athena Marie Myring
I am
finished with life
I have said all I've needed to say
I am tired of all
the pain in this world
I am finished with life
I invite death to come
Because death is inevitable to me
All I want to do is close the book
Just shut the door on life
All I want to do is stop the pain
And
all the sorrow of this world
I don't want to be a burden
I don't want
to make people cry
So dry your tears, and smile
For there isn't
anything
That will stop me
For I want to have this last adventure
Death it is
And here I come
Copyright � 1995 Athena Myring. All
rights reserved.
Songs
Hopes and Dreams
By:
Athena Marie Myring
Chorus:
Look Around
What do you see
Do you
see you or
Do you see me
Verse 1:
Look Around
What do you think<
BR>Instead of World War
Can't we have World Peace
Wouldn't that be a
blessing
To have no wars no fights
Wouldn't that be a charm for now
No gangs, no violence, no cries
But will it happen
I sure am hoping so
Chorus:
Look around
What do you see
Do you see you or
Do
you see me
Verse 2:
Look around
What do you hear
A four year
old child
Cussing and swearing
Can you believe this world
So young at
age
What is happening to this world
I sure hope all of it will change
But will it change
I sure am hoping so
Chorus:
Look around
What do you see
Do you see you or
Do you see me
Verse 3:
Look around
What do you know
What is gone now
Will forever be extinct
What will you say when
Your child asks you this
"Mama, what is an
elephant?"
You'll just say you wish it was here
But will it be here
I sure am hoping so.
But will it happen
I sure am hoping so.
But will
it change I sure am hoping so.
Copyright �1992 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
I'm Through
By: Athena Marie Myring
Chorus:
Let the sun shine bright
Let the tears fall down
I'm through with everything and
I'm through with life for now
I've been through everything
From life until death
I'm through with everything
For now
Verse 1:
When I wake up in the morning
I used to see your face
But now when I wake up
I only see a picture of your face
You don't know how hard it is
To breathe every breath
And even on some days
I wish for death
Chorus:
Let the sun shine bright
Let the tears fall down
I'm through with everything and
I'm through with life for now
I've been through everything
From life until death
I'm through with everything
For now
Verse 2:
I remember seeing your smile
Your laughter made me happy
Now she makes you laugh
And I am very sad
I need to get over you
I need to climb this very steep mountain
But our memories haunt me
And in the heart they stab me
Chorus:
Let the sun shine bright
Let the tears fall down
I'm through with everything and
I'm through with life for now
I've been through everything
From life until death
I'm through with everything
For now
Bridge:
Those memories keep flooding my mind
I can't even think
No use to sleep
For they are filled with our dreams
I'll get over you somehow
And this is the way
Here I come death
I must die
Chorus:
Let the sun shine bright
Let the tears fall down
I'm through with everything and
I'm through with life for now
I've been through everything
From life until death
I'm through with everything
For now
Repeat and Fade Out
Copyright �1995 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
My heart is Breaking
By: Athena Marie Myring
Chorus:
My heart is aching
My heart is breaking
It feels like you tore
My heart apart
It's hard to think
Can't eat nor sleep
Now that we have grown apart
Verse 1
I'm sorry baby
I'm not whom you thought I was
You thought I was a pebble
On the ground
Now you found out that
I have my standards
Now we are walking our own paths
Parting as we go our own ways
Chorus:
My heart is aching
My heart is breaking
It feels Like you tore
My heart apart
It's hard to think
Can't eat nor sleep
Now that we have grown apart
Verse 2
I'm sorry baby
That you're in pain
Don't cry darlin'
Don't fall apart
I've been crying
For an hour now
But I haven't fallen apart
Chorus:
My heart is aching
My heart is breaking
It feels like you tore
My heart apart
It's hard to think
Can't eat
Nor sleep
Now that we have grown apart
Verse 3
I'm sorry baby
That you can't sleep either
It's one a.m.
And I've been crying ever since
It seems the only thing that I can do
Is have this song come to an end
Chorus:
My heart is aching
My heart is breaking
It feels like you tore my heart apart
It's hard to think
Can't eat
Nor sleep
Now that we have grown apart
Repeat and Fade out
Copyright �1995 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Rainbows
By: Athena Myring
Chorus:
The sun's shining bright my way
Since you've left
Clouds have gone my way
Lightning strikes and raindrops fall
The rain mixes with it all
Verse 1:
When you left me all alone
To solve the puzzle
I said things
That I could not say
When we separated
I thought about you a lot
But now we have gone
Our separate ways
Chorus:
The sun's shining bright my way
Since you've left
Clouds have gone my way
Lightning strikes and raindrops fall
The rain mixes with it all
Verse 2
I know I should look
For the silver lining
I know I should
Wish you the best
But I just can't
See in front of me
I just keep looking
At the past
Chorus:
The sun's shining bright my way
Since you've left
Clouds have gone my way
Lightning strikes and raindrops fall
The rain mixes with it all
Verse 3
It has been a while
Since we parted our ways
I hope you have found
Your love by today
Since I'm getting wed
Tomorrow from today
I hope you're not mad
Especially today
Chorus:
The sun's shining bright my way
Since you've left
Clouds have gone my way
Lightning strikes and raindrops fall
The rain mixes with it all
Repeat and Fade Out
Copyright �1995 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Smile now, cry later
By: Athena Marie Myring
Inspired by: Crystal Fausnaugh
Chorus:
Smile now, in pain
Cry later, alone
Lonely in the dark
Pain stabs at thy heart
Another broken heart
Verse 1:
Starlight
By Athena Marie Myring
Chorus:
Starlight
Star bright
First star that I'm seeing tonight
I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the wish
That I'm wishing tonight
Verse 1:
All I want
Is for someone to love me
All I want is happiness
No pain
No sorrow
I want to be asleep
When I go to heaven
Chorus:
Starlight
Star bright
First star that I'm seeing tonight
I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the wish
That I'm wishing tonight
Verse 2:
When I watch the news
I see nothing but violence
People dying or chopping each other up
Every ninety minutes
A teenager commits suicide
Chorus:
Starlight
Star bright
First star that I'm seeing tonight
I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the wish
That I'm wishing tonight
Verse 3:
I'm tired of seeing the pain
I'm tired of all the sorrow
We see people cry out for help
But we ignore them
And complain with what we have
We don't want to see the children
Starving to death
Chorus:
Star light
Star bright
First star that I'm seeing tonight
I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the wish
That I'm wishing tonight
Bridge:
Don't you see the point
That I'm trying to make
We can make a difference
If we just see straight
And see how good we have it
People cheating people
People killing each other
Parents killing their children
I'm tired of seeing those types of things.
Chorus:
Star light
Star bright
First star that I'm seeing tonight
I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the wish
That I'm wishing tonight
Repeat and Fade Out
Copyright �1990 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Tell me what's going on
By: Athena Marie Myring
Chorus:
Tell me what's goin on
I don't know which is real
Or fantasy
Is there a Heaven and
Is there a Hell
Am I alive or or
Am I dead
Or is it just
My I-MA-GI-NA-TION
Intro:
I'm wondering now
If this world will ever change
I'm looking for the bright side
Sunny times that will cover the rain
Verse 1:
I used to be pessimistic
Until I met you
I used to wish for death
Until I found life in you
Chorus:
Tell me what's goin on
I don't know which is real
Or fantasy
Is there a Heaven and
Is there a Hell
Am I alive or or
Am I dead
Or is it just
My I-MA-GI-NA-TION
Verse 2:
I don't know what's goin on
I have this funny feeling inside
It is too complicated to explain
But I only have it when I am with you.
Chorus:
Tell me what's goin on
I don't know which is real
Or fantasy
Is there a Heaven and
Is there a Hell
Am I alive or or
Am I dead
Or is it just
My I-MA-GI-NA-TION
Him: You Only feel this when you're with me
Him: It's too complicated to explain
Her: Oh yes
Her: Do you understand me
Her: Do you even love me
Him: I love you my darlin'
Him: From now until forever
Her: I love you
Him: Then we love each other
Her: I guess we do
Chorus:
Both:
Tell me what's goin on
I don't know which is real
Or fantasy
Is there a Heaven and
Is there a Hell
Am I alive or or
Am I dead
Or is it just
My I-MA-GI-NA-TION
Repeat and Faded Out
Copyright �1994 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
The Good Old Times
By: Athena Marie Myring
Verse 1:
As I sit down here
I remember times
I used to be young
I used to be fun
But now I know not why
Chorus:
What
Tell me what is happening
Why
Oh why am I singing
Who am I
And who are you
To tell me that
I love you
Verse 2:
I used to be sweet
But now I have a temper
I used to be kind
But now I call people swine
Why oh why please tell me why
Chorus:
What
Tell me what is happening
Why
Oh why am I singing
Who am I
And who are you
To tell me that
I love you
Bridge:
The good old days
Their not coming back again
I have to change my ways
If I want to be happy once again
Chorus:
What
Tell me what is happening
Why
Oh why am I singing
Who am I
And who are you
To tell me that
I love you
Repeat and Fade Out
Copyright �1994 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Have you ever Heard the Weeping Willow?
By: Athena Myring
Have you ever heard the weeping willow?
Have you ever heard the wolf howl?
Have you ever heard the wind�s song?
Have you ever heard the children cry out?
I have heard of the pain.
I know of the song.
Why aren�t we doing something?
Because we don�t know what to do.
We have no control of what will happen now.
Have you ever heard the weeping willow?
Have you ever heard the wolf howl?
Have you ever heard the wind�s song?
Have you ever heard the children cry out?
Sometimes it is hard to accept
It is hard to lose your best friend.
LIfe is not long
It needs to be savored
Life needs to be lived.
Have you ever heard the weeping willow?
Have you ever heard the wolf howl?
Have you ever heard the wind�s song?
Have you ever heard the children cry out?
MAny things happen.
Some are illnesses
Some of those can�t be helped
Some end in death
Life is hard to live the way it is
Have you ever heard the weeping willow?
Have you ever heard the wolf howl?
Have you ever heard the wind�s song?
Have you ever heard the children cry out?
I know of one
Who had a dream.
She is not well
ANd she knows it is in his hands
She had it confirmed
Now we are waiting
When will it all end?
Have you ever heard the weeping willow?
Have you ever heard the wolf howl?
Have you ever heard the wind�s song?
Have you ever heard the children cry out?
She is dying slowly
And the doctors can�t do anything
The only one who can save her is God
He knows what will be
I just wish I did
I can�t do anything
Till she�s dead.
Have you ever heard the weeping willow?
Have you ever heard the wolf howl?
Have you ever heard the wind�s song?
Have you ever heard the children cry out?
I must wish the best.
When she goes she will be in a better place
I just wish
He would hurry and end her pain.
Have you ever heard the weeping willow?
Have you ever heard the wolf howl?
Have you ever heard the wind�s song?
Have you ever heard the children cry out?
Repeat and Fade Out
Written Jan. 18, 96
Copyright �1996 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
The end of the first chapter of my life!