Identity
Life
What is it about?
Will the people live till tomorrow?
And is there going to be another drought?
Are the waters of life going to dry up and leave the children thirsting?
Thirsting for what you may ask.
Thirsting for a reason and purpose to this puzzle they live.
A search for an existence for faith
No matter how far they travel
The pain will never go away
Seeking an answer where they will find none
The answer is so close and all around
Yet the good still can not be found.
The evil destroyed the bond of good
The good weeps and says I am here
But speaks on deaf ears.
Will they ever open thier ears?
and Will they ever open their eyes
To see the love that is waiting there
To love them and hold them in thier time of need.
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Snow
By: Athena Marie Myring
Sounds of silence
Nothing alive
On the Outside
Winter white
Like a blank slate
Icicles embrace the plants within
For the new Spring
Telling the story of Life and Death
Saying from death comes life
Marking the circle of life
Yearning to be new once again
Searching for a meaning
Pondering the essence
Imagining the path
Right or wrong
It must be
Tempting the flesh
Singing to the Lord
Chances
By: Athena Marie Myring
Chances are what?
I ask you that.
Chances are this.
Danger or bliss.
Chances are something you have to take
Whether you have to lie in the bed you make
Or to enjoy the of love
Yet I know not what that is
Can you tell me
Is it when at night you dream of one person
Even though he has disappeared long ago?
He comes into town
Yet you were told he is dead.
If he was here he never contacted you
He thinks of you as his sister and nothing more
Yet your view is something different
You have thought of him since 1988
WHen you were in the fifth grade
What to do
Must go on
You have definitely waited long enough
For maybe one day a man will fall love with you
Hopefully that will happen someday
Soon.
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Holy Ghost
By: Athena Myring
Lying in my grandfather's bed
A feeling overwhelms me
The feeling is of inadequacy
And unworthyness
The tears fall
And I feel a sense of peace
I hear a quiet whisper
Saying hello lil one
I close my eyes
And feel a warmth within the room
I feel arms wrapping me
Within their embrace
Telling me to go to sleep
I go to I lay down
And feel my head stroked
As a mother would her child
Or a father would his lil
When she is sick or sad
I fall asleep
I see my grandafather
He tells me he loves me and so does God
And that I am not alone
That I can call out to him
And he will come and comfort me
Whenever I am lonely
I wake up immediately sitting up
And go back to sleep
And enter into my dream haven
Talking to the Holy spirit
And learning in my sleep
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
New fallen snow
By: Athena Marie Myring
White as the new fallen snow
And red as the blood that flows
Black as a raven's wing
Yellow as a fresh bale of hay
Brown as the sands of time
Purple as the lilac
Pink as the cheeks in the cold
These are the colors of the wind and of time
Laugh someone
I am bored
Cry no one
Not anymore
For the sun is shining
And a new day has begun
The children's laughter
Eases one's soul
Playing so innocently in the new fallen snow.
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Walls of solitude
By:Athena Marie Myring
These walls hide me
Leave me alone within its deadly embrace
These walls are formed from being hurt and wounded
Too many wounds can lead to despair
The blood that pours out are the tears that flood the land
The land cries out for someone to love her
Yet nobody cares
They laugh behind their screens
At her dismay and bitterness
Others ask why she is bitter and say she should let things be
She tries yet the one who originally hurt her
Continues thrusting his spear in her face
Threatening to tear apart piece by piece
She stays silent as the walls grow thicker
No oxygen is getting to her and she is starting to fear
She may soon die of suffocation
The one thing he tried to do with her own pillow
She searches for comfort yet there isn't any
HIs threats are empty but he is insane enough to try them
For her to wake up screaming from her nightmares of blood and gore
The gore that he promises to make
Having the floor strewn with bodies
The blood pouring out and crying for justice
But there is no justice in this world
The only justice is in the Lord and his word
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Love vs.
By: Athena Marie Myring
Have you ever ed after someone
Yet respected them too much to make love with them?
Have you ever been drunk
So bad that you can't remember the past day?
Ever had such a sharp tongue
That you accidentally cut yourself?
Have you ever had a crush on someone so bad
That you bite your tongue cause you know the futileness of it all?
Or that you know if you tell them they will laugh right out loud?
It is hard to have a crush on someone
And try to figure out the psychology to use.
To tell them you like them a lot.
And if they ask describe a lot to tell them I admire you.
You dream of telling that person
Yet your pride gets the best of you
And Mr. Shy steps in.
So what should you do?
Stay silent or tell him what you feel.
This is the Argument of vs. Love.
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Today's World
By: Athena Marie Myring
Out of the nightmares of my dreams
Daring to take hold of me
Asking me what do I care
Yearning to learn all that I can
'Yet the hunger is no longer there
Saying why am I here
Wicked and cruel
Ordering and demanding
Reality bites
Lost in a world with out feeling
Death is not the answer
Innocent beyond compare
Saving one life that we can live
Out of s mouths come words of abandonment
Nothing seems to ever matter at all to them
Everyone seems to be telling them contradictions
Heaving the burdens of the world
Arguing one's beliefs out
Realizing everyone wants to be the same
Demanding to know why
Living out thier parent's dreams
Imagining what they would like
Faking their way with a mask
Evading the truth and the light
Trusting the wrong and accusing the right
Opposite of what is suppossed to be
Leading the children astray
Invading thier feelings of righteousness and caring and love
Violated of thier privacy
Empty inside with nothing inside
Don't Give Up Hope
By:Athena Marie Myring
When things seem dreary and gruesome
Think of how well you are blessed
THere are people starving
And some without homes
There are children dying
Because no one cares
I am one who cares
Maybe too much
I care so don't lose hope or courage
I know the clouds seem ominous
And lightning is within that cloud of despair
But keep your head up high
And remember everything is for a reason
Everything is for the better.
Whether it is a lesson for you
Or a lesson for others.
So keep your trust in the Lord
And he will get you to the other side of the fire.
God Bless you and keep you safe from harm.
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
I walk outside and all I see is the violence of today's world
Not knowing who I am because I stand out like a sore thumb
People ask me why I care
I just say I am who I am
Watching a child cry out to a cold cruel world
Beside his locked door
While his mother does her drugs or entertains her guest
I am a child of the Lord's
Yet it is hard to stay in the light
For the shadows invade my life while I huddle in the last speck of light
Afraid of being consumed and lost to all
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Sanity what does it mean?
Is it when you have all your oars in the water
Or you just know how to deal with everyone else's bs.
I still barely have my sanity
But it is dwindling on a long thin shriveling thread of patience
Insanity what is that
Just saying the heck with it
Let us kill the whole world
Being told you are worthless
Then being commanded to do things for them
I think that is not right
But alas that is how I live my life.
Being asked where are you going every moment of the day
Whether it is to go to sleep get a drink or just about anything in the day
I am slowly going insane
And I might seem a lil mundane but in a sense
I can't wait for death.
To think about jumping out of a car while it is moving
Or beg for a policeman to arrest you
Just you can get away from everything
IN this hard cold cruel world.
To get away from family and yourself.
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Despair
By: Athena Marie Myring
Watching my family die off one by one
The only grandparent dying slowly
Her stomach reveals a golfball sized growth
Not to mention the other tumors within her body.
She lost her husband
And she lost one daughter
I am her only granddaughter
And her other daughter has a foot in the grave
Why does this happen in one month's time
And why is it happening now
Now that I am just starting to put my feet on the ground
The ground shakes one more time
Maybe this time it will swallow me in its pit of despair.
Copyright (C)1998 Athena Myring. All rights reserved.
Glass Window
By: Athena Myring
Lord what am I to do
I watched him die so effortlessly
The only thing is that there is a void
Within me
He was my father figure
He was my friend
I remember the times that we had.
A single book full of memories
A single rock that was shattered because of my curiousity
Grandpa please tell me what is this that I feel these days.
You are gone and I am all alone.
What is this rock?
I would say.
You would take me into your workshop
Show me the exact rock
We would use your microscope to look at it closer
In the back of the Geology book
There were different types of maps
They were clear except for some parts
That would just overlay the others.
Friday February 27th.
I saw you lie there.
I told you I loved you and in your pain you smiled.
Also to lighten the mood I told you of how the hardware lab went.
I told you of how me and my partners forgot to plug in a circuit.
Everyone laughed and you smiled.
I was holding you hand and you squezzed
my hand.
Your eyes were blank but the smile was there.
I knew you were listening to me.
I love you grandpa and I will always love you.
I have dropped a class to honor what you would want.
To graduate with my BachelorThank you for you have given me new inspiration.
This is what I have to say to you my grandpa
I love you.
Even though my world has been shattered like a glass window.
I'm here child
I see the pain in your eyes, I also see the misery of your past
Will you for once let me in away from this cold cold world filled with sin
I see the confusion and the mass chaos and I listen to your cries for help
I follow you everywhere you go yet you will not turn and ask from me some help
I am sitting beside you as you cry yourself to sleep
The tears that fall are the tears from me.
I feel your pain child and I see your agony
But you wont turn from your sin and simply face me
The bruises of the past color my face and everytime you give yourself to lust
My body convulses in pain, for I see the pain and I feel it to
Wont you please call me and I will come and comfort you in your pain.
I love you and always will, and the father loves you too through death.
Smile Now In Pain
By Athena Myring
Smile Now In Pain
Cry Later Alone
Lonely In The Dark
Pain Stabs At Thy Heart
Another Broken Heart
How can I be so foolish
To force a love that isn't true
How can I be so stupid
To Wish For love that can't be true
Smile Now In Pain
Cry Later Alone
Lonely In The Dark
Pain Stabs At Thy Heart
Another Broken Heart
I been crying off and on
Part in anger part in pain
The blood that runs thru me
I wish would flow out of me
Smile Now In Pain
Cry Later Alone
Lonely In The Dark
Pain Stabs At Thy Heart
Another Broken Heart
But I made a Promise
I kept another
People said to end it all
I just keep on wishing
And Keep on hoping
That life somehow will go on
Smile Now In Pain
Cry Later Alone
Lonely In The Dark
Pain Stabs At Thy Heart
Another Broken Heart
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