I am everyone elses disease the thing that people fear their children becoming. Yet they are their own disease they mold and shape these kids to be little chroines of them and to avoid the things that they themselves fear. To me fear is showing your weakenesses. You people build your fences to try to keep the world out. Fear, the only thing that seperates the weak from the strong.. where do u fit in?
I am your nightmare, I am your fear, the one thing you can not change, the one thing you try so hard to change, when will you learn that you do not phase me? I am not scared of you why dont you just move on and find someone else to mind fuck? cos its not working on me!!!
Why cant I say fuck you and move on? why cant I just say oh your an asshole and live my life? Why do I waste my time and write about you? why do I waste my time and think of you? why did I ever waste my time on you?
Life,A waste of time, a big ol lie, something that everyone always says means something but means absolutely nothing, life something i want to end right now, life something i had no choice of being in. something you forced upon me and spoon fed me this bullshit from an early age and always told me that life is what i make it. how can i make it anything when you are forcing your bullshit rules down my neck? you say I disappoint you well maybe you should have thought before you brought me into this life. i beg you I plead to you please take this life away from me i can not go on
can you tell me why Im still breathing? can u help me die? will u take this pain i have away? can u comfort me when I need u most? can u honestly say u understand? will u never fade away? can I trust you?
If I told you what I thought would you turn around and run away from me?. If I reached out to hold you, would you stop me?, If I said I love you, would you believe me? I feel so strongly for you but yet I can not express it. Im afraid to tell you how I feel in fear that I may ruin everything that we have now...and I dont want to lose that its too precious to me to lose. I guess I care that much
