wow, been almost a month. what the heck have I been doing? hmm, well hanging out mostly. been spending a lot of time going out. and a lot of money. I am going to have to watch that. oh, and tucker came out from NYC for the day a few weeks ago. that was very cool. i'll always associate buttery nipples with him. I've been to this one place in oakland a few times in the past month; a club that plays house on Thursdays. It's very cazh, which I like. good music but relaxed atmosphere. I went out to 1015 Folsom, which I haven't been to in like 5 years. It was awesome! I can't believe I stayed past 4am, but my friend made the time a lot fun. and the music was tight. even he got into the hip-hop/ rap they were playing in the front room. Before clubbing, I went to Chabot to watch a movie in the planetarium. I was very disappointed by it. *sigh* But they throwing a Star Trek party that night, so all of these people came dressed as Klingons. that was hilarious.
I've been soooo busy lately. Yesterday I went to Marine World & that was pretty fun... til it became "When Insects Attacks". Damn bee stinging me. Friday was girls night out. Lots of fun, but I was so out of it. Too bad the Brad Pitt doppelganger didn't show. He is such a sweetheart. The older I get, the harder it is to party on Friday nights. But I am still trying to live up my youth. You only live once. I am trying to learn to live without regrets and without painful grudges. It is hard, though, to some times let go of your fears, but if you don't you're crippled by them. *sigh* This war has me not happy. I occasionally check out the casualty page on CNN.com to look for anybody from the unit that my office adopted (3rd Battalion, 7th Marines). I wrote to 2 of the officers & I am trying to follow up that they are okay. I hope so. It really pains me to see all the 19, 20 years olds killed in this war. Its just such a waste.
I finally got to go to Dave & Buster's Saturday Night. That place is a lot of fun, but it ain't no ESPNZone. so I played lots of Skeeball and avoided the Basketball Hoops like the plague. I've learned my lesson with those! I simply cannot play basketball worth a damn. I am really tired & life is currently alright. Not good cause I am having to deal with stupid shit regarding my new apartment owner who thinks he can just walk in to my apartment whenever I am not there. He somehow keeps missing that it is against the law to enter a tenant's apartment without at least 24 hour prior written notice. *sigh*
I am tired. So very tired. and so very old. This past weekend was spent celebrating a friend's birthday (her last bday in her 20s) & Friday night we went out. I didn't get home til 4am, but it was a lot of fun. I didn't wake up til 2pm the next day. Been a long time since I have done that. Then Saturday night we went out as well. I didn't get home til almost 2am, & it might have been later than that if the cops hadn't shut down the club for whatever reason. The music was bumpin' & we were having fun! Right now I am in pain as I did a weightlifting class monday night & the sub instructor kicked our asses something fierce. I haven't been in this much pain since Pilates. And freaky me is going to do aerobics & kickboxing tonight. crikey! So I ran into this guy at the gym that I used to... I guess hang out with would be the best description. Things would sometimes feel weirder that just being "friends" I dunno. whatever. anyways, when he dumped me, it hurt but I was like life goes on. So it's been 5 years & I am at the gym one day & there he is. I was stunned, but at least is was not delusional psychotic Aries. thank heavens for small favors. No need for that poison to be in my life any longer. So my chump ass ran away. Then I saw him the very next time I was there, but I refused to be a chump again. I stayed. About the 4th or 5th time after I first saw him, he finally saw me. And visibly started. And interestingly enough I have not seen him since. Thing is I am not angry anymore. or hurt. but I think that he thinks I will go off on him, which I wouldn't because there is no point & I am over it. a part of me, though, wants to ask him why he did what he did cause I thought he was better than his last actions showed him to be. & I did miss him when he first left my life. I just find it interesting that he is a sudden no show. Whatever. It isn't like I need to make every situation melodramatic. or maybe there is some part of him that actually feels shame or embarrassment over his last actions regarding me. but I am never that lucky with the men who've been in my life.
found this great website for people of mixed ethnicities/races: www.mixedfolks.com.
that new Queen Latifah/ Steve Martin movie, Bringing Down the House, is one of the funniest films I have seen in a long time! totally recommend it! oh, I can even begin to talk about my despair over my poor san jose sharks. *sigh*
Wow, it's been a while. Saw Chicago. GREAT FILM. Also finally got around to seeing El Crimen del Padre Amaro, which I enjoyed as well. Oh, and Y Tu Mama Tambien. Currently I am extremely tired from bar-hopping last night. I am officially too old to stay out til 1am anymore on a work night. Seriously. And that is twice this week I have done it. Fun, but damn is the next day a drag. Going to Tahoe for President's Weekend. I have a friend who leased a house, so that should be a lot of fun. Plus I met a cute guy who is going to give me free ski lessons, so how can I pass that up? =)..... Mom is doing better. She has hair now so she's pretty excited. Work is alright. Play is alright. NYC & Boston in 4 months.!!! yippee!! Now time to nap before going out tonight. Seriously. Going to the Cal vs. Arizona State game. I wanted to see Arizona but we couldn't get tickets. *sigh* But it should be fun anyways...
I had a really fun New Years Eve. I only wish I hadn't been so tired. Then I end up sick 2 days later!!! *sigh* But it was worth it. I didn't drink really (that one strawberry-mango margarita was bangin' though!) but I have to be less 420 friendly if I am going to drive home. I don't do it often, but I need to not do it in excess when I finally get around to it. Not in college anymore. I have now seen the Two Towers twice. Good flick but I can't figure out why I still prefer the first one. Watched Joe Millionaire last night since I couldn't go weightlifting with this cold. That was a hilarious show. Who needs the $50,000,000 when a guy looks like that? really! Seriously though, he is HOT. Not to mention, money like that is nice, but it is shit without a man with some integrity & character. I'd rather have a financially less secure male with integrity & character than a rich man with no morals, backbone, or intelligence. anyways, I am thinking I will go to LA MLK weekend and drive up to Seattle/Vancouver President's Weekend. Not sure yet. I still need to plan my NYC & Boston vacation in May.
Saw Die Another Day Saturday night. Passable flick, but that Madonna song is absolutely hideous. I like Madonna, but ick. Had some guy serenade me today at the BART station trying to get me to talk to him. Talk about embarrassing. =( Thanksgiving was lots of fun. Spent it with family. Mom is flying up here for Christmas/Kwanza/Hanukkah in a few weeks. Should be fun. That's about all for now... Oh, softball tournament in Sunnyvale this weekend and a party this Friday night. Can't wait for the new LOTR movie.
wow, It's been a while since I've put anything new on here... let's see, saw 8 Mile & the new Harry Potter. I enjoyed both. Tried to go to a friend's bar party last Friday but could not find parking in North Beach after driving around for one & a half hours!! Talk about a pisser & some serious road rage going on. mom is doing alright. still going through chemo. *sigh* I have a softball tournament in 2 weeks (I think). The American Ballet Theatre will be in LA the first 2 weeks of December, so I may go check out their rendition of The Nutcracker. The hoildays are coming up... I feel somewhat bereft of emotions right now. I have for quite some months now, but I hoping that will change. Can't seem to feel much of anything right now. All I do know is that I could use some good cheer, understanding & nurturing. But of course, those are things you can't ask someone to give you. You just have to hope that there are those around you who care enough to give that to you. They have to want to give it to you. To have the facade of strength often leaves one feeling hopeless in times of weakness.
Can't wait til I go to NYC again next May. I so need something new to do right now. I really need to work on not getting bored so easily. Feeling overwhelmed again by things going on right now. Not unhappy but not feeling all that social right now. I love Winter but the holidays kind of get me down. Makes me think of lost love & it brings back memories of the intense pain that ignorant people can cause because of their misguided beliefs. On the upside, the Sharks are looking good! Hope my hand heals soon. Who knew a baseball bat could cause that must damage simply from vibration???
Okay, time to sit down. So last friday my softball team got CRUSHED. Taught us humility quite quickly. Afterwards was the Bay Club Gala at the SF Design Center. That was a lot of fun. Funk music, good company, dressing up... what more could I ask for? =P My judaism class is going well. Learning about Kaddish. Oh cool, the Sharks play the NY Rangers in 2 weeks.
It has been a very long couple of weeks. Mom's surgery has pretty much taken precedence over all other things in my life at the moment. My free time otherwise has been split between softball games & re-doing my apartment & kicking back with buds. Built an etagere last week. That was damn hard. And I never did get the knobs right, but whatever. I can always go back & fix it when I get my power drill. Lots going on right now, but don't' know what to type right now.
Yesterday was a lot of fun. The TO LIFE street fair in Palo Alto was really wonderful. Totally new experience for me to be surrounded by so much jewish culture, which helps with my whole conversion process. Now I need to sift through all of my collected literature for events and special interests groups that I might be interested in to further my knowledge and increase my judaism social circle. Broke down & got the Bryan Adams greatist hits CD over the weekend. Awesome stuff, especially on my new stereo with its wonder 240 watts of power. That thing is damn loud & don't even get me started on the great bass sound. I'm in love! Had a nice long talk with a good friend of mine about life & love over the weekend. great conversation over a falafel, smoothie & instant coffee.It opened my eyes to a few things that I was trying to avoid & it made me think about some things I kept dismissing.