Okay, recently I got called a bitch cause I knew what I wanted and went after it with full force. Anyway, I hate that society labels a strong minded and strong willed woman a bitch when a strong willed man gets slapped on the back in congratulations. That kind of double standard is incredibly irritating. So society's definition of bitch is a strong willed woman who uses her confidence and strength to go after what she desires. If that is a bitch, then so be it. Then I am one and I will take being called that with pride. Assertiveness or even sometimes aggressiveness in a woman is not a bad thing. I hate that "people" think women should be docile. How boring is that? If I want docile, I'll get a dog.
I recently got into an argument with someone who used to mean a lot to me. Now I am in the phase where I think he kind of sucks due to his being a very selfish and mean person. I am glad that my years of being both hurt and angered by him have come to an end. With that realization has come a great happiness and the radiance that is shining from this new found freedom is quite evident to all. Some have even commented. I know this makes several of my close girlfriends quite happy. But I learned one very important thing from this whole situation: Some people can not find any fault with their own actions, no matter how wrong those actions were/are. When you get someone like that in your life, just move on! It isn't worth it. Life is too short to be bogged down by someone else's blindness to your munificence.
I leave for my trip very soon and I am so very excited!! Lots of last minute things to take care of and I can't wait to share my adventures with friends and family back home.Thank god my hotel in New York has an internet cafe. And I found out yesterday that my favorite male recording artist, wonderful Tenor Josh Groban, will be performing in New York City while I am there. Is that fate or what? I will wait two hours in the freezing weather to try to get a ticket to see him. =)
I am having an awesome time on my trip. I am so happy and so tired. It has been fun exploring on my own, meeting new people and just getting a feel for each city (and mastering the public transit in each one!) Can't wait for next week. I am definitely most excited about Montreal.
Back from my trip for a week now. I am still so exhausted. My birthday is tomorrow. *sigh*
So I am totally still trying to get in contact with the Rabbi at the Synagogue near me. I know that he has to turn me away a couple of times before talking to me allow me to be "sure". But I really am, but alas the game must be played this way. So I was in Vegas for 4th of July and that was really cool. Got to hang out with friends I hadn't seen in a while. At the same time, my lucky streak at the tables was quite cold & so I lost more money than I should have. But on the serious plus side, I got to see my aussie dance group again. YUM!!! their website is this: www.thunderfromdownunder.com. The guys have changed a bit, but it is still a hell of a great show. =) I am still trying to figure out my vacation for next year so I can attend all of the weddings I need to go plus fit in Western Canada. Since I get 3 whole weeks of paid vacation next year, I am thinking where I want to chill (can you tell I am eager to travel some more?)... Got to start saving up again pronto. But I definitely want to go to Florida after hearing Kahlia & Mai's stories. Miami would be awesome to visit and since they live there, they know all of the places to go. Got to visit family in New Orleans. And of course, visit Natalia & David in Raleigh. I really had a lot of fun there. I am still thinking about getting on a plane to go to the UK. or maybe Australia. Although I think airplanes are awful, that really is the only way for me to get to those places. *sigh* Definitely I have more thinking to do on this.
I am starting to question if I don't stir up excess drama in my life cause I am bored so damn easily. I really need to work on that. I swear that sometimes I have the attention span of a gnat. yikes! Also, I am really wanting to get to know this guy who seems really cool but is so rollercoaster with me that it is starting to kind of bug me. I am looking at classes to take this fall to occupy my uninspired mind, so I either going to take a course on Sci-Fi Fantasy Novels & German or French. Been looking into volleyball & softball leagues as well. My Lehrhaus Judaica Beginning modern Hebrew and Intro to Judaism classes don't start up til October. I want to have more Hebrew under my belt by this upcoming Rosh Hashanah (Sept. 6th) & Yom Kippur (Sept. 15th).
So I went to a good friend of mine's company picnic over the weekend. It was a lot of fun!!! I even won a trophy playing softball & I totally whooped butt in the water balloon toss (still got it after all of these years, baby !) with her boyfriend. food was good too. but it makes me wonder what is it about some men that when they organize a sports team, they think that girls can't play? that is such an antiquated & sexist method of thinking that I can actually see a protruding forehead in place of a real one on men who apply that way of thinking to sports. argh! but despite his outrageous behavior, it was the gals that ended up saving the day. you know i relished in the irony of that.