Man I had some crazy dreams last night...crazy scary dreams. I hope they were just dreams and not visions because it was about doom and gloom. One dream was about me walking along the road on a busy street, this one girl ran up to some people and just started shooting people with a pistol. Panic broke out and no one really fought the assailant. I was thinking I should tackle the girl, but I don't want to get shot. Anyway she started going crazy and shooting everyone and I ran away. I came back and it's like the whole city was in lock-down or something. Almost like concentration camp or East Germany type feel.

The other dream I kind of forgot already but it was something about a terrorist attack. The dream left me feeling utter devastation, and hopelessness. Kind of like we were attacked once, and we didn't think we could be attacked again, but it's happening again. I hate those kinds of dreams. You wake up with such a bad feeling.

Yesterday after work I went to PetsMart store. They have a very nice selection of everything. They have a pretty descent selection of fish. I'm thinking of getting a fancy tailed guppy for work. After that I went to a kitchen store and bought a utensil rack. Went to Boscov's to return christmas LED lights that stopped working as I took it out of the package. Went to Party City as well. Finally got home and Yujin had cooked some pasta, but he made too much and ended up throwing the rest out. I had some leftovers from the Phileo Friendship dinner on Sat. night.

Today not much to report either. Snow is on the way though :)

Wow...I've really been neglecting my blog. I guess that goes to show that I've been more productive at work. Well Thursday I had a doctors appointment. After that I stopped by to drop off a blender at someone's apartment before heading back to work. It's for tomorrow night's "Friendship Dinner". Also my roommate's girlfriend stopped by our apartment for a visit from NYC. Tomorrow they go back up to NYC for the weekend.

Friday: I was feeling sick so I left work a little early. I didn't feel like doing anything but I had to go to church to drop off the computer to power the LCD projector. Takes me an hour to get to church because traffic is so bad. I inadvertanly held up the fellowship for 20 minutes from starting since neither I nor the computer was there...he he he. The funny thing is that my roommate Paul (a small group leader) left for church about 15 minutes before I did, but I still got to church before him. And if that wasn't bad enough I even had time to get lost (because traffic was so bad I thought I would try and find a short cut). I took a wrong turn, and lost about 5 minutes back-tracking. But there's still more. After church we went to Chili's for late eats, but on our way back from church (we leave about the same time), my roommate takes a short-cut, while I take the longer, but more traveled path. I get home before him, but unfortunately there were no close parking spots and both me and him end up parking kind of far away from our apartment.

Saturday: I sleep in as best I can to get lots of rest. I head off to work and bump into my co-worker who also had stuff to finish up. I work for 3 hours and head home to get ready for Phileo's "Friendship dinner". Kind of like our late Valentine's Day event. Guys made dinner for the ladies. I got to sit at the table of this girl that's had my attention for a few weeks now...since the retreat. We talked a little and I got to learn a little more about her. She seems pretty cool...but pretty attached to her friends. Dinner went well and pictures will be coming soon.

Sunday: I woke up and made it to church as usual. After church I went to PC Bang with some friends. We played for a couple of hours before heading off to Applebee's. Service there was terrible. We waited like 45 minutes for our food and it didn't even seem that busy. You could hear other tables complaining about the long wait, and one table just got up and left. That was probably the last time I'll be at Applebee's unless I forget how unimpressed I was.

Monday: I wake up this morning and feel like I had a pretty decent nights rest. Now I'm working hard :)

Cool, I finally got my tires delivered to my apartment, and then I took two of them to NTB and had them installed. It�s actually a pretty cool process and NTB allows customers into the work area. It cost me $60 to change both tires (add to that the cost of the tire $90). I tried to ask the mechanic questions, but he didn�t really seem to know the answers. Most of the work is done by the machines and computers. If you ask me, that�s pretty darn expensive labor for someone that doesn�t really know a lot. He took my flat tire off and the inner sidewall was completely torn up�I think because I rode on it for so long before realizing I had a flat. NOTE: When changing a tire, NTB charges two �mounting� fees per wheel. Taking the old tire off counts as a dis-mount, and putting the new tire on as a second mount. Don�t be tricked into thinking there is one mounting fee per wheel.

In an hour I get to go home to find out if my tires were delivered or not. I ordered tires for my car online. I�ll have 2 of them mounted and save the other two for after winter. Yesterday I was at work for 11 hours, the longest I�ve ever stayed at work. I have lots of stuff I need to do and not enough time or motivation to do them. For example getting rid of some of my stuff to make room in the apartment, maintaining the church website, updating my friends website, doing other stuff for church, and last but not least, playing counter-strike with friends online.

NO WORK TODAY....WAHOOOO!!! It started snowing like crazy on Sunday morning and didn't stop until Monday afternoon. We between 1.5 to 2 feet of snow. Dang...shoveling the cars out today was a pain. Yujin and Paul finally hit a breaking point as well when they argued while shoveling their cars out. We arranged the living area a little today too. This is what it looked like before. This is what my bedroom looked like before and after. This is my bed. Anyway I need to get ready for bed.

Well it's the day after Valentine's Day. For such a special day, mine really sucked...but really it was like any other day. I took my time yesterday morning to do some quiet time. After slowly warming up to the idea that I need to start doing QT, and especially after last week's blind date, I have decided to "really" devote time in the morning for QT. Since I'm the last one to leave the apartment I have all the peace and privacy I need to be with the Lord.

Friday night was like any other, I suppose. I had the opportunity to run the projector that night. After fellowship I hung out with some friends to eat a really late dinner and also did some singing at noh-reh-bang. Dropped off a friend and got home around 2am but didn't really get any sleep until like 4 or so.

This morning I woke up around noon. It feels so good to sleep in. Lynnette had already came over before I woke up. Again I did QT. Playing some praise songs on the guitar. The tips of my left fingers are kind of sore now. I haven't played the guitar in such a long time. I'm so glad my parents bought me my cheap guitar. I love it and I cherish it.

Wow...what a load off my shoulders. Yesterday night I ordered a set of 4 Yokohama AVS ES100 tires from tirerack.com but this morning I called into make sure the order went through only to find out these are popular tires and are on back order. I'd have to wait a month before getting them. I can't wait that long. I need something now. So I spend a good part of today looking for new tires. I finally decided on the Falken GR Beta FK-451 from discounttiredirect.com which has similar tread pattern and almost the same price. I hope it's a good tire. As long as they are better than my Potenza RE92 I'll be happy.

Finally I get to go home and think about other things. I'm coming into work on Saturday to get some "real" work done. Gotta prepare for stuff tonight. And oh, I almost forgot, it's Valentines Day. There this one girl at church I'm totally on the prowl for. I know nothing about her but hopefully I'll get a chance to tonight.

If you know me enough at all, then you've probably seen me use my PDA/cell phone. I love it because it's like having 2 devices in one. It certainly saves pocket space...especially since I like to carry my wallet in my front pocket and not my back. Finally the new SPH-I330 has been released...which is the newer version of my phone...but the thing is that this phone has been out for quite a long time overseas. The newest one they are working on is the SPH-I500. I hope one of these does mp3 playback or something.

Got my power supply yesterday. Came through UPS. I checked online and they said it was delivered, but I didn't see a package at the door. I called UPS and they said it was delivered at the front door. I told them I didn't see anything. She mentioned an ice chest (which was outside waiting to be thrown out as trash), and she informed me to look inside the chest, which is where I found my package...he he he. The delivery guy is kind of clever, but luckily no one threw the ice chest out.

So now that I have a new power supply I'm able to power up emachine #2 which was also from church. I need to get that in working order and bring it to church. So I'll have computer access at home.

Yesterday for dinner Paul bought some stuff from Han-ah-reum and we all had dinner together. Things are working out pretty nicely I think as far as the roommate thing is concerned. Yesterday I also found out my tire is unrepairable. I'll have to buy new tires.

One of my favorite verses: Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.

Well I no longer have a computer in my room, so making updates is going to be hard since I'm trying harder to separate work from play. Without the emachine that I was kind of borrowing from church, I don't have a usable computer. I have to fix my main computer first but for some reason the machine doesn't want to accept my 100gig harddrive.

Here's the weekend update
Friday: after work I went back home to pack up my stuff. Then drove to church to drop off the emachine at church so they could use for praise during worship service. I drove down to Balitmore to pick up my parents (almost exactly on time) and proceeded down to my brother's place in Northern Virginia.

Saturday: didn't really do too much the whole day. Evening time rolled around and it was time for me to leave on my blind date. Met this sweet girl Jenny. She seemed smart and pretty but I don't think there was anything there. I wouldn't say there was anything awkward about the date but she did seem to dominate the conversation. I didn't realize I could be so quiet. We met around 6:30pm and stayed out until 11:30pm.

Sunday: woke up in the morning for church. My parents finally got to see Jenny. I think it might have been awkward, especially since we went out to eat after church at this vietnamese place called Pho 99, and saw her there too with a bunch of her friends. It's like our table was secretly checking out their table, and their table checking out ours. Totally like you'd expect in high school or maybe I should say....from a bunch of Koreans.

Monday: woke up really early and left Brian's place around 6:30am. I was thinking everything was going to be okay. My dad prayed as we were leaving and right when he finished praying almost as though God were listening, he decided to play around with us. I was at a light and when I started off, I heard this funny noise almost like the tire was rubbing against something. I thought maybe it's just the extra weight since it's usually just me driving. The noise happened at another light. Traveling down a few miles another "new" noise began to sing loudly, and I'm thinking..."Oh no...my car is about to fall apart". We pull over and discover I have a flat tire. I throw on the spare tire...the size of a donut and limp to BWI airport to drop off my parents. They make their flight on time. I make it into a garage and the guy immediately spots a nail, but later tells me I have a gaping hole in the side of my tire. He pumps air in and almost immediately the air comes out. I'm dumbfounded, because I don't remember the air coming out that fast. I'm thinking he might have done something to my tire as I waited in my car trying to catch some ZZZzzz. I haven't taken a close look at the tire yet, but the thing I learned here is ALWAYS ALWAYS monitor the progress of work done on your car, you never know what they got up their sleeves. So the guy tries to sell me a tire, but I'd rather not have different brand tires on my car, so I tell him I'll order the right ones when I get home. I make my way home at 60mph. I finally get into work after 11am.

The episode of joe Millionaire really sucked. It was basically a recap of the past weeks and no final decision. I feel betrayed for watching this stupid show. I almost don't want to watch the ending. Oh who am I kidding, of course I'll watch the end, but I'm really pissed at the producers. I hate when networks resort to trickery, it totally eats away at its credibility as a real prime time network. Oh well...their network...not mine.

Today I woke up kind of late. It was just another one of those days where I didn�t want to get out of bed. Then I looked at the clock and it was already 9:15. I was going to be late for my doctors appointment at 10am. I walked outside and was shocked to see snow more than ankle deep, but luckily the sidewalks were shoveled. I finally got my car all brushed off and drove to Center City. Along the way, I almost fish-tailed out of control. I�m so glad I drive a stick shift car�it�s so easy to control the car if you know how to drive a stick. Moments after that, I felt my heart pumping furiously from the adrenaline surge. I know God is continually looking out after my safety, I just wish I could say the same whole-heartedly about my health.

It's after 3pm and I still feel tired. I keep yawning, my eyes are watering up, and my eyelids feel heavy. All I want to do is run back to bed and get a little more shut eye. I guess I didn't get as great a night's rest as I thought.

I feel so tired. I went to bed after 2 last night�but got up a little before 8 in the morning. My roommate is able to go to bed late and get up around 8am which makes me feel like a total sluggard�so this morning I thought I�d try and get up before him. He got ready after I got out of the bathroom, but left the apartment before me. I came into work at **drum roll please** 9:30 in the morning. I was hoping to work for 10 hours today, but I feel so sleepy and detached from reality.

Today�s reading of Proverbs 6 talks exactly about my problem. My love for sleep. �A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest, and poverty will strike you like a bandit and scarcity like an armed man.�

I need a nap!!!

Yesterday I spent a lot of time setting up my computer. I even tried to isntall counter strike, but it doesn't work too well. It's very laggy. Hmmm...I just realized I don't have much to say today.

I guess I'll give my perspective on Proverbs as my older brother does every day. Reading Proverbs 5, I'm very confused with verses 15-19, which basically says not to share your water with others. I think it's supposed to be a parallel on not committing adultry (which is what the whole chapter is about), but I don't quite see the connection. And wasn't polygamy an accepted practice back then? Why would you need to commit adultry. Overall I think this chapter is confusing...but I don't have to worry I don't think. I don't even have a girlfriend.

Admittedly I took a little time from work to read and reflect on this...which is kind of counter-productive to the messages it conveys. Prov. 18:9 - "One who is slack in his work is brother to one who destroys." A clear indication that I need to work harder and stop slacking off.

Well it's only been a couple of days and I already got into an argument with one my roommates. We were trying to figure out how to install and share the cable modem connection to all three rooms. Paul didn't like the idea of widening the holes in the wall that were already there for the cable line, so we could fit the ethernet lines, and kept pushing the issue of how we were going to widen the holes...almost in a condescending manner. I finally got fed up with him and yelled at him to get off my case and let the issue go. He apologized but I think this is a problem that will rear it's ugly face again in the future.

FINALLY...I'm all moved out of my old and into my new apartment. I'm living with 3 other guys...two of them are from church. I can tell this ain't going to be a cake walk, and ironically the person I feel least strife with, is the guy I know the least about. Please pray that I'll have the patience and understanding with dealing with roommates.

So a little recap since my last post. I loaded the truck up all throughout the night with my stuff, got a little bit of sleep and waited for Yujin to come over to help me move the larger items the next morning. We finally moved all my stuff and I immediately went to return the box-style truck which my friend let me borrow. When I drove off in my own car I totally felt like I was driving this exotic luxury sports car. I felt so low to the ground and so much more agile. So if you want to feel like you're driving a sports car, rent out a big van first and drive it around for a day. Drove back to my old apartment to start cleaning it out. The inspector came at 3:30pm even though I had cancelled the appointment. I handed him over the keys and everything which actually worked to my advantage because it bought me time to clean the apartment. Too tired to go to Friday night fellowship.

Saturday morning it felt good to relax and sleep in a little bit. Went to Tae's to decorate his place with balloons and streamers. People began to pour in and finally we got to surprise Clara as she walked in. We celebrated her birthday (along with Sun and Ed's b-day as well) and also for an engagement party. Tae had popped the big question that night...actually he had it printed on a "special" menu.

Sunday morning I woke-up late but amazingly made it to church with time to spare. Didn't get to listen to the first service since I was too busy doing other stuff. The 3rd floor chapel also had a new projector installed and they wanted to use it so I stayed for 2nd service as well. I enjoy the importance of this role but admittedly I know it's not good for me for my spiritual growth, primarily because I'm not able to listen to the messages. After Sunday services I went to PC bang and played for a few hours all the while waiting for my friend who PROMISED me that he would come but flaked out on me. I won't mention his real name but let's call him ChoBot. Because his last name is Cho and he's as predictable as a robot. Makes a promise and breaks them.