Ok, if I can rule out as much porn as possible then I think that will work. I will have the desire to peruse women and possibly jump back into the relationship. I know that I am totally affraid of relationships and they are not what I need right now, but they are totally fun. So I'm trying to create enough incentive for me to just go for it anyway cause I totally love the feeling that beeing in a relationship gives me, and because its good cause it teaches you discipline. Of course I won't be able to escape all porn, the comercials on TV tell me what a woman is supposed to look like, but if I can disasociate the sex aspect of it I think that will be better.

I have decided to continue masturbating with the absence of porn. If you have any ideas, email them to me.