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Hi! I hope everyone is doing well. This will be a quick entry tonight because I can hardly keep my eyes open, I'm so tired. Just wanted to do a quick update. I will not be able to update this page again until next week sometime because we are moving. We found this cute house that is perfect for our family, a rental. I'm not under any lease where we are now, so just like that we decided to move. We are going to be out of here by Monday, so you can imagine how busy we are going to be. A lot of stuff to pack in such a little amount of time. We've already moved atleast 10 boxes today and that includes packing them all day as well. Plus, I've been up since 7:15 am and it's now 1:02 am. The computer will not be hooked up until next week, not sure when.

I've been doing fairly well on food. I've sucked on water. I haven't been doing my aerobics but I have been doing a lot of other stuff so I don't feel so bad. I hope you will all have great success this week and in the future. Hopefully I'll talk to you all soon. Good luck everyone and good luck to me as well, I'm going to need it. I'm off to bed. Goodnight!.

I dropped half a pound this week. It's a little frustrating because I've been working so hard with my eating and water. I shouldn't bitch though, atleast it's a loss. I wonder if I've reached my first plateau already? I have decided to start exercising. Yes I know. Me? Exercising? Well, I am not happy losing weight this slow and I figured, this is the only way I will start losing faster. I will continue drinking close to, if not more than, a gallon of water a day. I hope you can't overdose on the stuff. I've decided to drop my calories down to 1400 a day. I am also going to do aerobics atleast 4 times a week. I will do it even if it kills me. Also, to let you know I am not just talking out my ass, I did 25 minutes of "Dance your pants off", by Richard Simmons, today! It wasn't even all that hard, really. I think the secret for me, is to do it first thing in the morning, before my brain figures out what I am doing. Oh, and I just have to mention, because it was so freaking cute. While I was doing aerobics, my 18 month old daughter was right at my feet trying to do exactly what I was doing. It's hard to laugh and exercise at the same time by the way. :) My legs are really sore right now. I think that's it for tonight. See you next time...

I did great on water intake today, drank 96 oz. I ate pancakes for breakfast and was hungry almost all day. I am starting to really believe there is some truth to eating a high protein breakfast, keeps you feeling full all day.

I am going to have to make a Dr. appointment very soon. I fear something might be wrong with me. I will give a personal and long story about some of my past. I was diagnosed with cervical cancer, May of 1998. We, the doctors and I, were looking into treatment options when I found out I was pregnant. All treatment was to be postponed until after the baby was born. I had to have my baby by c-section because the doctor said there was a risk of causing trauma and spreading the cancer otherwise. She was born April 2000. I was to wait 6 weeks after she was born to have a procedure called, conization. I was put to sleep and they basically cored my cervix, sort of like an apple, ridding it of the cancer. Everything went well. I was supposed to have a pap smear every 3 months for one year and 6 months after that for about 2 years then back to once a year. My husband and I had decided we didn't want anymore children, 3 was enough, so I had surgery to get my tubes tied in April 2001. Since that time, I've only had one period. That was a month ago. Now I am bleeding again, have been for about a week since my period stopped. Very light. The worse thing is though, I have severe cramping. (Real personal information next. Turn back now!) When my husband and I make love, I feel like I am going to die. It hurts so bad, the cramping. I bleed every time afterwards too. (Okay, you are safe now, proceed) I haven't been to the doctor since my surgery and I just hope everything is going to be okay.

I'd like to get my foot checked out to. It hurts so bad. I thought while I was there, I might as well get my thyroid and cholesterol checked too. :)

Ok, I think I've babbled enough for one night. Sorry for the graphic details. Until next time...

I haven't been getting much sleep lately. It's really starting to take it's toll on me. I've been doing good on my food intake until tonight, I had pizza. I don't feel even the slightest bit guilty though. I only ate 2 pieces and I was still in my limit for the day. Plus I know that I will not eat it every day so... Oh well. I have been slacking on the water intake. Only been getting about 48-64 oz a day. Not bad still, but I was hoping to be drinking a gallon a day.

Baby is doing the same as yesterday. His color looks really good though. The doctor thinks she may have been further along than they had thought. She named him Estevon Emmanuelle. Her husband is spanish incase you were wondering. My other nephews names are Santiago and Sergio, so she couldn't very well name him Brad or something. As promised, here is a picture of him. Keep praying... I'm out.

Tonight's entry will not be about dieting. My sister had her baby today at 12:02 pm via cesarean section. He weighs 1 pound 13 ounces, 13 inches long. He seems to be doing pretty good, under the circumstances. The doctor said it will be touch and go for a few days and more then likely, he will get worse before he gets better. He is on a respirator for now. I did get to see him tonight. He is so cute and so tiny. I couldn't help but cry. I am going to the hospital again tomorrow. I am going to take my camera to get some pictures. I will list one or two on here. Please keep praying that he will pull through this. I feel really confident he will. More tomorrow...

I hope you are all well. I've been very busy lately. Eating wise, I've been doing pretty good. I seem to average about 1600-1700 calories. Just incase anyone is wondering, I am not planning to record my calories for the rest of my life. I am simply using this as a reference for now, until I get more of a grasp on what foods have how many calories and such. I was simply amazed when I first started logging my calories. For the first day, I ate normal, err... well normal for me anyway, and then I added up the calories. It was amazing how many calories I was consuming. Plus with the late night snacking and fast food I was eating, it's no wonder I ended up so fucking huge. I just wasn't blessed with the super fast metabolism gene like about 10% of the population. Some people do have genetics that make it very hard for us to lose weight. We are doomed from birth to always have to watch what we put in our mouths. That's just it though. Even though we may have it harder than some, we have a choice of how we want to live. We simply cannot blame our parents, our genes or a combination of both. We are adults. We make our own decisions. If you decide to eat a big mac with french fries, then you cannot blame anyone else.

My sister that I wrote about earlier this week. The one that had the birthday party. She is in labor right now. This is not good news. Her due date isn't until Feb. 23rd. The doctors are able to determine that her baby is about 2 lbs and think it has a good chance for survival. They are trying to slow down the labor process. She is dilated to 6 centimeters. Every day that she stays pregnant, the better for the baby. If you are reading this, please say a prayer for her and the baby.

Thanks, that's all for now.

I am very happy. I had a nice weigh in this week. I dropped another 4 lbs! It's really hard for me to believe. I think my body is finally starting to respond. I feel like I've been eating so much, but I'm still losing weight. That's a good sign. I guess it's not really about how much you eat, so much as what you eat. I'm not saying you can eat a package of low fat cookies, simply because they are low fat. I'm just saying that you can eat a larger amount of the good foods. You never have to feel deprived. I find that if I try to reduce my food intake to drastically, I am setting myself up for failure. I just slowly cut this and that food out. Less of this and more of that. Seems to work for me. Just glad that I have found something that I know I will stick with. In the past when I've tried to lose weight, I would cut back on my food intake so drastically, maybe consuming 800 calories a day or so. I would exercise until I felt like I was going to die. Sure, I'd lose weight, but eventually, I'd start hating exercise and get so hungry I'd eat anything and everything. I'd then gain the weight back, usually gain about 10 lbs more than I was when I started. What I'm trying to say is, eat! Just make wise food decisions and eat until satisfied, not stuffed. Not feeling hungry, but need the calories to stay in your limit for the day? I've been there too. What I will do is drink a slim fast shake. Don't get me wrong, I do not believe in liquid diet. I simply use it as a supplement, nothing more.

You ever notice on weigh-in day, you can tell if you are going to have a gain, a loss or stay the same before you actually step on the scale? Last night, I swore I wasn't going to have a good weigh-in day. I was actually dreading it. This morning, when I woke up, I knew. It's amazing to me. If I can feel a 4 lb weight loss, and it feels great, imagine what a 100 lb weight loss will feel like!

That is all for today, check back tomorrow.