| 12-29-02 1:55 p.m. this site is pretty much dead, go to by blog or xanga to really know what is going on with me... if you even care... 5-16-02 11:25 a.m. you don't know me... i have a quiz you can take to see how well, if at all, you know me. www.devilernie.friendtest.com i'll tell you right now it's pretty hard so don't fell bad if you don't do well, it's not like i'll never tlak to you again and dissown you as my friend... much. ok yesterday was birthday and i'm glad it's over. it was nice i went to work for a couple hours where i had a pretty not good start to the day, you can read more about it here 5-14-02 11:13p.m. it's only a daaaaay aaaawaaaaaaaaay... well it's my birthday eve and i'm in a wretched mood, go to yo tambien and click chapter 3 and you'll see what i meen. well since i have a pussy assed diary now i can use this just for the news. it's tuesday and i got the new weezer cd so you can expect to see it for june's cd of the month, i'm over 25 cents on my checking account and i just KNOW the bastards at washington mutual are gonna chage me 21 dollars for it and that sucks soo much. tomarrow's my birthday and i am so not ready to turn 21, my sister turns 12 saturday, can i trade her? i wouldn't mind doing everything over again knowing what i know now... friday i'm going to see lisa in LA, and that'll be super awesome. she decided we're gonna be each other's backups if we don't get married which is totally cool with me cause when i think about it she's like the perfect girl. she's pretty but not soo much that i have to feel inadiquet (i couldn't handle being with someone too beautiful. beautiful girls make me feel uncomforable). she's totally fun to hang with, we like the same kinds of music and we get along really well, she can cook, she doesn't yell at me half as much as she should. so whenever she decides she cant do any better and has to settle for my lame ass i'll be ready... just so long as i haven't died or anything. so that's the news for now. "have a good night and a pleasent tomarrow" 5-2-02 11:17a.m. new month, new site, new look, new review, same pesimism... it's may, spring is in the air, flowers are blooming birds are chirping... fuck it all. i'm in a terrible mood every time i work on this page, i think i vent, but all i do is secreat the toxens from my mind, time to cheer up!!! got my pay check yesterday, $380 bucks! too bad i owe the bank 150 from overdrafts and charges, and the check i sent to my uncle bounced, totally lame. gonna take ali to see spider-man tomarrow, i have 20 bucks in my pocket and am allready dreaming up ways to spend it, i need a cd cause i forgot to pick some out since i re-reorginized my cd's, now they're ALL in a wine box and all orginized so that's good. i'm slacking way too much in my classes, and i really have to work on all the papers i'm behind in in my english class. i have a 10 page research paper due today and i'm gonna blow it off to buy a cd and chinese food, working for steph again today, but that's cool cause then i can ask her to work for me on mother's day so i can go see wonderlove at the house of blues. and hopefully see my grandma on mother's day, she's had her leg aputaed because of this really painfull infection so i really should make it up there. new goldfinger on tuesday, and new weezer the week after... the day before my birthday. i don't think i'm dreading this one, but i'm not excitied either, i do wish i wouldn't be turning 21, i don't want to be an adult, i don't think i have the mentality to ever be one. it's not me. i'll be 50 and still watching cartoons... well i don't ever want to be 50, i have a very romantic view of die-ing young, but that probally wont happen, all i keep thinking is what will be the mark i leave on the world? what will i be remembered for... i can't think of a single damn thing. 4-30-02 1:22p.m. all formalities aside: []new.page./+new|n0thing-(sev7en)=me?%[] 4-25-02 Iwant to write pop music the whole world would sing... for some reason i have the overwelming urge to write poppy rock songs, i've thought up 3 differant ones in the last couple days and i liked em, it's like i have a radio in my head that's thinking up it's own songs, unfortunately, i had no paper or never gave thought to writing the lyrics down. i'm very fixated with music lately, i would really love to do something pertaining to music, i wish i could sing so i could start a band, or could play an instrament so i could be in a band, or could write well enough to interview people in bands, and review shows and c.d.'s. but alas talant has seemed to look over me and i am lost in my heartfelt yernings to create something beutiful... i really want to write happy little pop songs, weezer style but even more happy. i'm talking three part harmonies and hand claps, early beatles style even... yesterday i went to anaheim to see save ferris at the chain reaction which was nice because for once i went to a show at the chain with no moshing. i meen freakin people were moshin to save ferris at other venues so this was a pleasent surprise. the show did feel very anticlimactic, because they didn't play come on eilene, which has always been their cloosing song since i'd started going to their shows, they did finish with I Know, which i love so that was groovy, but it just felt like the show shouldn'tve been over when it was.and to make it feel all the more wierder i don't think monique saw the sign i made her her, nor do i think she understood it if she did see it, it was in spanish and said "my heart is for you, mo" AND this is the first time i've seen them that i haven't gotten my sign signed by monique after the show. well they did rock ass so that was good. lets see after that hung out outside chain, and went to in-n-out and dropped david and jennifer and went to lisa's where we didn't get to bed till like 2:30, and had to be up at 5 to catch my train at 6, to make it to class by 9. but i didn'tmiss any class so yay me! ok, well sleep deprivation is making me delirious. i saw the end of sid and nacy a little while ago on the indipendamt film channel, that was VERY interesting, and then they were playing kurt and courtney right after, which just seems liek those two movies would go together. but yeah that's it for now. nothing revealing, life isn't too tormenting at the moment so i'm just gonna keep on rockin. |