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November 30,
2004
Interviews:
Just got back
from a 2-day trip in
Sinai-Grace – totally what I imagined going into Emergency
Medicine = poor, indigent population and tons of trauma. It’s actually only 10-15 minutes from a
pretty neat area of
I’ll say, for
both of these places, I got a great vibe from the residents. A bunch of the Sinai-Grace residents were
meeting with students at a bar tonight – actually bummed I couldn’t
go because they were TOO funny. Unlike
all of the other programs I’ve been at so far, I felt the most at home at
these programs… Kind of hard to go on a gut feeling, but it’s a
palpable difference…
Here’s
something interesting. So I was in one
of my interviews at Sinai-Grace… I happened to glance down towards the
desk and I saw scribbled at the bottom of a face sheet for my application
packet, “top candidate.” I
S*** YOU NOT! I about fell out of the
chair… err… I was pretty distracted the last 10 minutes of the
interview… not exactly comfortable with being thought of in high esteem… Sinai-Grace doesn’t have the rep yet,
but it’s a solid, county-type program… pretty surprised.
Something I can’t
figure out is that there’s been a lot of bad-mouthing of Detroit
Receiving this week. Some of it makes
sense, but I can’t believe that the program has slipped as much as some
people seem to say… have to ask some people
about that…
Side note, also got
rejections from UPenn and UCSF-Fresno today. Not surprised about the first… the
second is a bit of a relief that I don’t have to make a decision about
November 28, 2004
Yesterday, I think I
spent 1-2 hours working on one of my independent study papers and like 4-6
hours looking up tours in
Sunday Reflection:
So, today I’m
headed to church for the first time in… months? Good grief.
That last trip a couple weeks ago doesn’t count because it was a
goofy service. So, my thought upon
waking this AM is this: I haven’t
been praying about residency at all. No
problem praying for other people, but not really actively inviting God into my
residency application process.
Certainly, it’s not like last time, when I was on my knees
(literally) every night from the time I interviewed in Toledo for med school to
when I got in (believe it or not). For
whatever reason, I think I have a general sense of resignation… apathy?… fatalism?… or… trust? Unlike medical school, when it was totally
unknown whether or not I’d even get in, this time, from the onset, I knew
1) CA would be next to impossible, 2) I’d get into a good program somewhere, and 3) the match is
unpredictable anyways. So far,
I’ve had some pleasant surprises (eg George
Washington interview), and been disheartened at my zero CA interviews
invitations (besides those courtesy ones at USC and
November 26, 2004
Thanksgiving:
Went to
Also got to hang out
with MT for a couple hours… other than coincidentally having the same
interview at St. V’s, I hadn’t seen her since I visited
Lazy and Cold:
I’m supposed to
be writing two short papers for independent study. I’m soooo
lazy. All I want to do it sleep (slept
10 hours + 1 hour nap) and lounge around watching TV. I think I’m really burnt out from
studying for Step 2. Since Step 2 one
week ago, I’ve watched Saved!, Starsky &
Hutch, Mean Girls, Kill Bill vol. 2, The Alamo, Desperado, and Black Hawk
Down… still need to catch up on Shrek 2 and
Harold + Kumar Go to White Castle.
Also first snowfall
was two nights ago. It’s getting
cold. Too lazy to go out shopping…
but, while I’m up there for interviews, I’m going to stop at the
mall in
I have had some productive spurts in my
general slothfulness. I cleaned my apartment
and put up these insulating clear plastic sheets over my windows… I dunno if they really work, but it’s
sooo cold, I try it…
CA Hates Me:
Nobody loves me,
everybody hates me. UC Davis rejected me
this week. Only got UCSF-Fresno, Loma
Linda, and Harbor-UCLA wait-lists left.
I’ve been considering not ranking USC/LA County high for some
complicated reasons, too. Very sad… I kind of knew I’d have close to no
shot at getting back to CA, but it’s still sad.
November 23, 2004
Motezuma Visits
I interviewed at St.
Vincent’s in
November 22, 2004
“[Nirgal] ‘You can’t choose your childhood,
it’s just what happens to you. But after that you choose. I chose Sabishii [University]. And that’s really what made
me.’
‘Maybe,’
Art said, rubbing his jaw. ‘But childhood isn’t just those years.
It’s also the opinions you form about them afterward. That’s why
our childhoods are so long.’”
-- A neat little
exchange in Green Mars, Kim Stanley
Robinson
It’s a GREAT
program. One of the
first EM programs in the country.
The docs here wrote one of the standard texts of Emergency
Medicine. I was really impressed today. The interview seemed to go well enough…
had four this AM… fumbled a little on a couple questions, but otherwise
seemed positive enough… hard to read EM docs… they’re usually
pretty laid-back and upbeat.
Positives: Inner-city indigent
population, great trauma experience, ridiculously high level of attending
coverage for a inner-city ED (up to 5!!!!), solid peds,
some really good off-service rotations (PICU, MICU), good ancillary support,
remodeling ED, faculty strong teachers, strong academics and tons of research opps, EM department well-respected, on the med school
campus, national rep, 3-year program, lots of little perks (books, conferences,
academic memberships)
Negatives: BUSY, tough
residency, not as much exposure to tertiary/quaternary-care level patients,
some off-service rotations so-so (Surg), in the ghettO
Man, I really really liked it. I
might rank it higher than USC/LA County… it’s shorter (so I only
get my a**-kicked for 3 years instead of 4)… one
less move (need to do a separate intern year at USC)… better
work/learning environment and a tad easier than USC…
Am I a wimp?... or just getting
old?:
I’m really
feeling like dropping Jacobi. Mainly because it adds an extra move (need a
separate intern year like at USC), and I’m a little intimidated by
NYC… don’t think I’d really like actually living in the Bronx
for 3 whole years… should be fun, but I dunno…
kind of stressful living in NYC too… aie…
So am I a wimp? am I getting old? I scheduled it very late, so I still have a
lot of time to think it over…
November 20, 2004
PHENOMENAL!!!!! It was incredible! Hard to describe, but it was, by far, the funnest, loudest, and most intense sports event I’ve
been to… ah… makes me want
to go to USC, Harbor-UCLA, UMD, OSU, or Highland (can bug my cousin at Cal)
just for the college sports… =)
Interviews:
In =
November 18, 2004
Day of Pain:
Just got out
of Step 2. god that was an awful 8 hours of staring at a
computer screen. Well, the good thing,
is that after all this time in medical school, you kind of develop a sort of
apathy towards the whole thing… at the same time I am a little pissed
about getting my vitamins mixed up and missing an easy one (murphy’s
law – know all the answer choices except the correct one). BLAH! Also bummed that I was one of the last ones to finish. Well, going to eat steak and drink some EtOH. Cleaning, research, and v-ball tomorrow. Ohio State-Michigan on Sat.
November 17, 2004
Rejection #5:
Stanford. 4/4 in CA.
Interview #17:
George
Washington. =) This one makes me happy. =)
Pre-Boards Routine:
1)
Listened to
U2’s new album How to Dismantle an
Atomic Bomb on u2.com
--
I think if we consider the theme of the last album, “social justice and
love are important,” this album is something like, “hey. HEY. HEY!
HEY LISTEN! SOCIAL JUSTICE AND LOVE ARE IMPORTANT!”
--
I think I miss Bono’s
lyrics from JoshuaTree-ActungBaby-Zooropa… used
to paint really neat, sometimes cryptic, word pictures. The lyrics on this album aren’t very
sophisticated.
--
The neatest thing about this album is that they do some retro-stuff, some
guitar riffs in ‘tribute’ to bands like Echo and Bunnymen, and lyrical cadences reminiscent of the War-Boy
album styles
2) Watched Saved!, with Mandy
--
Actually, a decent teen-flick. Good,
standard coming-of-age issues. The spoof
of contemporary Christian culture is pretty ridiculous at times, but enough
truth in it to be pretty amusing/disturbing.
3) Watching Lost
on TV right now, and probably going to watch Starsky & Hutch after…
Wish
me luck tomorrow…
November 16, 2004
Rejection #4:
UC Irvine. That’s 3/3 in CA. Sucks to Orange County. I don’t like it there anyways.
Futile:
This studying thing
is entirely futile at this point.
I’m unmotivated. I’ve
run out of Kaplan questions to do. Even
if I had more questions (I can redo all the ones I got wrong actually),
I’m at a point where I don’t even have the patience for such a
thing. So… since I’m totally
bored I think I’m just going to blog some more.
The OC:
As hot as she is,
I’ve decided that I can’t date Marisa. She is just too CRAZY in the head. Always yelling and getting upset. Why can’t she just chill out for one or
two episodes? I mean,
even teen drama characters need to mellow out a little. And, then, who falls for the open shirt
pool-boy thing, anyways? Kind of greasy, yeah?
I don’t think it’s that hot all the time in orange county…
As an unrelated
thought, after recent people watching at volleyball and Panera,
I’ve recently thought that dating a blond would be an interesting change.
Also, I’ve
realized that I need to hang out with DC more often. Last time I heard of anyone liking me purely
by physical attractiveness was when I was hanging out with her and her friends. That was one great visit.
BBC World News:
I don’t think
I’ve ever mentioned that I’m a total sucker for the intro –
it’s a kind of artistic representation of the big bang with the earth
popping up on the screen, orbited by ‘debris’ that is the major
headline… all that backed with a techno-type track… heehee. The graphics
during the election were even better.
They had the
Step 2:
So my boards are
Thursday. I have to be at the test
center between 630-700am. That means I have to wake up at 600am at the
earliest. This is going to be
brutal. Since I’ve been just going
to the gross anatomy lab at my own leisure, I haven’t been able to wake
myself up earlier than 730am…
Interview Trail:
I hit the trail
pretty hard starting next week.
It’s going to be a crazy four weeks until I head home for winter
break. I get to visit GL and LY in
DC/Baltimore, though. That’ll be
good fun. So, I scheduled it so all my regional
programs would go first, then I take on the
heavy-hitters on the East Coast +
Next week –
Detroit Receiving,
Week of 11/29 –
Sinai-Grace,
Week of 12/6 –
Henry Ford, Yale, Hahnemann
Week of 12/13 –
Johns Hopkins, Jefferson
Week of 12/20 –
January – Jacobi
November 15, 2004
Official Wait List #1:
That’s it
– after being dumped so quickly by UCLA and UCSD, I’m REALLY
PISSED. My boards
studying is futile anyways, I just sent out a couple of emails to some
CA programs saying why I’m interested in their programs… I’m laying it out on the line. I’m either going to sell myself or make
me so frickin’ annoying that they have to
reject me just to stop me from harassing them.
Anyways. I’m actually
probably on an unofficial wait list for a lot of programs since many have sent
of invites for weeks now – including, UI Chicago, UCSF-Fresno, U Maryland,
Bellevue/NYU, Stanford, U Penn, and
November 12, 2004
Rejection #3:
UCLA-Olive View. Punted by another CA
program in their first batch.
That’s 2/2. I’m
actually kind of stunned – how am I getting Jacobi
and Johns Hopkins, but nothing in CA?
Plus, after being on such a roll recently, it was kind of weird getting
a rejection – not that I really wasn’t expecting anything. What a bummer. Not that many programs left that I’d
really really be interested in actually – UC
Davis, Harbor-UCLA… those would be the two major ones left. Certainly should hear something from more
programs next week.
Interviews #14-16:
Henry Ford (
Well, that’s it
– I’m at my limit. If I get
any more interview offers, I’m going to start dropping programs. Right now I’ve got a great mix of
reaches, back-ups, and mid-range programs… perhaps skewed a bit on the reachy-side, but I should be good to go for the match.
I tell ya’ – trying to arrange my interviews, shopping
online, and neurotically checking my email is a lot more interesting than
studying… blah! I’m really
dragging with less than a week to go until my boards… only got in a few
hours of studying + 100 practice questions yesterday… but, I did get to
cook and watch The OC and North Shore… =)
Important Deaths:
Arafat, Iris Chang
(author Rape of Nanking)
I’m sure
hundreds of millions of people would like
November 10, 2004
“There’s
no need for you to say you’re sorry,
Good-bye I’m
going home.
I don’t care no more, so don’t you worry.
Good-bye I’m
going home.
I hate the way that
even though you know you’re wrong,… you
say you’re right.
I hate the books you
read and all your friends…
Your music’s shite, it keeps me up all night, up all night.”
-- Oasis
Aie! Dios
Mio!:
This is
embarrassing… I’m actually accumulating too many interviews. Just
got Henry Ford (
But, needless to say,
I’m really happy with my
interview lot. I’ve got a lot of
really great programs in my queue.
November 8, 2004 (later)
Interview #13:
Just got Hahnemann in
November 8, 2004
Rejection #2:
UC
Interview #12:
WOW! Kind of surprised by this
one. It’s a really high-powered program…
universally considered one of the top programs in the country. I wasn’t even going to try applying there
until after ACEP – maybe my schmoozing paid off. =)
Gives me a little relief that my application isn’t just in a
holding pattern at a lot of programs – I’ve been checking my email,
almost literally on the hour… this is nerve-racking… I expect to hear from
Tally:
36 applications (way
too many)
2 courtesy interviews
(at my elective rotations in
10 interviews
2 rejections
Last Election Thought:
Here’s
something to chew on. I contend that, as
a Christian, your fundamental theological beliefs determine your political
allegiance. If you believe in free
will-based salvation instead of a predestination/sovereignty-based salvation, I
will argue that you are Republican by nature, and vice versa. Each political party carries basic
assumptions about human nature that drive their political beliefs. Republicans have an idealistic construction
of human nature – that individual freedom is the
highest good and removing impediments to that freedom is one of the primary
functions of government. Very free will. In
contrast, Democrats have a much more negative construction of human nature
– that man is weak, fallible and often unable to
overcome a multitude of negative, external factors – government,
therefore, ought to act benevolently and proactively in its
constituency’s best interest. Very paternalistic.
To support my argument empirically, I think you would find that areas
with strong white Protestant work ethic morality tended to vote
Republican. Ah, this idea has a number
of flaws, but QED, anyways. =)
November 6, 2004
“So I start a
revolution from my bed
‘Cause you said the brains I had weren’t in my
head”
-- Oasis
Obnoxious comment of the day (on public forum Student Doctor Network):
“i'll
be meeting with my advisor early next week to figure out which programs to
decline. he wants me to cut about 10 at this point, so
hopefully those interviews can be used by someone else out there.”
Gee thanks… ‘cause the
rest of us are so awful that we could really
really use the favor…
I wonder if he realizes that he sounds like an a**hole…
There’s another loser on this forum, he applied across the board
and has TWENTY-SIX interviews – no reason at all for which programs he
applied to. To give you more of an idea
what an idiot this dude is, people aim for around 10 interviews and max out around
16. He’s got more interviews than
programs applied to for most people.
And, apparently, he’s taking his sweet time hording them…
god I want to flame his a** so bad.
Reminds me why I
never could stand hanging around pre-meds much… come to think of it, I can’t think
which is worse – putting up with pre-med talk or all that retarded
pro-smoking rhetoric…
November 5, 2004
Volleyball:
Ah… that was
great…pretty ugly, and I felt like I was falling all the time, but good
fun…
Dropping like Flies:
Another buddy bit the
dust. DC is married. KW will be soon. SC just got engaged.
It was okay. Had interviews straight away in the morning,
so it took one-two to warm up… hard to imagine, but I think I ramble
a lot. Need to be more concise. Still have the tendency to qualify myself a
lot too… Well. Good practice, anyways.
Pros: Very good peds training, good off-service rotations, lots of
procedures, definitely can get on a fellowship/academic track, for whatever
reason the department has a good amount of political clout at the university,
university-affiliated,
Cons: Tertiary care
hospital pts not exactly what I imagined working with, trauma experience
adequate but not impressive
Otherwise, it’s
been a really dry week. I thought
I’d hear from programs, but only got that one rejection and that’s
it… makes me a bit nervous…
Fun Party Fact:
For grossly
overweight persons (even beyond the OH-standard) who couldn’t fit into a
CT or violated the weight limit (usually around 400 lbs), they used to send
them to the horse CT at the Columbus Zoo.
Now, for liability reasons, the zoo won’t let hospitals use their
horse CT for humans anymore.
November 2, 2004
Election:
Too
distracting… can’t study… have to see how
Back-country:
Well, I guess that
does it. I’m now living in the
most ignorant, homophobic state in the union.
Not only did the statewide issue
(#1) amending the state constitution to basically allow legalized bigotry pass,
but locally, looks like the smoking ban is going to be amended (#4 ie have ridiculous loopholes) allowing people to commit
suicide, take down other people with them, and perpetuate the #1 preventable
cause of cancer, heart attack, stroke, death, and disability in the
country. Disgusting.
Rejection #1:
November 1, 2004
Kerry is dropping by
at 1130pm for his last campaign stop after being here last week. Cheney was here this AM. Mrs. Edwards was here yesterday.
Got to vote
tomorrow to protect the stupid. Some Toledo-ites
want to revoke the smoking ban and start killing themselves and other people in
public places again. Also some poorly
defined issue in
Nervous:
I’m getting a
bit neurotic about checking my email every hour or so to see if I’ve
gotten any new interview invitations.
Dean’s Letters went out today – so most programs will be
sending out invites in bunches this month… Kind of nervous about getting
invites at non-regional programs (getting Yale and Jefferson this early is not
the norm)… I’d be happy enough in
Current Interview List (11):
European Ambitions:
Looks like the
I think it’s
time to check my email again……….
October 31, 2004
Blah:
Now I remember why
the first two years of med school sucked so much. All I do all day is sit around with my nose
in a book or staring at my laptop. I
find myself getting pretty dull in the head.
2½ more weeks of this… ugg. My “break” this week is heading
to Columbus Weds-Thurs for my
On the other hand,
I’ve been sleeping 8-10 hours a day.
That’s been a nice change of pace.